We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
I think it might be good for you to ask for support from your school counsellor. You won't be the first person in your school to have had issues with self-harm and they're a trained professional.
I hope you're able to engage with him/her.
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
They've already taken me to the hospital. They know me.
Which is hwy I'm scared.... they think I got better.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
Carmen is right, very few professionals will think someone just magically stopped self-harming and got better - they know better than that.
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
My grades are shit, and there's only two weeks left.
That piled on top of everything else is too much.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
That's a good point, the only problem is is that I'm in danger of repeating the same math for the fourth time, which I really can't do for several reasons. I have a 60.7 right now, anything lower is an F. If I get an F, I have to retake the class, but if I can keep it at a D or higher, I'll pass. I suck at math, but I'm pretty sure I can save it, I'm just really nervous.
As for my summer plans, I have a ton of church camps (which I enjoy cause the roadtrip and to get away from family for a bit, but I don't like the rest) And then my family is taking a week vacation to a lake cabin, so that will be good. I'm not really sure what else we have though
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
Yes, I have talked with her, but there's really nothing she can do other than give me all the missing assignments, and everything is due by tuesday.
There's is a thing at my school called the 504 plan, and it basically gives the teacher a stack of papers explaining my situation and what accommodations need to be made so I can be successful. It explains what mental issues there are and how much work I'm allowed to get and stuff. My counselor wants to do that next year, and I really think that will help.
I really enjoy playing rec league basketball, but I think we're going to be gone too much during the summer. I got a dog a few weeks ago, and I'll be a little busy keeping HER busy, so that's good.
I'll have to talk with my mom and see what things are available in my area for me to do.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
I can't get it out. I can't stop thinking about it. It's a plan, in a way.
I can't stop wondering about it and forming it and planning it.
I don't want to do it, but at the same time I really really do.
It's scaring me. It's kind of like a voice that won't stop talking about it. I'm thinking about it every second of every day. It keeps telling me something that i'm not sure how to feel about.
I won't turn sixteen.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
could you try writing out the idea and then tearing up and generally destroying the paper? I know that sometimes it helps me to get it out of my head at least for a little while and destroying the paper is a physical way of fighting the thoughts and plans.
As for not being able to stop thinking about it I know that one sometimes the best you can do is to try and keep distracting yourself and live in the short term minute by minute, the thoughts might stlil be there or they might go away for a bit but it can help make them a bit easier to handle. Stuff i find good is listening to music or watching tv while doing something else like drawing or bouncing a ball into the wall or playing a matching game on facebook or solitaire with real cards anything thaat isnt too much effort but helps keep your mind and hands somewhat occupied.
Sorry to hear you're feeling so distressed, I hope you can keep talking here xx
I'll try to keep talking. If I'm gone for more than two hours, it's trouble, because I usually always have access.
Those are good ideas, I'll try them.
I just feel so trapped as of right now.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
But guys. Night is creeping up on me. I don't know how to handle it.
I think I'll watch a movie?
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
I'm scared to be happy. I'm scared to get too high up, because I'll only crash.
Does that even make sense?
Why do I feel so shitty all the time?
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
I'm low on words, but it makes sense. I used to always feel like that.
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
Just go for a walk, something. I really want to meet Q, but I really doubt mom would let me. The only way I could go out alone is if I take the dog, but I can't sit with Q and have her.
I just want to talk to him face to face.
Fuck. I'm not allowed to do anything.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
