I hate them both even though I have never met or even talked to either of them. I hate them because you like-like them. I want to do what I told you I am going to do so it won't bother me anymore.
Angels are friends who supportyou when your wings forget tofly.
i've said sorry so many times, to everyone, for everything, i need to stop, if people cant accept it i need forgive myself, then maybe they can forgive me one day..
You really piss me off and hurt my feelings. All of you. I don't even have the spare moment it would take to bitch about it. So I guess I'll save it for your face.
I really could have used some more medical attention this. Fucking. Hell.
So you don't know where you're going, and you want to talk. And you feel like you're going where you've been before, you tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored. Nothing's really making any sense at all.
And the picture frames are facing down and the ringing from this empty sound is deafening and keeping you from sleep. And breathing is a foreign task, and thinking's just too much to ask, and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
This basement's a coffin, I'm buried alive. I'll die in here just to be safe, I'll die in here just to be safe. 'Cause you're gone. I get nothing and you're off with barely a sigh.
Your wires are frayed, can't fire right. You look better when out of sight. You were not made to stand and fight. There's something wrong with you.
Now, I'm in these old knots, each move keeps me locked away.
Lay my bones at the feet of the ministry. I need the guilt and the company, I need the chance to be judged and then long forgotten. Lately I just can't shake it, I count the days in seconds and minutes. Hours and hours are subtle as shards of glass in the skin.
yea mum im sorry this has to be sed i dont mean to get at ya cus u mean soooooooo much to me and have helped me out fru it all (well tried) but cant you see that seeing them now is too soon? yes i no its been nearly 13 years since it started but it still hasnet gone away and right now im too fucked upo to vunerable to go to any picninc and eat sit and talk in front of them- if you make me go ill take my sharpest weapon and end it there????
r- i no its your first time there in teh 'big kids' group but i dont feel strong enough to take you and imsorry im such a fukin failure i mean wat kind of selfish fat ugly half hearted freaky bush haired sister am i? i cant even face my fears for you Ily but a wont be there
The tears that fall from my eyes are running out
cus i was too niave to fink id never have to cry
and when the last tear falls
il fall
so far away that you cant touch me
so near that you cant pull me out
cus the hole you dug was far to deep
I imagine dating, cuddling, and kissing you quite frequently. If you told me we could try a relationship, all of the things I have told you about lately wouldn't matter, I would give it up to have a chance with you.
Angels are friends who supportyou when your wings forget tofly.
I love you still, though sometimes you hurt me so much i feel like i hate you, though i know i dont, i couldnt. I love you yet now you want her. Why cant you give me another chance? please im begging you. Dont leave me here loving you always with no love in return.
I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! A friend? who are you kidding. Ive never met a bigger backstabber. i really wish youd f*ck off out of all of our lives, youve f*cked everything up. Youve completely fucked up my life again. Im back to hurting myself again all because of you. I HATE YOU!
I was in town because I bought a book and was thinking that it would be nice to be able to know where you were--I know you've been having a tough time lately, and was hoping I could cheer you up at least a little.
excited for tomorrow. need a break. today was really good though.
mitch wants me to go to prom with him. i don't know. i feel like i will regret it if i don't go, but i don't want to have to find another fucking dress.
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мне жаль, что мы не начали быть друзьями раньше, но я рад, что мы являемся друзьями теперь. я собираюсь тосковать без Вас, когда мы находимся в колледже. я надеюсь, что мы поддерживаем отношения. спасибо быть одним из трех человек я могу доверять в школе.
translation: i wish we had started being friends earlier on, but i am glad that we are friends now. i am going to miss you when we are in college. i hope we stay in touch. thank you for being one of three people i can trust at school.
Sometimes I wish I'd never befriended you because you trigger me so much. But of course I can't ever leave you because I love you too much. You're one of the only people that ever understands me and that I can relate to. I love you so much, but I just can't deal with you much longer if you won't help yourself....I'm not going to risk my own mental health for you anymore.....
