Lyrics to how you're feeling right now.

[Indigo.]

My lover's got humor
She's the giggle at a funeral
Knows everybody's disapproval
...should've worshiped her sooner.
If the heavens ever did speak, she's the last true mouthpiece.
Every Sunday's getting more bleak,
a fresh poison each week.
"We were born sick", you heard them say it.

My church offers no absolutes
She tells me "Worship in the bedroom."
The only heaven I'll be sent to, is where I'm alone with you.
I was born sick, but I love it,
Command me to be well.

A-men.

Take me to church, I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies,
I'll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death, oh good god, let me give you my life.

I'f I'm a pagan of the good times,
My lover's the sunlight.
To keep the Goddess on my side, she demands a "sacrifice"
Drain the whole sea, get something shiny,
something meaty for the main course
That's a fine-looking high horse.
What you got in the stable?(Ooooooooh)
We've a lot of starving faithful.
That looks tasty, that looks plenty,
this is hungry work.

Take me to church
I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies,
I'll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death, good god let me give you my life.

No masters or kings when the ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sins.


In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
Only then I am human, only then I am clean.

AMEN.

Take me to church I'll worship like a dog
At the shrine of your lies, I'll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death, good god, let me give you my life.

[Ardea]

I know you left me standing there
Out of the calm of the coldest air
I don’t believe the words you said
But I can’t find the words I want
Oh, I can’t find the words I want

If you were gone in another life
I don’t believe I would just survive
I could feel you next to me
An escape from the world I’m in
Oh, I’m afraid of the world I’m in

Somebody found me here
Somebody held my breath
Somebody saved me from the world you left
If you’re gonna cry my tears
If you’re gonna hold my breath
If you’re gonna let me see the sun you set
Oh, I am lost and found
Oh, I am lost and found

[Indigo.]

I'm not feeling so sure
It would help if you offered a cure
If I wait it's too late for the remedy
I don't wanna be me.

I'm not feeling so well
Maybe we could just sit for a spell.
And make amends,
It depends on my injury
I don't wanna be me.

[LoveTheNerdLife]

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

[release-me]

Tough girl
I'm in pain
It's lonely at the top
Blackouts and airplanes
I still pour you a glass of champagne
Tough girl whose soul aches

[Buttons.]

Heaven bent to take my hand and lead me through the fire.

[ThatJoshGuy]

Maybe I'm in the black, maybe I'm on my knees
Maybe I'm in the gap between the two trapezes
But my heart is beating and my pulses start
Cathedrals in my heart

As we saw oh this light I swear you, emerge blinking into
To tell me it's alright
As we soar walls, every siren is a symphony
And every tear's a waterfall
Is a waterfall
Oh
Is a waterfall
Oh oh oh
Is a is a waterfall
Every tear
Is a waterfall
Oh oh oh

So you can hurt, hurt me bad
But still I'll raise the flag

[Buttons.]

I'm finding it's not easy to be.

[Rodolphus]

You are the one I can see having fun with,
Not just for tonight, but for the rest of my life,
You are the one I could never be done with,
I want you tonight and for the rest of my life.

[High_Voltage]

How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever?
Set sail to sea but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure

Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid
Always afraid
Of the things he's feeling
He could just be gone

He would just sail on
He would just sail on

How can I be lost?
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched the seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost
In remembrance I relive
How can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

These days drift on inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating
This seeking life outside its hell
Inside intoxicating
He's run aground
Like his life
Water's much too shallow
Slipping fast
Down with the ship
Fading in the shadows now
A castaway

They've
All gone
Away

They've gone away

How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me, why can't I forgive me?

Set sail to sea but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure
How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever

How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost
In remembrance I relive
So how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

[LoveTheNerdLife]

Signature says it all

[Indigo.]

I had a thought, dear
However scary
About that night, the bugs and the dirt.
What were you digging,
What did you bury,
Before those hands pulled me from the earth?

