*hugs* sammi this is a positive thing. It gives others hope for themselves that you are getting help. You can do this. I know you can. You are stronger than you realize.
I know you know deep down that this is the right decision and I can understand that you're filled with a lot of intense emotions right now and are feeling very vulnderable. Be gentle with yourself over the next few days. Know that you are going there to get better so you do not have to feel this scared and vulnerable anymore.
How did distracting yourself earlier work out? DO you think you can carry on doing that?
Take care
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
Sammi sweetheart im thinking of you and worried for you so much.This is the right decision.i know your head is telling you otherwise and i knew it would.That is the nature of your ED and how strong it is.i know it must be so hard to try and work against but please keep fighting it and pelase let people try and help you.You really need it right now.
You are a strong person.Look at all youve come through.Dont give up now.Hang on in there sweetheart.
xx xx
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
My anorexia is really kicking up a stink, saying Im not ill enough and Im fine.
When I go in on Monday they said I will be on bed rest and not allowed to leave the unit at all for 12 weeks! Because I am medically unstable and could die and my heart is ****ed.
Oh oh oh Sammie *holds gently*
As scary as it is, I'm proud of you for going in and it really sounds like they'll give you the care you need. Can you talk back to the anorexic thoughts? Tell them they are wrong! Everyone here thinks you're doing the right thing. Don't believe the doubt, challenge it with facts if you can - you're obviously ill enough, hence the concern.
I agree focusing on positive things after hospital is a good idea, remind you why ypure doing this. Can you make a list for us? Put it here and on your wall?
You deserve to be well. So so much. This is a.scary but exciting chance to get your life back.
I'm proud of you for saying that you're going to work with them.
I understand that you must be terrified but you CAN do this, you need this.
I believe in you
<3
to here?might help?kinda like plauging yourself with why you want to recover,just like the ed plagues you...sometimes you do have to constantly remind yourself why you want to do things in order for them to mean something(kinda like reverse ED)?
You'll be okay love. Just stick to your logical, strength-filled side against the ED & remember that you said you'd cooperate with them. Stick to those words. Your ED(well, everyone's ED) is extremely illogical, it's a liar, it's only desire is to control and destroy you, it's not right in anything it says, it's all utter BS. The goals it sets are unreachable as it will never be enough. rust me and everyone else in that.
So, you can either carry on and end up dead(to be blunt, because you will, and very soon by sounds of it...) or you can choose life and beat this bitch down to the hell it came from.
Print off everything positive, print off what you have said about recovery, and about cooperating to spur you on and remember that.
Regarding packing, perhaps do a bit over the next 2 days(I'm including today, hence 2 days, or 3 if you do some in the morning of Monday). Do half and half for each day?
I'll get working on your letter & also a birthday gift for you. I'll always be there if you want to chat/support/advice/rant etc, as will we be on here if you have access to us. ( I remember Helen having access and many other people, too when they're in hospital, so hopefully you will too? Perhaps bring your laptop and a dongle for internet if you're allowed and if you can access the internet? )
Wishing you the best of luck Sammii ~ you can do this.
It must be very scary this weekend waiting for Monday but at least once you get there, you are there and there will be less turmoil in your mind over whether you are going or not.
Stay positive chick, I'm so proud of you. I understand that it's all really overwhelming and scary right now but whatever your head is trying to tell you, you're doing the right thing and you ARE strong enough to beat this. Take it easy over the next couple of days and don't worry too much about packing if you're exhausted. Can someone bring more stuff in to you once you've settled in and know what you're going to want? You won't have the energy or concentration to do much for a while so take in stuff that will keep you occupied but doesn't require much effort - loads of music and a big stack of Friends and Disney DVDs got me through when I was stuck on bed rest!
Thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes,
RBT x
I give myself very good advice
But I very seldom follow it
Could explain the trouble that I'm always in...
:) That's good! Least you can then have something to do while there
(for other things you could bring a notebook/diary and pens, pencils, crayons, colored pencils, etc, books, DVDs to watch on your laptop(laptop charger obv!), if you have a TV there too, videos & DVDs again, anything that makes you feel homey like your own quilt cover, pillows, cups, posters, curtains, plants, etc. Clothes obv, & shoes & socks & all that :) Something to put the papers you get in, (you'll probably get worksheets and meal plans and activity sheets & all that, or just put them wherever you want, don't gotta bring anything I suggest here!) ummm, I think that be it?! Phone & phone charger if you're allowed :) )
Don't worry about posting with a long lecture in response! Just grasp what we're saying if you can.
x
*hugs*
I really hope it can help you & that you can let IP help you
I can't understand how hard it'll be but I know it obviously won't be pleasant, but life can be pleasant. If that makes sense?
Hang in there
xx
I agree with Jodie, I found this post & the other thread made by sammi very upsetting, there is absuloutly no need to say 'my bmi is so low I should be dead.' etc.
I hope you get the help you desperatly need though & I'm thinking of you.
how hypocritical of you Helen. Sorry but its true.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
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