i used to think i hated you
i used to want to move away
i thaught we had nothing in common and probably would never be friends
every day was so hard to get through because i couldnt tolerate your ****
im so sorry
im so so sorry
i know now, youre my best friend
when i thought you were acting against me
you were fighting for me
i love you so much
im sorry i dump so much stuff on you
i wish you were still the same person, i hate who you're becoming but only because you don't need me in your life anymore. i can't lose you. i wish all these stupid exams and stress had never got in the way. i could have talked to you. maybe you wouldn't have changed.
you're the closest i have to a best friend.
i wish things were the way they were in february,before any of this really happened.
i wanna talk like we used to. i miss it, i miss you (the real you) so much.i love you.
im sorry
i don't think i can stop this
im so sorry
-When I said I was ok that weekend, I really wasn't. But I know you've got your own problems, so I didn't tell you how bad I was really feeling. I spent that weekend with you, when I could have had my last chance to see him alive, and now I feel guilty. That's why I haven't seen you since, because you remind me of what I missed with him. I'm sorry, I'll be there on Friday, I promise.
-I'm sorry I'm imposing on you, but I have nowhere else to go. I know you don't want me around this much, but I need it, I promise, as soon as I can, I'll get out of there and into my own place.
-I know it seems like I don't care, but trust me, I really do care. I just can't be there for anyone at the moment, not with what my mind keeps telling me at the moment. You helped me through it last time, but you've got too much going on this time, and I know you can't. I'll be ok though, I always am, right?
-I didn't lie to you. I find it so hard to open up to people. Hell, I couldn't even tell you that, I'm sorry, you thought I wasn't opening up to you, thought I didn't love you, but I really did love you, more than you know. And I really wish you'd stop having a go about other people's business, and keep out of my stuff now. If you don't want to talk to me, then don't. Don't just say that and then have a go at me three days afterwards.
~Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
I'm sorry I'm such a loser and a disappointment to you all.
I'm sorry you can't understand.
I'm sorry i can't get control of myself
I'm sorry for being such a tit.
I do love you very much tho.
Changes can come from many, but only when the many come together to form what is invincible, the power of one.
i'm angry at you. becuase you think you can buy me. ever since you got your new job when ever you do something wrong you offer me money or presents and then your the hero again, the generous soul.
i dont need your money. i want your love.
Location: The 'official' Middle-of-Nowhere! Namely, a tiny little village in the South-West.
I am currently:
I need you to be there, to fill the biggest gap from when she left. I need you to reply to my calls for help because I love you. I don't know if you love me, maybe you hate me but I doubt I'll ever know.
I hate you, you left me, you rejected me and I don't know what to do. I'm not good enough, I'm the one you screwed up. Go and be happy, but don't try to string me along. All or nothing.
I just want to be happy and calm and free. Instead I'm me.
When I see your ranting threads, I am just so sad.
Because you are sad.
And when you said you set a suicide date, I actually started crying.
I don't know, maybe I'm trying to make up for not saving Mike.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE consider what you're doing.
I'm afraid for you..
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
i hate that you died yesterday.
when we were in middle school, you were in my seventh grade science class. and a bunch of other classes too.... but we sat together in science.
you were the nicest kid in that whole damn middle school.
and now you're dead.
kathryn baby, im sorry. i never meant to hurt you. you mean the world to me and all i do is make you feel worse. you tell me i dont but i know i do. i can tell. i should never have told you and made you worry. its all my fault. im sorry for being such a cr*p friend and for not being who you want me to be..
mummy, im sorry for the mistake you made because you ended up with me. you dont deserve to have such a terrible daughter and deserve a hell of a lot better. i just wish you didnt love me sometimes so i dont hurt you as much as i do right now..
please dont hate me.
And it's YOU who keeps ME going on a hard day..ILY<3