aww hon i am SOOOOOO happy for you!!!!! ahhhhh God has done amazing things in you life and will continue to do so.....
ahhhh =D yay.
thats making me want to go to camp even more. but the thing is i am not sure about thigs. every wed. at camp they have a bonfire and give the invitation to rededicate your life to God, so far i have gone up almost every year..what does that mean....ah.
but hun that is soo amazing lots of love,
ash
Leave out all the Rest:
[Dreamer&Believer and netsirkylime are my bubbly amigos]
[shakespeare's strumpet is my big sis]
<3[absi is my girlfriend]<3
i know exactly what you mean. i wasn't sure about things either. i sat there with somebody for a long time thinking about what i really wanted and had to do and then i decided. but its been sooooo worth it. have you guys seen the lifehouse skit?
<3 that so so so much =)
i've watched it like a billion times =p
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
i've seen it before this week in videos...but i got to see it in person and its SO different. i could NOT stop crying!
can yall pray for me this week? i'm leaving for another camp like in a few minutes and its not a christian camp. so i'm kind of scared that i'm going to fall back into acting like i was before and i really don't want to do that!
thanks guys =)
i'll definitely pray for you dear.
lifehouse skit = like wow
our youth director talked about doing it.
and i know how that is.
when i gave it up it took me hours to even explain why i was crying
finally we ended up sort of doing 20 questions with her trying to guess what was going on. i couldn't even say it.
but i gave it up at 2:30 in the morning on a dirty bathroom floor
that was humbling
You're so beautiful
You'll always be daddy's girl
You're so beautiful
You'll always be daddy's girl
Just an average girl they might've missed ya
You got a mom a step dad a little sister
I know his words they used to hit ya
You feel fat and ugly so your getting thinner
Sometimes you throw up or you skip dinner
Sometimes you hate the face you see in the mirror
You cry at night but nobody ever seems to hears ya
Nowhere to turn its getting no clearer
You got father in heaven though who wants to hold ya
Wrap ya in his arms lay ya head on his shoulder
Keep ya safe and warm when this world is getting colder
Tell you that you're beautiful over and over
He sees u struggling cause he's the one that knows ya
Sees the pain ya in plus he wants to show ya
How much you mean to him that's why I hope ya
Take the love he gives this is what he told ya saying...
Well do you hate what your looking at
Hate looking at this person that's looking back
Hate the way that they talk behind your back
So ashamed when ya walking to ya class
And every time now that you pass
They tease you any way they can it makes ya mad
You wanna run away from all the stress you have
Just want to fit in but it seems you never can
The other girls treat you like you're so strange
In your life it seems like things never gone change
You just feel like a no name.
And all you wanna do is make it all go away
Skipping school sneaking out your coming home late
Far from cool so you coming up with no dates
How did your own face become what you so hate
When all along you couldn't hear what he was gone say it was..
Do you see how much you mean now to your Father
He don't make no junk but yet you feel you gotta
Chase so many things that this world wants to offer
You got so many needs he wants to fill yet you bother
To try to run after anything this world will give
But do you understand how beautiful you are to him
Cause then and only then that's when you truly live
That's when you comprehend who my Jesus is
Now to every single girl down to every kid
That struggles with your looks but now you always hid
How you felt deep inside but you always wish
To be somebody else well listen up to this
Don't believe the junk don't believe the lies
Cause your always beautiful now through his eyes
In your life you can find ya peace of mind
Cuz for you he died now here's the reason why
amazing kj52 song :)
he's flipping amazinggg
and ashleigh, they did the skit at autumn blaze last year =)
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
KJ is awesome! I've seen him twice!
and our sunday school teacher likes to dance to his stuff.
But i've never heard that song!
I'm gonna go download it.
