Well done for trying to distract yourself - even if it only works for a while, it's a good thing to do. Does your boyfriend know you struggled this evening?
And is there any chance you could go home a bit earlier than Friday? It's never fun trying to do stuff when you feel ill, it might do some good to rest. Otherwise, Friday isn't too long away - take it as easy as you can and look after yourself.
Would it be worth giving your counsellor a ring before next week? Even if it's just a quick chat over the phone or something, sometimes that can help. x
I guess, but even then it didn't really help.. He is aware yes, but there isn't much he could do really.
I just promised to him that I would go eat something now as I'm feeling very hungry & also would drink something.
I wish I could go home earlier, but it's a specific train I have to get plus money's kinda low so couldn't really pay extra, I have work to do tomorrow as well which has to be in, so will do that in the morning & then try to rest I think..
My counsellor is only in on a Tuesday so no chance :/
Thankyou
No there isn't anything I can really call for help..I don't know..
I just feel like I need to cry to let it out, I keep kinda tearing up but I can't cry,,this sometimes happens until a point where it just comes out at once but right now I feel like I need to.
I had a snack & not feeling so hungry now but I am tired but waiting to talk to my boyf & I can never sleep anyway.
Thank you :)
I got to bed at around 4am and just woke up & my heart is going really fast which is annoying me, maybe a little worrying but hey..drinking some water as I think I'm dehydrated.
I go home tomorrow for the weekend & look forward to it, I see my family & boyf (again, ha!)
I am a bit worried that I'll end up doing stuff at home but I really don't want to & trying hard not to today but it's the evenings that are always the hardest part
Sorry to bump again But I'm finding it hard to take in fluids, I managed a small bit when I woke up as my heart was pounding as I said, & now I'm feeling worse and I just can't bring myself too.
I measured my waist and it's smaller & all I can think is restrict,restrict,restrict which may be why..
Aw honeypie, please try to drink. I know it's hard, I'm in such a similar place, remember the other day how you all encouraged me to drink? Remember that goes for you too.
Water will not make you gain weight. Your body needs water to live. You will end up in the hospital sick so fast if you don't. Please at least try to sip on some water? The pounding heart is a sign of dehydration already...please don't let this get worse <3 I'm worried about you.
*holds*
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
Just read through your thread, I hope you dont mind me replying.
Jess speaks a lot of truth, you really need to try and drink something, even if it's just a little bit. Or you could suck on ice chips if that would be easier, just an idea.
Please take care of yourself sweetheart, we're all here for you, you can get through this, pm anytime xoxo *cuddles*
Thank you both of you, it means a lot :)
I have woken up pretty dehydrated so will make myself drink something now as I have work to do and I am going home tonight (yay)
I'm worried about being at home, trying not to purge etc but I will have to try and be strong :/
x
Thank you all of you <3
I'm home now & already comments are being made & I could see my mum staring at my legs..she hates my skinny jeans..
Ugh, my mind is trying to get me to restrict drink intake again & I don't understand why?!
No honey you aren't. You are just sick. But you can fight this, don't let this discourage you! Sip some water or suck on some ice chips, I really don't want you to end up dehydrated in the emergency room. Please try to take care of yourself. We all care about you so much and want you to be okay! Hang in there <3
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
Just letting you know i read all this, hope you don't mind me replying. You're not a screw up, what you're dealing with now is the hardest bit, the bit when your ED fights back harder for control. Hang in there and keep on fighting. Please keep on drinking something - water has 0 calories and it will help to protect your kidneys and keep you from feeling so dizzy.
Hugs xxxx
Of course it's happening inside your head Harry, but why on earth should that mean it's not real?
Thank you to all of you *hugs*
I have drank enough today, well more than I have been lately.. I feel so gross though, I miss being able to purge so easily & fed up of being watched so closely & everything.
Yet being at uni I feel so alone, so vulnerable and so afraid..I just don't know what to do anymore..
I have counselling on Tuesday but I REALLY don't want to leave home but I know that's not an option, I have to go back.
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