thanks Bobbi, but i did rubbish at a levels and if i hadnt had gone then my family would have been so angry i stay here because i am expected to. i dont think i can get through the next 3 years, even if i do, no orchestra is going to want me, i can even sit in a room with a few people i know without getting really anxious and having a panic attack, so i'll never be able to sit in a rehearsal with 80 people, i seriously cant do this.
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i just want to go to the mountains and jump so it will all end, because i cant do this, seriously considering not going to uni tomorrow but going to the peaks instead and.... i have it all planned all i need to do is get the train.feel seriously unsafe at the moment
sorry i am being so selfish and wasting everyones time, you dont need to care about me
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
imo, music isnt about a levels, thats partly why i always wanted to be better at it and have pursued it
*hugs* is there anybody who could be with you tomorrow to keep you safe
if not... well i have to be up at 7.30 anyway so i will be online all day for once :) just keep posting here or message me and i will do my best to keep you distracted x
Location: A Dark Place Somewhere North Of The Border
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my name is dianne, he came into my room i didnt want him to he said he was saying good night. he told me not to tell anyone. he said i have to keep it a secret. i cant stop shaking, crying i want to scream i cant seem to even speak i want to die.
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It's good mom and dad don't fight often bt I'm sorry they are now. I was asking Dianne if she was hurt but it matters if you were too. *warm hugs* Dianne honey who did that to you? You don't have to keep it a secret. If you tell us we can probably stop it.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
i am supposed to go to lecture at 9, but dont want to it has lots of people and have horn lesson at 1, really should go as have recital a week on thursday but last lesson was so awful and teacher wont understand if i feel bad and then shoudl have class with 3 others. but i dont have anyone who i can be with, i'm not telling my friends i'm not telling them anything anymore.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Dianne i know its scarey but if you tell someone you can get help. they can help keep you safe. im sorry that happend to you. i know its horrible but its even more horrible to keep it inside. it doesn't matter what he said. you don't have to keep it secret.
Just one more day....
Children, don't stop dancin', believe you can fly away
"Pain has never been so brillian, i made sure you were buckled in, now you can walk hand in hand, hand in hand with Him."
*hugs* dianne it was my dad too. for a long time. it was so hard to tell someone. and i know its so scarey cuz its not a stranger or someone you won't see again its your dad. but he doesn't have the right to do that. you can tell someone. its ok
Just one more day....
Children, don't stop dancin', believe you can fly away
"Pain has never been so brillian, i made sure you were buckled in, now you can walk hand in hand, hand in hand with Him."
dianne.. thats a nice name :) dont like mine... roberta when my dad is robert... something tells me im not quite what they wanted :S
it isnt your fault at all... i promise x
mums and dads can be the worst abusers. in fact, its worse just for the fact that its just such trusted figures doing it... but it is NOT your fault, not for a second X
Dianne sweetheart you're really brave to tell us. You are NOT a bad girl, no one can ever deserve that. How old are you? *sits with you* And do you want a cuddle?
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
hey :D
*huggles*
hope youre ok
is it sad that the scrubs quote is one of the ones that lifts my spirits the most of all the ones i see around this forum? :P
most of my friends say frequently that i am elliot... =P
i loveee scrubs =] and that quote =]
brrrr im tired of the cold already haha
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
we have DID which used to be called MPD and you would probably know it as that, and different flowers is ways of expressing who we are on msn and livejournal so that the people who know about us know who we are at he time but the people who dont, dont realise anything is up :)
mine is heliotrope cos its pretty and blue, and also cos the heliotrope fairy looks a bit like me. but before all of that started my favourite flowers were forget me nots or... do you know what the MASSIVE daisies are called? they look just like daisies but i dont think they count..... :)