Also for the ladies is a good one:
This is for the ladies, all the ladies all around the world
This is for the ladies, this is dedicated now to every single girl
This is for the ladies
Alright, I don't care I wanna say this on the mic
Right now right here in the place it's ladies night
I know I might just sound crazy right
there's some things thats goin down and its time to make it right
the world will tell you you gotta be a certain type, look a certain way,
and just be a certain size
Do what they say and it'll just be "alright"
Girl the only thing you gotta be doin is servin Christ
6 years ago I was blessed with a wife
She was sweet and lovely and beautiful and nice
But the one thing that just made her my type
Was the fact that Christ was #1 up in her life
So take my advice
Forget them Hollywood stars, and them Hollywood hair
and them Hollywood cars
Next time you thinkin' that you ain't up to par
Remember God made you beautiful just the way you are
Sick of BET, sick of MTV,
I'm sick of the sex that they always used to selling me
I'm sick of the messed up images they showin me
Im sick and tired of the messes that they say to me
That women are nothing more than sexual property
It's time we come back to treatin women properly
So what I gotta say, I'll say it real loudly
We oughta be treatin' all women like royalty
Only God should be speakin what you gotta be
Only God can give you the love you gonna need
Ladies, if a guy won't treat you as you ought to be
tell him goodbye, show him the door, and where to leave
Don't be afraid just to tell a guy to wait for me
Don't be ashamed just to live your life in purity
See what I say, I just say it now with certainty
that God has so much more if you'll wait and see
On a final note I wanna dedicate this song
to all the women that just keep on seeking God
Just keep on movin and continue standin strong
Keep doin what you doin girl you got it goin on
And the single moms thats just barely holdin on
And you're workin two jobs tryin to make it on your own
No one is home cause the kid's dad is gone
God promises to never ever leave you alone
The final thing that I'll say then I'm gone
To the female singers tryin to get their pose on
Now I ain't tryin to be a hata but wrong is just wrong
Now Britney and J-Lo, please put some clothes on!
Whether yall are red-headed or just a blonde
Make sure that the Son is the one you focus on
And with that said, I'm gonna say "so long"
So get your hand up in the air, ladies, and sing along
love that song too =)
and fanmail/number one fan (cba to find lyrics)
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I've been SI free for 2 weeks now, not long really but it's the longest I've been.
Last week, my youth group got news of a boy, 14, who had hung himself - he came to the youth group once or twice, but I remember him and the news hit me hard.
I was hysterical, I kept asking if he went to heaven even though he took his own life, (he became christian with us) and yeah.
I got home and I just saw knives, scissors, pills, everything that could be used to end your own life. I went upstairs to my room, determined not to cave in, and I just prayed over the boy and his family, and I just felt this sense of need, to help those who feel like they have no other way out. My regret is I never really talked to him, I had no idea what was going on in his life and I keep thinking that maybe if I had reached out, maybe he'd realise that there are people who cared, not everyone is a bully.
That's hard.
We never know what's going on in someone else's head...
I understand how you feel, but you didn't know, there's nothing you could have done.
Remember it's not your fault.
So last night after youth group I was talking to my youth leader, I was telling her that this is a good week for me, because saturday is the 4 year anniversary of when i accepted christ, and then next wednesday is officially 11 months cut free. She was telling me that it's a powerful testimony, and she asked if i'd ever thought about typing it up.
I told her that actually I had, & she told me that some of the guys and girls in our youth group are dealing with SI, & she asked if i'd ever thought about sharing my testimony. I told her that I really want to share sometime before I leave [for school in late august] & she told me that if i'm uncomfortable with it, if i would type it up, she would read it. But I knew that's not what needs to happen, so I told her that I would definitely share it myself.
And I woke up this morning and I'm like, "Wait!?!?!?! What did i just agree to?!?!?"
Lol.
Just pray for me.
God wants me to share even the parts i'm uncomfortable with.
I have such a desire to help those who are struggling in this way...
and maybe this will bring me some healing too?
good luck!
haha actually that really fits with the devo i got this morning and was just about to post =p
"Have you had an incident in your life that God wants to use for His glory? Maybe your story is the ray of light that points someone to God. This is how I was...this is how I am now."
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I just finished typing it up.
And it was hard...
I mean I described in detail the most shameful parts of my life, and the things I'd rather forget...
I'll post it eventually.
