ok.
you have internet access obviously :p so
since leaving and calling are out right now, why dont you email samaritans, the police, someone who can help you? you need outta there honey
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
im so scared, scared of getting caught, scared if it all goes wrong again. this is ok cause i just push button and gets me off here quick.
i dont think they even no ive got this notebook they think i only have the pc downstairs, my punishments already severe right now i cant move properly cause i hurt so bad where they cut me.
im just weak and stupid
youre not weak or stupid hun
why dont you think about what you would say, then write it out on here/in your journal on here, then you can copy and paste it into an email to make it really quick when theyre not looking.
can you try that?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
I am in an abusive home, my sisters and their friends make me bleed, punish me, and s.a. me on a lot. I can't use the phone or leave or they would hurt me more. Can you help me get away safely?
and Jo, none of it is your fault. Friends showing up a bad thing?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
im not doing to well just now. im sorry i had to leave sharpish last night they wanted me again and it went on for hours, i couldnt get away.
she left at lunchtime then i went to hospital to get checked and stitched up, but it was just so hard couldnt do it all.
im sorry
going through hell, the last couple of days have been horrendous not had any peace from them lots of different people, friends of hers hurting me doing stuff just been constant. theyve been drinking lots and there hands have been all over me touching hurting, its horrible.
been trying to ring that nice lady today but i keep freezing and stuttering then i hang up, im so stupid so stupid.
just got sisters voice in my head all the time saying i bad, bad, it my fault , i dirty disgusting whore goes over and over.
it is my fault i is bad
oh jo, its not your fault, at all. they want to take the fault off themselves and try to make you too scared to reach out for help. they dont want you to get help; they want to keep hurting you and avoid getting in trouble. your sister is lying to you. youre not bad. it is ALL their fault. what they are doing is wrong and against the law.
the nice lady wont think you are bad either. i'm glad youve tried calling her, thats great :D its ok to be nervous, youre not stupid honey. could you write down what you want to say to her and look at it when you call her?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
hey jo I just read all of your thread, you okay sweetie? I'm sooo sorry this is all happening to you. You dont deserve ANY of that I PROMISE. Keep trying to ring that lady or send off an email. Tell them you can't get away or use the phone and can only use the computer sometimes... You can do it hun. I know you can. You don't deserve one bit of that.
-hugs and lots of safe cuddles if you want-
You can always pm me if you need/want to talk about anything okay? Just know that you don't deserve this. ALL their fault.
^ that's good advice, keep trying to get through to that nice lady, or send an email. You can do this Jo, you're very strong and brave and you can get away from this situation.
Jo hun, if she loved you she wouldnt treat you like this. No one ever deserves to be treated like this, ever. No matter what. You havent done anything wrong. Keep trying to call that nice lady or send an email hun.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Keep trying to get out of that house Jo it's okay. *safe cuddles*
You didn't do anything wrong at all, she's just lying and saying you did that was she won't feel as bad about how mean and horrible she's being. It has nothing at all to do with you she's trying to justify herself and make you feel bad all at once. Don't Listen! None of it is your fault! You didn't do anything to deserve this!