I will not ask you where you came from.
I will not ask and neither should you.

Honey just put your
Sweet lips on my lips,
We should just kiss,
Like real people do.

I knew that look, dear
Eyes always seeking
Was there in someone
That dug long ago.
So I will not ask you
Why you were creeping;
In some sad way,
I already know...

So I will no ask you where you came from.
I would not ask and neither would you.

Honey just put your sweet lips on my lips
We should just kiss like real people do.

I could not ask you where you came from,
I could not ask and neither could you.

Honey just put
Your sweet lips on my lips
We should just kiss like
Real people do.

[Buttons.]

Don't try to grow up yet

[High_Voltage]

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me another way and all that my love can bring

oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart
with half of my heart

your faith is strong
but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
but I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you [x3]
but I can't stop loving you with half of my...

half of my heart
half of my heart

half of my heart's got a real good imagination
half of my heart's got you
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won't do

half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything

half of my heart

[Buttons.]

Lately I've been hard to reach

[High_Voltage]

Oh, it's time to let it go

The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you
When a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew
Don't sweat it, {it was} set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
And it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

All along you know you thought you got the best of me
{But} you were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
I cannot believe you claimed you were my family
Don't sweat it - it's set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
And it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

[Spoken:] guitar

Oh, it's time to let it go

I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold
You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?
It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke...

It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

So play the game until you run out
And play the game into my hand

[lostatsea2025]

stay strong keep moving can't let the darkness blind us. carry on we'll be the ones that pull the stars down to us
(Our Last Night - Same Old War)

[Buttons.]

Heaven bent to take my hand
To help me through the fire
Be the long and painful answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But along the way I got caught up
In all the world has got to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried falling
I have sunk so low
I've messed up better I should know
So don't you come round here and tell me I told you so

We will all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden time always reveals
And the lovely light of morning
And the wound that would not heal

It's the bitter taste of losing everything you hold so dear

I've fallen I've sunk so low
I messed up better I should know
So don't come round me here and tell me I told you so.

Heaven bent down to take my hand

Lost to those i thought were friends
Everyone I know
They turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see

But it's one slip miss step before you know it
And there doesn't seem to be away to be redeemed.

Repeats

[Indigo.]

It's nine o'clock on a Saturday
The regular crowd shuffles in
There's an old man sitting next to me
Making love to his tonic and gin

He says, "Son can you play me a memory
I'm not really sure how it goes
But it's sad and it's sweet
And I knew it complete
When I wore a younger man's clothes"

Sing us a song you're the piano man
Sing us a song tonight
Well we're all in the mood for a melody
And you've got us feeling alright

Now John at the bar is a friend of mine
He gets me my drinks for free
And he's quick with a joke or to light up your smoke
But there's someplace that he'd rather be

He says, "Bill, I believe this is killing me"
As a smile ran away from his face
"Well, I'm sure that I could be a movie star
If I could get out of this place"

Now Paul is a real estate novelist
Who never had time for a wife
And he's talking with Davy, who's still in the Navy
And probably will be for life

And the waitress is practicing politics
As the businessmen slowly get stoned
Yes they're sharing a drink they call loneliness
But it's better than drinking alone

Sing us a song you're the piano man
Sing us a song tonight
Well we're all in the mood for a melody
And you've got us feeling alright

It's a pretty good crowd for a Saturday
And the manager gives me a smile
'Cause he knows that it's me they've been coming to see
To forget about life for a while

And the piano sounds like a carnival
And the microphone smells like a beer
And they sit at the bar and put bread in my jar
And say "Man what are you doing here?"

Sing us a song you're the piano man
Sing us a song tonight
Well we're all in the mood for a melody
And you've got us feeling alright

[Ardea]

I try so hard not to get upset
Because I know all the trouble I'll get
Oh, he tells me tears are something to hide
And something to fear
And I try so hard to keep it inside
So no one can hear