I disagree that you're making a big fuss over nothing because, from what I've seen of you, it is definitely something. You deserve help. Honestly you do. A lot of people care about you.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. ~ Girl Interrupted
When you dont want to feel, death seems like a dream. ~ Girl Interrupted
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
I feel kinda selfish for talking, for posting atall. Its so hard to get online, it aches my arms to type & walking to the otherside of my room to get on my computer is just too tiring & I guess I'd rather binge - In fact I can't stop binging&purging.
I'm thinking of you sweetheart. I'm glad you have those appointments for tomorrow. Please be honest with them sweetie. Do you think you should get back into an inpatient program, it sounds like you are really struggling physically and emotionally. I'm just worried about you lovebug. You are strong. Please don't give up. And please don't feel selfish. You are the exact opposite of selfish.
*hugs*
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
Everyone seems convinced I need to go back into hospital,, but I don't know.
Everytime my Mum see's me she always says the same thing - if you carry on you'll be sectioned orrrr your going to be sectioned on the 18th (thats when I have my CPA)
I guess a part of me knows I'm in denial but I don't know what to do about it. I have college & things,, I want to be strong.
Angel, you don't have to be strong though, you need to focus on you & try to get through this denial & get better, please try to think about this hard & logically, you know if you carry on you'll 1) die - how will you do anything then? 2) you'll be sectioned - again, you'll be forced to not do the things you feel you need to be strong for, you need to try & work with them, you can do all these things when you're BETTER.
I love you so much & I can't lose you.
Please, try to think about this... please?
Helen sweetie,, I agree with Sarah.
You could so easily die from this illness if you don't go back to hospital.
I know you're worried about college and stuff but your health has to come first,, & it is actually much easier for you to be helped now,, while your in education.
I mean I work full time,, so I can only see doctors on my one day off,, which doesn't fit in with their schedule. & there's no way I could ever be off sick because I wouldn't be able to pay my rent.
So now really is the time to get yourself better,, & if the worst did come to worst you could just re-sit a year at college.
Everyone would understand and would actually think you were much stronger for taking the help,, it's easy to be carried along in your illness.
xxx
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