Right now I'm gonna go do something happy.
haha
sorry to be a bother I just need to share this with you all
I'm a christian and has been struggling with SI for awhile
right now I'm work at a vacation bible school at a church where I live. I work in crafts; I was helping a frist grader with his craft and he saw the scares on my wrists. He asked me what happen I didn't say anything in response. He grabed my hand fliped it over and kissed the scares and gave me a hug. I was so shocked that I didn't realise what happened untill about 5 minutes later ...... I cried and cried when I got home because of that..... A child shouldn't have to see that ..... I think God used that child as a wake up call.
I just feel ashamed that he seen them
Last edited by xXxFallenAngelxXx : 27-06-2008 at 01:51 AM.
Reason: spelling
sorry to be a bother I just need to share this with you all
I'm a christian and has been struggling with SI for awhile
right now I'm work at a vacation bible school at a church where I live. I work in crafts; I was helping a frist grader with his craft and he saw the scares on my wrists. He asked me what happen I didn't say anything in response. He grabed my hand fliped it over and kissed the scares and gave me a hug. I was so shocked that I didn't realise what happened untill about 5 minutes later ...... I cried and cried when I got home because of that..... A child shouldn't have to see that ..... I think God used that child as a wake up call.
I just feel ashamed that he seen them
why shame? we aren't condemned in Christ.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
Hi I'm new to pretty much everything on here and I'm a strong Christian struggling with SI for 5 years now. I've always wondered what God's views on it were but never being able to talk to any wise christians about it I've never really found out. Obviously he doesn't like it but does he see it as a very bad sin or is it on a par with say swearing or drinking, does he see it as just another addiction? Every time I do it I know I'm failing God and myself but I'm struggling to work out whether God is angry or what I know he's not dissapointed because he can't be dissapointed in us because he expects nothing bigger from us because he created us and knows us completely but i don't know what to say to him other than sorry. Any views on this would be really appreciated I've never met another SI'ing Christian so I just assumed it was a rareity and this has helped to make me feel less alone! I always feel guilty because God should be enough and I shouldn't need to cut and he is but i just can't shake it off me.
I just realised that there are these amazing lyrics and I've finally found a group of people who might appreciate them to their full extent!
‘Pearl’ Gareth Robinson
A Pearl always starts out as a piece of dirt
But it turns into beauty.
And a diamond is the same as the coal in your fire
But I gave it beauty.
So no matter how you feel, no matter what you say,
You are clean and your sin is taken away.
‘Cause I have made you to be who you are
Like a diamond held in you hand,
Reflecting all the rays of the sunlight around.
Like a flower alone on a hillside,
Bringing glory to that barren place.
Like a sunrise that brings in the morning,
New mercies will a bounty you today.
‘Cause I have made you to be who you are,
Beautiful.
‘Cause I have made you to be who you are,
Beautiful to me.
You can find the song on GodTube but the video is just called beautiful. I've never found it anywhere else it's not very well known apparently!
Last edited by pineapple016 : 27-06-2008 at 10:30 PM.
Reason: spelling
sorry to be a bother I just need to share this with you all
I'm a christian and has been struggling with SI for awhile
right now I'm work at a vacation bible school at a church where I live. I work in crafts; I was helping a frist grader with his craft and he saw the scares on my wrists. He asked me what happen I didn't say anything in response. He grabed my hand fliped it over and kissed the scares and gave me a hug. I was so shocked that I didn't realise what happened untill about 5 minutes later ...... I cried and cried when I got home because of that..... A child shouldn't have to see that ..... I think God used that child as a wake up call.
I just feel ashamed that he seen them
I think you might be right that it was a wake up call. Try not to think about how it affected him - he might not have even realised it was deliberate self harm on your arms. Instead think of how God wants this message from Him to impact on your life. *hugs for you*
Strict_Machine: argh! *rants*
Small_Light: *joins in*
Small_Light: *throws pillows at adult mental health services*
Small_Light: *changes it to pillows with bricks in*
Strict_Machine: *changes it to pillows with bombs in*
Strict_Machine: (*bombs of peace and love of course!*)
