I'm afriad im actually some messed up poser emo kid. That I self harm for what limited attention i get on this website. But im not sure. I hate myself because of it
Everybody thinks i'm so happy and that nothings wrong at all, little do they know i am in so much pain. I'm just not happy all i want to do is sit in my room and just slice my arm until nothing's left. Everytime I see a ledge i picture my self jumping off of it, falling until i hit the ground and its over, when i dont have to deal with this anymore. I should be happy i feel selfish so many people on here cut for actual reasons i have no good reason i just know it takes away the pain for a few minutes. Nobody knows whats going on
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."
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My world doesn't exsist.
I don't exsist.
I want to fall asleep and never wake up.
I honestly don't think anyone would miss me.
This pain is just too much to bear anymore.
I'm not strong enough to get over this.
i said i really do wanna get better when she asked... but i dont know =s
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I made myself throw up today.
When I finally decide to kill myself, I'm gonna be pretty.
Fuck.
this time she said, it's over
she said next time, forever
i can't explain, i'll take the blame.
i brought this all on myself.
visions that i've seen
always haunt me in my dreams
they say that you two just friends,
oh, but that's not the way it seems
now it's not like i'm trying to be up all night,
just trying to come to terms with all the love i've lost.
I’m really new to RYL, but I really felt inclined to post a general response here. Let me start by sending GIANT *hugs* to all of you that want them.
For many of you I can relate to how you’re feeling and what you’re going through. For others I want to give you my support despite the difference in our situations. And for all of you I send you my encouragement and my sisterly love! You can send me PMs at anytime and I will reply as soon as I sign into my account which is daily.
I have a lot of experience with medical problems, chronic pain, mental health issues, self-harm, the grieving process, relationship problems, childhood abuse, and more! Please feel free to visit my profile and my MySpace page; there you will be able to read more information about me, my husband, and our “story”.
I’m not stating this to get pity, but to show each of you that I can relate in some way. I don’t want to complain to you, or try to “out do” your situation. I simply want to listen, encourage, and if you want provide you with advice based on personal experiences. I’ve been hospitalized, I still SH, I’m still recovering and in therapy for many things. So… I’m not perfect and I don’t claim or want to be.
In closing, *hugs* to all and please, please feel free to contact me. Sending you all sisterly love from Maryland, US!
~Lisa H.
PS: I’ve been disabled for over two years, but have extensive administrative experience. If you need help with resumes or letters, just let me know and I’ll work with you as best I can! *hugs*
Remember to treasure every day of your life, every person you know, and every place you're at, cuz a day will come when it is gone and all you're left with is memories.
~ME
