Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.
You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you.
I am running the show. Everyone is waiting for me. I decide. I know this now.
Just another day like any other, nothing in the sky said run for cover
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
Every day I drive by
A little white church
It's got these little white crosses
Like angels in the yard
Maybe I should stop on in
Say a prayer
Maybe talk to God
Like he is there
Oh I know he is there
Ya, I know he's there
Well hello world
How you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel as cold as steel
And broken like I'm never going to heal
I see a light
Little grace, little faith for the world
Hello world
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Nobody knows me I'm cold
Walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own
It's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these mother****ing whores
Bloodsucking succubuses, what the **** is up with this?
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be
Like trying to start over
I got a hole in my heart, for some kind of emotional rollercoaster
Something I won't go on 'til you toy with my emotion, so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold you, I wasn't joking when I told you
You take my breath away
You're a supernova... and I'm a
I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Two hundred fifty thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you
I'll do whatever it takes
When I'm with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't
With you I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go
No boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we thinks
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em it's never the same?
You want them when they don't want you
Soon as they do feelings change
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate
I wasn't looking when I stumbled onto you must've been fate
But so much is at stake what the **** does it take
Let's cut to the chase
'Fore a door shuts in your face
Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open
That I won't be making a mistake
Cause I'm a...
So after a year and six months, no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts
Never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you
Let down my guard swear to God
I'll blow my brains in your lap
Lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleading
I'm trying to stop you from leaving
You won't even listen so **** it
I'm trying to stop you from breathing
I put both hands on your throat
I sit on top of you squeezing
'Til I snap your neck like a Popsicle stick
Ain't no possible reason I could think of to let you walk up out this house
And let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks
Then I let you go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this
And I would've done anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now
It's too late to save our love
Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star 'cause I'm a...
I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Two hundred fifty thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm so lost without you
Without you
Without you
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
My hands are cold, my body's numb
I'm still in shock, what have you done?
My head is pounding, my vision's blurred
Your mouth is moving, I don't hear a word
And I hurt so bad, that I search my skin
For the entry point, where love went in
And ricocheted and bounced around
And left a hole when you walked out, yeah
I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds
Wounds!
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me, on the floor
I'm damaged goods, for all to see
Now who would ever wanna be with me?
I've got all the baggage, drink the pills
Yeah, this is living but without the will
I'm backing out, I'm shutting down
You left a hole when you walked out, yeah
I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds
Wounds!
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
[x4]
Lose your clothes and show your scars that's who you are
Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me, on the floor
I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds
Wounds!
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.
You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you.
I am running the show. Everyone is waiting for me. I decide. I know this now.
They claim their planet's dying:
that soon it's going to blow
And so they're coming here - they say
they've nowhere else to go...
With their strange computer voices
and their one eye on a pole
They're moving in next door and then
they're signing on the dole...
Asylum-seeking Daleks
are landing here at noon!
Why can't we simply send them back
or stick them on the moon?
It says here in the Daily Mail
they're coming here to stay -
The Loony Lefties let them in!
The middle class will pay...
They say that they're not terrorists:
That doesn't wash with me!
The last time I saw one I hid
Weeks behind the settee...
Good Lord - they¹re pink. With purple bumps!
There's photos of them here!
Not just extra-terrestial...
The bloody things are queer!
Yes! Homosexual Daleks
And they're sponging off the State!
With huge Arts Council grants
to teach delinquents how to skate!
It's all here in the paper -
I'd better tell the wife!
For soon they will EXTERMINATE
Our British way of life...
This satire on crass ignorance
and tabloid-fostered fear
Is at an end. Now let me give
One message, loud and clear.
Golf course, shop floor or BNP:
Smash bigotry and hate!
Asylum seekers - welcome here.
You racists: emigrate!
He who makes a beast out of himself
Gets rid of the pain of being a man
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
I tried to drive on through the night,
The heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see, the sand is singing deathless words to me.
Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.
As I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights.
Will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger and I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction follows me; show me what it's like to be set free.
Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.
So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today.
Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die, we look up towards the sky.
For answers to our lives.
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by, don't want your absolution.
'Cause I can't make it right.
I'll make a beast out of myself, gets rid of all the pain of being a man.
Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.
So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brains apart.
Scared but you can follow me, I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
Cos I can't hold onto anything this good enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?
In waves the ships have all sailed to the sea
Well do you want to wait or leave with me tonight
Cross your heart and pray
The ocean will take us all the way in
First we are ever to fall off of the earth
We must be the
First ones in the world to fall off of the earth
We could be, soon as our needs are fed
You'll give in to me and the whole heartache
Makes me feel alive, same typical offering
And you always knew we make it all the way in
First we are ever to fall off of the earth
We must be the
First ones in the world to fall off of the earth
It could be soon, as
The carnivals empty, I need you to take me home
God help me!
God help me!
God help me!
God help me! God!
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home
Ah the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're my protection
How do I feel this good sober?
I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?
Ah, the night is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come and play
Ah, I am falling
And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
I'm coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
Looking for myself - SOBER [x2]
When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a friend
Oh Oh
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober
Oh Oh
I'm safe
Up High
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
Will I ever feel this good sober?
Tell me, No no no no no pain
How do i feel this good sober?
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
Two roads, split off from here,
And my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far...From here.
Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what, we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Come back to me, To me.
Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what, we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, back to me, to me.
I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.
I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.
Two roads, split off from here,
And my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so, far!
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Had a bad day, don't talk to me, gonna ride this out.
My little black heart breaks apart, with your big mouth.
I'm sick of my sickness. Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted, and you hate me
You can't save me, you can't change me.
Well I'm waiting for my wake-up call, and everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her to make this stop.
Got medication, a new addiction, ****in' thanks a lot!
Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab, ruins everything.
So point your finger, at the singer, he's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me, you can't change me.
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call, and everything's my fault.
You can't save me, you can't blame me.
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
And everything, and everything's my fault.
And I'm a death threat, haven't slept yet,
Baby why the wake up call?
I'm a bad boy, tell the tabloids, everything's my fault!
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it!
Whoa whoa everything's my fault, everything's my fault.
I went to heaven, but couldn't get in, for what I have done.
I said 'Please take me!', he said 'You're crazy, you had too much fun.'
You can't save me, you can't change me.
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call, and everything's my fault.
You can't save me, you can't blame me.
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
And everything, and everything's my fault.
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so ****ing special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here
