Do you mean things from your past Mari? If so, I kinda understand as I have this terrible memory (terrible in that I don't forget things) and they replay over and over and make me feel more **** b/c I should have done something to prevent them.
Hollz, have you been drinking already hun?
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
hmmm...maybe i should have put myself to bed rather than sitting on my own ruminating, going over todays appointment. making myself really angry with me for being such an arse
If im honest with you im dwelling on things to make me feel bad so i end up hurting myself as a punishment for agreeing to take the pills....Hubby is out with the eldest, my other two are in their rooms on pcs.......it would be so easy. in my mind i can see it would be ok to take the pills if i hurt myself each time, that would be a way around it. I need to snap out of this way of thinking, maybe go to bed like i said i would, should have gone earlier
seems like everyones having a poo day today myself included.
My best friend attempted suicide and he's in intensive care and on dialysis. He hasnt regained conciousness and he's been out a day and a half, I talk to him everyday, I cant lose him! ;(
Each tear drop falls with sorrow, hoping and praying for another tomorrow!
I'm sorry, I hope he is okay - sorry I don't have much to add at the moment, but my thoughts are with him and you xxxxxxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
