Support for Jo [On Edge]...

[Heaven Knows]

♥ I wish I had words. I love you.
x Katie x

[on edge]

i love you too Katie

im falling apart completely losing it because of them and i cant stop it. im so scared of what im going to do next, i just cant cope .
the nightmares and flashbacks are taking over now, i dont get a break from them and im having more and more panic attacks.

im feeling really suicidal and im scared so scared
i need help before its to late

[Heaven Knows]

Jo.

Did you ever go back to the doctor about this? I think you really need to reach out to them to get some help during this especially hard patch.

*hugs* None of us want to lose you Jo.

x Katie x

[on edge]

the doctor upped the doses of two of my medications, but theyre going to take a little while to take affect.
but the reason everything has intensified so much is because courts very close.
im just not sure if i can keep fighting that long
the suicidal feelings are getting worse by the day, and now im thinking i'll be better off if i die. all the pain and suffering will stop.
im sorry im just not in a good place right now

[on edge]

in a real bad way and im scared
thoughts are out of control and my head is planning, i dont like this.
maybe its telling me its my time to leave
i dont know im just so confused and exhausted just want it over now
*cries*

[Heaven Knows]

I really do wish I could help Jo ♥
I wish there was something I could do or say to make this easier for you. If there was, I'd do it in a heartbeat. It's not time to leave Jo, you've come so far. The court case is nearly over darling. Don't let it beat you now. In it together, right?
*hugs and rocks*
x Katie x

[on edge]

thank you Katie that means a lot it really does
i just wish you could take the memories and bad thoughts away, im scared that i will act on them.
really not time to leave? nearly over
in it together yeah .....thank you
*hugs in close*

[Heaven Knows]

*sits with and holds hand*

Together ♥ Nearly over. Promise. When's the court date? Once that's over can start recovering; and medication kick in soon. All helps.

x Katie x

[needle girl]

head plannin doesnt mean time give up, shows how much strugglin though. each day that goes by is one day closer to being done with court, one day farther away from the last time was hurt. *hugs* be gentle with self n try do things you enjoy/to relax <3

[on edge]

Katie the court date is 19th mar

planning and sinking, losing the fight
got no more words sorry

[on edge]

i cant cope anymore
everything is just to much *cries*
i cant do it i cant im sorry
my head wont stop plotting and planning, everything is out of control.
i cant take nomore

[Heaven Knows]

No words. Thinking of you <3
Love you xxxx

[on edge]

really really struggling and my head wont stop.

im waiting for a call from my solicitor regarding me attending court and im scared to death right now.
if i have to be there, in the same room......i cant it will break me.
*curls up cries*

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs Jo*

I know it's really close but it will be okay. It is so close to being over. Let us know how it goes with the solicitor when you can honey.

I wish I could help <3

x Katie x

[on edge]

*cuddles into*

my solicitor called last night and she said that the judge wants me to be there so the jury can see what theyve done to me.
i dont want to go i dont want to see them, im scared what if i have flashbacks and panic attacks, i have them all the time now but seeing them is going to make them even worse.

im in a bad way just now and not coping well, my thoughts are all over the place and urges are so strong.

*curls up in tight ball*

[CrazyAboutMonkeys]

Hunnie, You got to fight against them in the court okay?? I know about the flashbacks and panic but can you try to tone it down a little bit if not that much done. Just take care of yourself first then you will be free when the court is done! Good luck!

*hugs*

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs Jo*

I know it's gonna be hard for you honey, but it's so close to being over. Try to be brave and face them in court. They're gonna be punished for this - you've done so well.

If I could be with you I would darling <3

x Katie x

[on edge]

*curls up shaking and crying*

not coping at all im just a complete **** up

[Heaven Knows]

♥ xxx

[on edge]

i cant do this i really cant,
dont want tomorrow to come im so scared
i just want to end it today
i cant cope anymore
im losing it
im just losing it
*shakes and cries*