Yeah Emma, you're right, it sucks. And I'm sorry you understand cause that's no fun. As for more drinking, I think I'm done, at least for tonight been sick a few times already.
Ugh, I feel awful, really triggered, not safe at all...
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Oh and Chloe....your keeping quite quiet about how you are doing....your posting but not about you. Are you ok? Don't you see your therapist on Monday or sometime soon? (sorry quite forgetful at the moment)
hey. yeah, i saw her on thursday. we spent the whole session talking about my father (something than wasn't even on my mental list of topics) and nothing about what i really needed to talk about.
i was fine the other day, like i wasn't even having a bad day, and then suddenly i was needing 7 bandaids for one thing.....and i dont normally like to waste plasters
so yeah. i can't see her again until the 10th, and i have 2 exams before that, and 2 the 2 days afterwards, and i cant concentrate on ANYTHING.
Even as the stone of the fruit must break
that its heart may stand in the sun,
so must you know pain.
There are only two ways in which one can live their life. One is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is.
*holds Chloe* I'm sorry sweetie, and I'm more sorry I have no advice but please hold on.
*pokes Ally* heya....thanks for the pic lol, perhaps should have waited for the hangover to dissipate before opening it though....
*hugs Helen and anyone else that needs them*
Doing the family thing today and part of tomorrow so won't be online till tomorrow evening. Promised Dad I would go with him to a....wait for it....Bruce Springsteen concert.
Wow I texted FOUR people during the night, and thats not talking about either Emma (which I did text) and woke up to four texts. Three of the people I texted responded and one of my other friends texted me bless.
Blood hell the pain is kicking in in my arm :(
I actually slept from 6am-1.20pm yay.
Bless my work friend Charl, she's just responded to what I wrote because her first text meant she didn't save my number yet lol.
Hey hells, glad you got some sleep - how are you doing today? I haven't slept yet - but think i wil try for an hour now - wow i felt rough this morning - actually still (no wonder when i looked at the bottle!) neat wasn't a good idea.
hugs to everyone - how are you all doing? i'm off now but will be back after evening visiting hours to check. I'm doing ok and feel i can be there for anyone who might need it - just let me know.
love Katch, xxx
Loneliness with or without people, a feeling that comes from inside
Unable to show your true feelings, Unaware of the things that you hide
A life built around a pretending, feeling things that you think you should feel
A life unaware of it’s ending – is there a chance it could ever turn real?
My Lovely Daughters: Reason[TO]Believe, Bound by Thoughts, and Kija. My Little Sisters: Automatik Teknicolour and Pomegranate. My Big Sister: Lil-Princess. My Neice: forever_lost*
*cries*
sorry i haven't been around
cut really bad last nite and have to go to another hospital today to see the plastic surgeon
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
Hey hells, glad you got some sleep - how are you doing today? I haven't slept yet - but think i wil try for an hour now - wow i felt rough this morning - actually still (no wonder when i looked at the bottle!) neat wasn't a good idea.
Thanks for last night hun, I really appericate it :) Wow you must be so tired lol, I hope you had some water or something before you drove to the hospital I'm in a lot of pain today and feeling a lot of emotions.
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Originally Posted by dark_light
*cries*
sorry i haven't been around
cut really bad last nite and have to go to another hospital today to see the plastic surgeon
*snuggles* Replied in your thread if you wanna talk sis :)
Chloe luv, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time luv, I wish I could help.
Emma, lol, oh, sorry, didn't think of that. Ugh, I'm hungover too, my heads killing me lol *settles in to her corner and invites Emma to join her* can be the hangover corner right now lol
Yay for sleep, Helen! Feeling better today hun?
Katch, how are you luv? How's your mom? *snuggles*
*cuddles Jo*
Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry you're doing so bad right now hunni. What did they say after you cut? I'm sorry you had to go there, to cut, but I understand, at least as much as one SIer understands another. *snuggles*
Hey Hana, how goes it sweetie?
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Ugh, I've got a massive headache (yay hangovers!), I'm exhausted, I've got studying for next weeks exams and packing and cleaning to do... And I'm feeling rather out of sorts... Maybe closer to lousy, not sure *rolls eyes at herself* I know, 'out of sorts', 'lousy', 'awful', and 'beyond awful', what's that right? Silly but I don't like to talk about my depression as depression... So those, which are varying degrees of depression as I experience it, come from a time when I couldn't call it depression (only then it was just one general term, 'in a funk'). lol so now y'all know how weird I am
Hmmm, yes, today is definitely lousy I think.
*curls up in her corner and takes a nap*
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
I don't feel better. I feel worse. I think the shock & scaredness has really set in now. Cus I feel so bloody numb except for the pain out of my arm heh.
*cuddles Helen*
I'm sorry luv
What's wrong with your arm?
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
I'm not feeling too bad today. Ish. Just a bit devastated that I had to leave because of those ****ers. Huh. Never did mention that part to anyone, did I? Bugger it. They're still scaring the **** out of me when I'm 4 hours drive away from me and I can't deal with it.
~Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
they say they can't see me til monday :(
nurses were not happy when i cut, searched my room was horrible
sorry i'm pretty uselss atm
*hugs everyone lot*
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
All I want to know....is
why people keep hurting me, both emotionally & physically.
when is this **** going to stop?
I'm having visons of her carrying it out.
Nasty :'(
I'm in so much pain, I think it's psychological pain.
I feel him
He's not here.
He can't hurt me now.
I can't cope.
*hides*
I'm sat waiting for that email to come.
Why hasn't she emailed?
Is it over?
Or is she torturing me some more?
Sorry helen, I have no words tonight. I wish I could tell you when it was going to stop, but I can't. Just... know I'm around if you wanna talk. PM me if you need to.
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Those ****ers made me leave my home, where I was perfectly happy and everything, so now I'm back with my parents. Which I would have been eventually, but not for a few weeks.
Moving from one death threat to another, what's the sense in that???
I'll explain if people want, but you've all got too much **** going on.
~Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
been sick a few times already.
I'm in a lot of pain today and feeling a lot of emotions. 
Feeling better today hun?