The Safe Room

[Pnuemonia[Blue]]

My partners little boy started yelling at me this morning, saying I was dirty. He's right, he can see and he's only 2.

[l.e.g.o]

your not dirty emma
i promise

[DestroyMe]

Tracie: my mom asked me if I would like it better if I took the reest of this year online to get away from drama

[Pnuemonia[Blue]]

*hides*

[l.e.g.o]

sorry

[Pnuemonia[Blue]]

Why are you sorry jo?
me no feel good
me feel dirty and sick.

[midnightblue]

*hides under a blanket*

[Emo]

* hides under blanket*
:cry

[l.e.g.o]

it all hurts

[troubleshooter]

*gives everyone gentle hugs and teddies* Sunni do you want to do the thing online? And Emma sweetie the baby was just saying that, maybe he thought you had dtuff on your hands or something. And 2 year olds learn new words/phrases and repeat them without having any meaning. You're not dirty.

[l.e.g.o]

*makes a blanket mountain in corner and dives to bottom with cuddly penguin*

[DestroyMe]

yes I do, more then anything
even when I don't talk to her she ruins me
if I see her tomorow I'm going to spend the day in agony
I'm gunna be hung over tomorow, and I'm numb right now from the alcohol, but I can still feel the hole in my chest

[Pnuemonia[Blue]]

Just had a flashback.
Could feel the hands holding my head.
Want to cry but can't.

[ladybug]

hides in corner

[troubleshooter]

*hugs Emma and ladybug* Sunni if you haven't stopped drinking stop now.

[Pnuemonia[Blue]]

*Hugs Tracie*
*Sucks thumb and curls up in a ball*
I be scared

[troubleshooter]

*rocks Emma gently and gives a teddy* Those flashbacks can be really nasty. Want to talk about anything? Or have something that makes it feel better?

[Pnuemonia[Blue]]

*Cuddles teddy tightly* Thank you lots
they held me down, i can feel the pressure of their hands all over me.
I want them to get off.
I want them off of me.

[troubleshooter]

Imagine the feeling of every single hand or bad/yucky sensation being lifted from your body. Slowly disappearing until you can only feel a gentle, safe sensation. Shh, it's ok. *snuggles*

[DestroyMe]

I'm not drinking anymore, I only had one glass that was like 90% rum 10% coke
but I'm so numb it scares me...:((