Thanks Oly, no need to apologise. I have been in the meds for over 2 weeks, though the seroquel was inconsistently in my system for weeks before.
The groups are difficult sometimes, but I don't think they are making the stress worse.
The voices won't let up,...
I want to go home.
Last edited by rara avis : 11-07-2011 at 09:07 AM.
You're welcome. I know how hard and stressful it is, but antipsychotics can take 2-6 weeks to work.
My advice is to keep doing things, and when the voices come, tell them what you think of them! For example, when I see the Spies, I tell them to f off, or when I hear the voices, I try to say (in my head if I'm in public) something like "you're horrible, worthless voices, nobody likes you and nobody wants you, f off". It sometimes helps to get it out.
You will go home within time, but I know how hard it is; when I was in hospital I was begging the psych to give me leave. But you need to recover first.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Ive been on the seroquel for just over 2weeks, but before thst i was taking them inconsistently for over 2 weeks....and the chlorprom a week and a bit.
The groups are a little anxiety provoking, but mostly i just sit quietly.
No need to apologize Oly, thank you.
The nurses keep saying it's 'escalating'
I'm worried if it gets much worse they'll send me back to the other hospital when all I want to do is go home.
Ok, I think that the nurses should let you adjust to the meds for a couple more weeks, because they don't act fast. Please do try and keep taking the meds though. I'm sorry to hear that the groups do that. What sort of hospital was the other one? Keep strong. There will be a good outcome.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
thanks Oly.
I don't think I can manage this Much longer I have so much restless energy but noproductive energy, my thoughts are all over the damn place, it's so hard to be around people, the voices are worse and I just, I'm really really struggling.
I'm sorry to hear that. I think you should ask to see the psych immediately. Chlorpromazine is a very sedating and calming medication (well at least my textbook says so; I've never taken it), but it depends on what dose you're on. And quetiapine can be rather sedating too. I cannot tell you what should be done re meds as I am not a doctor, but if you're this unwell then clearly the medication is not working.
I hope that things improve soon for you.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Im seeing my Dr tomorrow. My Dr has spoken to my mother and he is decreasing my meds as they aren't working. But I am going home some time next week which is better news. He is talking about discharge and then an readmission in a couple of months.
I think going home might help (although not a definite statement). Being in hospital for long periods of time can sometimes be detrimental. Isn't the doctor going to trial you on some other medication(s)?
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Shocking today. I just ate and threw it right back up, The voices telling me the food was poisoned with a truth serum that the spies were going to use to get The information out of me, i don't know what the information is, its encrypted, coded and i cant figure it out.
I'm not sure what my Dr is doing but I'm seeing him sometime soon (next couple of hours). He also declared me incapable of work or study at the moment.
I slept very poorly last night so I've been quite tired today, I had a nap between groups.
I feel like there is so much more to the world. Dimensions or realms that few people have knowledge of and even fewer can access. I think I'm starting to be able to perceive and spend amounts of time in them.
My Dr isn't reducing my meds anymore. He's actually upped them I think. He's said discharge in the next two weeks depending on my stability.
To be honest I don't care how stable I am, I just want to go home. He said he would really like me to go home, but is concerned about me and wants it to be pleasurable and not me experiencing symptoms of this intensity. He's looking out for me buti just want to go home.
He said if things don't improve in a little while 'we'll have to make some big medication changes'
Today I spent hours in my room, with the curtains closed staring at thewall because all these shapes were moving from the wall and into the space in front of me, it was really interesting but then they started to get too close and I got a bit frightened.
I can't look people in the eyes.
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I understand the desire to go home - I know I had this when I was last in hospital. Going home in that respect could do you some good, as it helps with that urge/desire to get out.
I do agree with the Dr that it is best if the time at home is not too scary or upsetting for you though - and I understand that he is looking out for your well-fare, and so may be reluctant to let you go home if you are unsafe.
I think it is a good idea to ask him about the medicine, and maybe even voice your concern about the food. I doubt what the voices are telling you about the food is true, but I know me saying that may not necessarily help any.
Do you think you could also ask what the likely time-scale would be, so you know in advance; when you would be discharged, how long for, and when they would look to readmit you.
Sending many hugs your way.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I'm sorry to hear tht things aren't going well. I also understand your need to go home - I had the same. I hope that upping the doses will help. I'm sorry that I'm not much help.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Thank you Roiben, you are very kind.
I will be going home for around 6 weeks I think and then in for 3.
He wants to leave the meds as they are to see iftheres any improvement, then next admission reassess if there has been no change.
I will see my Dr today and talk to him about my concerns. I was 12kilos lighter than I am at the beginning of the year so the weight too is bothering me. I suppose that is also contributing to my food intake.
Hey Olu, please dont ever apologize, you give me loads of support even while you are struggling so much yourself. Thank you and I hope you are doing ok.
I can't do anything, I did a tiny bit of drawing but then ended up staring at the walls again. I went to part of the afternoon group but the other patients were being rowdy and the voices were getting worse by the minute and i had to leave. It's like the ball of light just turns into darkness. So i didn't have to go to the rest of the groups today as the staff saw I wasn't managing well. I went and bought some stationary/art supplies yesterday which was good, I found some enjoyment in that which is rare. I'm seeing my Dr later tonight but the nursing staff have been playing phone tennis with his receptionist.
I feel like the floor is floating, the the surface of water again.
Don't look people in the eyes. I don't know who they truly are.
No need to be sorry. I understand how distressed you are. Can you try and absorb yourself in your drawing? It is hard I know. I am sad to hear that the meds are not helping and giving you those side-effects. I hope that the dr will be able to suggest or do something. Remember that if chlorpromazine and quetiapine don't work, there are other antipsychotics that could. Just don't lose hope. Hugs.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Thanks Oly.
I'm trying really hard to keep my mind occupied but the voices and 'perceptual disturbances' are distracting me from my distractions.
I will keep trying.
You're welcome. Could you find a new distraction to take up your time? I find that some distractions can wear off in their efficacy after time.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Since when i go home i will have lots of spare time and have nothing i want to do whehen i was out in the city with mum she picked up a catalogue and left it with me. I am having trouble finding anything at all that i enjoy and I wont be able to get out accompanied for a few days i was looking through the catalogue and it was a toy sale and i found some lego. And its the only thing i feel interested in. So One of the staff members is taking me on an outing today. To go into the city and get some Lego. So I'm feeling good about that. The voices were horrible last night and they are still unpleasant but not as bad as yesterday.
