Kat,
We're worried about you, what's going on?
What did KatD tell about?
i iknow what its like when everyone inside goes away, when this happened to me before, it was 'cause they were in trouble and trying to work it all out. They were hurting and couldn't be around then....
On another note.
"Good Friday" PAH.
Having frightening urges to self harm in ways that kinda mirror the abuse stuff from "good friday" times. We're scared and tired.... Not sure how to keep safe from outside or inside.... Owh..
Thanks Kat, and thanks LauRAWRetro.
The abysss (for us) there was a reason and a good one. Though it took a while to find out what the reason was.....
Here for you too....
We're not doing good.
Ash's girlfriend thinking about breaking up with him 'cause when they are drinking a lot they missunderstand eachother and she gets upset, but she doesn't understand. When she's been drinking her perceptions get mixed up too. Still she blames it on Ash and says he gets "too drunk and confused", when she is just as drunk and in a similar state. It's our/Ash's fault. Cause we were anooyed or we reminded her of her dad.
We're tired of living. We're tired of dealing with this stuff when also with Easter... How the heck do we manage this crap?
Wanting to SI all over the hands (east*er/anniversary) related.....
Hurting a lot....
Wish we had outside help...... So much...
lostboys... if i had the money i'd come over and spend those days coming up with you keeping you as ok as possible. feeling very protective of you and a well of anger against those that hurt you. want to tuck you under my wing and ward off the shi**y things in this world
we're spaced out majorly but with loving people
wishing every single one of you comfort and for you to be really, really kind to yourselves, please
Right now we're getting sick, really cold, stomach aches, pain in the extremities... Flashbacking as well.
Chris
Thank you so much.... your words..... Thank you..
We can tell how genuine they are, you are very special to us, and an amazing person...... ((no words...))
Facet,
We are here if you want to talk.
We are, really. Except this minute we are struggling to stay conscious.
We have no-one in the 3D world we can talk to this stuff about either. T sort of excluded.....
If you want to talk, we have msn, and we're also listening here....
Take care of yourelves.
Facet... i'm probably saying what you already do but just in case, i do 'daytime' stuff based around comfort at night when sleep/rest just isn't available. sometimes i become a night person and sleep all day and it gradually flips over back into days of its own accord. the more i've pressed it the more angsty i get without any helpful shift
Ella,
We understand,
If you want to talk more, we'll probably be online quite a lot...
PM for our msn, we know you from AMJ.... Do you remember us?
We relate a lot to what you are going through, we'd like to support you though this stuff.
We're new to these kinds of memories, but we want to help.
We care OK??
*sitting with you*
Things are getting harder, likea build up.... Still hands hurting, and massive urges to cut/stab/harm the hands.....
hard times. hard year. knowledge is here that this time was never going to be good...but dates are coming. can't be alone but must be alone. alone together, no other way.
why call something 'good' good nothing, never good. can't be but for those who are oblivious. blissfully unaware of the world. best way to be. if only.
cant forget and mustn't.
no. not an option. time is to be ok, but can't. time is to hold it together. why? time is to be safe. safety?
time is to take care? of?
time is to run away, but how much running. no more running. tired now. but have to . have to or its back ..back back back. no
Double shot latte might not have been the best thing on an empty stomach.....not going to help the shakes... We'll see how it goes....
*yawn*.....tired....afraid T won't go well.... spent $60 on a taxi ride in here...(anxiety levels were HIGH)
But I really felt i needed to get in today.... i really need T's support.... Oh well.....
For now, concentrating on coffee.....
We're going in to hospital tommorow...
For the east*r break..... at least 2-3 weeks.
Just wanted to let everyone know cause not sure how often we'll be able to get online....
Thanks for the support everyone, we really appreciate it.
Hope everyone else who is struggling stays safe and takes gentle care of themselves,
lostboys
