I know the feeling....
everyone is like, "oh you are strong."
and I think, "if you only knew..."
*sighs*
Exactly. I tell them all the awful things Beth tells me to do and they say 'oh you're so strong for resisting' but they don't seem to believe me when I say I'm sooo close to doing those things. They just think that because I haven't already done it, I'm not going to.
Helennnnnnnn *produces one birthday cake for Charlie and gives him and Millie a party hat*
Maybe when Jess gets here...she can bring HER dog (also called Milly....but spelt different ;p)
Then again...she might not get here...coz I'm a **** friend :/
*continues to blow up balloons for the doggeh party*
This, life, whatever it is people want me to be getting on with. i just feel so empty
Zowie if you still need their help can you call them? i so know that feeling when everyone thinks you're ok and inside you're falling apart. *hugs*
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
Hello..?
*sighs and sits in her corner feeling invisible*
I'm sorry everyones doing so bad, Jo, Zowie, Alexx, Amanda...*hugs*
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
But they just don't seem to listen. They just tell me to have a bath or read a book, they don't help. For that reason I don't care that they've stopped seeing me, but now that they've stopped seeing me I feel pretty sure another hospital admission is around the corner.
But they just don't seem to listen. They just tell me to have a bath or read a book, they don't help.
GAH!! I HATED THAT!!
"Hello Crisis Team..."
"Hey..my names Alexx...I need help...I'm so depressed that I can't sleep...I'm considering doing something silly"
"Well get a hot milky drink and go to bed."
*hugs all back*
I'm sorry for whining all but I've written and written and written and I think two people have said something... Not really addressing what I've wrote.*shrug*
From last nights getting blown of by an instructor who said (in reference to my depression) 'you'll be fine you've got a resilient personality' to this mornings feeling so awful I emailed,texted and called everyone I had a responsibility to today and said I wouldn't be on campus (going out) today...
Now it all seems stupid but...
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
getting blown of by an instructor who said (in reference to my depression) 'you'll be fine you've got a resilient personality' to this mornings feeling so awful I emailed,texted and called everyone I had a responsibility to today and said I wouldn't be on campus (going out) today...
i hate when people do that *hugs*
We're all in the same game;
Just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell;
Just different demons.
Love me, I'm a freak!