got so desperate and low lastnight i tried but failed, trouble is tonight things are no better and i want to do it again.
need to end all this hurt and pain.
ive failed in everything. im completely f***ing useless no point trying anymore.
just want this useless, pathetic excuse of a human being to be gone now, so i cant hurt anyone else.
Hey been lurking on here as a guest for awhile wanting to post, but not sure what to actually write or if anyone would mind me posting on here either as i dont know anyone, But been a really tough day and not sure where else to turn really. just wanna get through the night and struggling.
Thanx Mum24 i went through i really rough patch in the summer and beacuse of it i made two serious suiside attempts within two days of each other ive been trying to keep myself on track since then and i have some good friends that are trying to be there for me but they dont really understand it and to be fair neither do I really. so am just trying to deal with my moods and things on my own really but tonight is just proving really hard. thanx for listening! x
Northern girl, two summers ago I also had two suicide attempts two days apart and since then have been fighting this monster. It's no fun but girl, you are strong. I can hear it in your writing. But we all need support especially through the dark times. Hugs to you. Feel free to keep talking and post anytime. That's why we're here. Are you safe tonight? How bad is it? Do you need to be with someone?
To be honest i'm not sure what i need right now, when I'm with people I'm craving to be on my own and when i'm on my own i want to be with people so that i can make sure i dont do anything stupid. I havent done anything tonight and i certainly dont want to either (well i do, but i dont want to give in if that makes any sence?) but this is by far the toughest fight ive put up yet. I suppose im just scared too, that if i did do anything that it wouldnt work anyway and then i would just have to deal with the concequences that, that would bring as well. Thankyou for your hugs they are verry much appreciated and am sending some back to you as well. its so good to be able to talk to someone that understands! x
Northern girl you can have hugs any time! I'm having struggles myself tonight too so thank you for the hugs. I'm glad you are fighting. Don't give up. Just like before, the hard times will pass and better times will come. Keep talking. We are here for you.
I hope so! hmmm..... I just wanna close my eyes and sleep and never wake up, or for it all to just some how magically go away but failing that i just wish life was a little bit easier sometimes but then i suppose we all do! here for you too if you need a friend! x
Thanks Northern Girl! Pm me anytime. I love chatting. Always up for a new friend. I know exactly what you mean by falling asleep and never waking up. I said the same thing to my counsellor yesterday. But then I'd miss out on all the blessings and good stuff and all the ways I help others in life. Hugs
On Edge, i know exactly how you feel, im sat staring at a packet of tablets right now and feeling so low but we have to stay strong, we were made for so much more than this! i know you dont know me but am here if you need someone to listen. keep at it! Mum 24, thankyou you look like your such a rock for so many people on here its amazing x
Northern girl, I feel like a packet of goo... Haha... Thanks for your sweet and kind words. They mean a lot to me. Truth is I've been having a really hard time lately and I'm trying to keep it together too. But if we can be there for each other it makes all the difference.
I'm glad you aren't taking the tablets, can you get rid of them? I had to do that today? I got rid of the sleeping pills I hoarded for soooo long. It was so hard. But it wasn't safe. You can do it girl. Please be safe. Hugs
On Edge: I really hope you're safe. Please be careful, and tell someone what's happening. Why do you feel like you've failed?
Northern Girl: I'm sorry you've had such a bad time recently. Please don't OD. It's not worth it; overdosing is a horrible way to die, and rarely works. It's just horrible, horrible stomach ache for a week. Can you tell anyone how you're feeling?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
On Edge: Yes, you can. You can do this. Stay strong. Stay safe. Please tell someone what is going on. Can you go to A&E and tell them? Tell them everything that is happening, so that they can keep you safe.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
On edge please listen to Talaiporia. There is another way. Who is hurting you? Do you need to get somewhere safe like a shelter? Hugs... Please stay safe Ns take steps to get to somewhere safe. Be careful
