I'm sorry to hear you ended up hurting yourself, but well done for handing in the blades, that's really good :) One little slip up doesn't mean you stop doing well, the fact that you're still going means everything.
How do you feel the review went? I'm glad talking to your CPN helped.
How do you feel about your impending discharge?
Try not to panic too much about Christmas, people understand about time restraints etc - perhaps you could plan a day in the new year and have like a mini Christmas and give people things then? Christmas is built up so much these days but it shouldn't be a pressured time.
Thanks for updating us :)
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Review was a bit pointless cos there wasn't much to say. The plans for discharge are the same, and they just said I'd been working hard which I have been.
I'm a bit nervous about discharge because christmas will be stressful and I have barely left the ward for a fortnight and when I have I've passed out and ended up in a&e. Life was hell before I came in and I don't want to go back to that. That being said things feel calmer so hopefully the passing out will calm down.
I feel like a bitch for not getting people xmas presents but there's no way I could handle town and shopping right now.
Hi Katie, do you know what support you will have once you are discharged from hospital? I really wouldn't worry about buying presents, your family and friends will understand that you have been unwell and in hospital and haven't had the chance to go shopping.
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When life gets you down do you know what you've gotta do?
I wont have much support because of the christmas break but I have my CC and therapist in the new year.
Spent the afternoon waiting around in hospital with my friend (she's ok). We spent like four hours waiting so I'm exhausted now. But I haven't self harmed or passed out today which is fucking great.
Glad to hear the last bit - sounds like good progress in the right direction!
It's not the ideal time to come out of hospital what with Xmas break. You have a few people around who can support you a bit 'til the therapist and CC get back don't you - like your Mum and boyfriend? And there's always people onn here as well.
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My boyfriend will be with his family over Christmas but I'll be staying with my mum, she's coming to pick me up when I get discharged on Monday. I'm reeaaallly stressed by the idea of Christmas. I'm not prepared at all and theres no time! I hope I get some sleep tonight.
You've already got plenty to cope with so try not to stress too much about Christmas! Most people won't expect presents from someone who's been really ill and in hospital.
I've just ignored Christmas so far. I'll have to deal with the stuff on the day- but I haven't felt able to cope with buying presents and I've been at home so got less excuse than you.
I've ended up asking my Mum if she wouldn't mind buying herself something she'd like as a gift from me, and chosing Dad something as well. I'm going to pay her back when I see her. She was surprisingly OK about that. My brother always opts out of Christmas anyway and visits a few days after. And the friends I get things know it probably won't happen until January. I do feel guilty, but no one seems to mind too much.
Yeah thanks. My step mum said she would buy the kids christmas presents from me and everyone else will just have to wait!
My Eczema has flared up badly because I'm so stressed. I have no idea why I'm feeling so shit. I'm meant to be having dinner with my boyfriend tonight but I only just woke up from a bad night and I don't feel well/up to it at all. I'm freaking out. I think it's partly my weight. I'm so fucking ashamed of my weight I can't cope with being this size anymore but losing weight takes time. I don't have time.
If you're that worried about Christmas presents could you try ordering things online so when you're out you can get them and give them? That's nice of your step mum to get it for the kids :).
Did you manage to go and have dinner with your boyfriend? Are you currently getting any support for your ed? Z
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It's good your step-mum is helping with the gifts for the kids.
How did last night go? I hope you're feeling a little better.
What support do you have for your ED at the moment? I know the people on the ward aren't very helpful but do you have anyone else?
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no I don't have any support for my ED, I had a referral done a while ago but they declined it because my weight wasn't low enough. I.e. I'm too fat. Like I didn't know that already. There aren't any options where that's concerned. Although I did actually have a dream that I got myself a private dietician.
Didn't end up going out with bf last night because I wasn't up to it. He came here instead and dropped off my xmas present. He's meant to be coming tonight but tbh I hope he doesn't because I'm just so tired.
My best friend has been in hospital with kidney stones which was a bit stressful. My weight is through the roof and it makes me want to die. I'm getting discharged tomorrow and I'm just not prepared. My Eczema is really flared. I've been asleep most of the day. I'm dreading christmas.
Have you ever looked into going private for ED support? It might be helpful.
I'm glad your boyfriend came round to see you, I hope it helped to see him.
Can you talk to anyone about what's stressing you at the moment and your concerns about discharge?
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♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I hope the PRN helps if you need it. Do you have any support in place from MH teams over the next couple of days now you're discharged?
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♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
Feel awful to be honest. So tired. Just want to sleep forever. Feeling very low as well, want to overdose and be done with everything. Or jump off something high. Just want this to stop.
No support from MH people because it's Christmas. Can call duty people tomorrow if I need to. I never do though.
Do you think talking to the duty team might be helpful right now?
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♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I'd feel like a class A idiot if I did. I've literally just been discharged. Can't I last even one day? I hate myself. I've got some PRN I could take....
It doesn't make you an idiot. It's normal to need some support while transitioning from being IP to being discharged.
Perhaps taking some PRN would help and just to try to get an early night?
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♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I went to bed pretty early but had a horrific night of nightmares all fucking night. Saw some horrible things. My mind is a disturbing place. Want to save the PRN for when I really need it, I don't have much of it. Feeling pretty low and stuff today. Wish there was an easy way out of this.
