I'm really glad I went :)
After the movie, I went to Greggs to get some food and there was a guy from Mind in there so I sat with him for a bit and then we went back to Mind and just sat in reception and a group of us and one of the staff just chatted for ages. In conversation I mentioned that I think I'm getting a bit depressed and about the spirits / others which was helpful to talk about to people who listen and don't judge. Which of course everyone is like that on ryl but it's good to talk to people in person about it. Especially when they don't immediately disregard it as either lies or 'quasi psychosis' (yeah, still a bit bitter about that)
They're also going to try and get me into counselling sooner than the 4-6 months.
So yeah, very glad I went!
The spirits / others are a bit pissed with me now though, because I mentioned them. Not too bad though. I can deal with it at the moment. When I get home may be another story. But we'll see.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
how are you feeling now beckie? Well done for going to mind and not just watching the film but talking as well. Hope the spirits/ others are behaving or not overly misbehaving anyway.
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
Not doing so well due to something that happened yesterday and just woken up with a massive headache. I've actually started to get flashbacks which is not good.
Don't plan on getting dressed today.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
sorry to hear about the flashbacks, could you try some basic grounding or self soothing techniques to make you feel safer? Like naming the objects near you in the room and describing them or focuing on the physical sensations of where you are like the softness of a pillow or something. Or looking at photos of jasmine to give you positive memories or if you've started writing the good things down like suggested earlier in this thread you could look at them.
Sorry to hear that Beckie. I hope your headache goes quickly.
As Jen suggested, can you try some grounding techniques to help with the flashbacks?
I hope you've had a relaxing day.
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I hope they look after you Beckie. Are you going to see anyone from the MH team there?
Look after yourself <3
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I tried to tell the nurse about what happened yesterday but she just wanted me out of there really. I only mentioned it because she asked why I self harmed.
I just want to go home.
I'm not seeing psych. She asked if I wanted to but by the time I see them I would have missed the last bus/train home and I can't afford the £30 for a taxi.
Xxx
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
How are you feeling? How do you think you will manage tonight? If you want to talk about what happened yesterday, we're all here.
It's Amy by the way, I must confess to stalking your threads here and seem to have finally gotten over my logging in anxieties (lol I know) so thought I'd poke my head in. <3
I'm so tired that when I eventually get home I'll just sleep, so managing will be easy for tonight.
Apparently, I may have nicked an artery or something which means I'm now being made to see psych whether I like it or not. So that sucks. I know what they'll say, it's the same thing over and over again. But at least they'll Probably get me a taxi home which would be awesome because by the time I've seen them I would have missed the last train and the buses have stopped so wouldn't be able to get to the train station anyway.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Yeah, just got home. Just rambled about it in my RV and I would elaborate here but I am shattered and need to go to bed.
Long story short, psych said they know me well and I'm fine (and wished me luck with occupational health!) and the self harm was much worse than I originally thought, which is concerning but it's sorted now.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Still got the headache. This is the second day it hasn't shifted, even with painkillers. Not cool.
Still feeling pretty low and I'm getting fed up of it now.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Do you have any idea what could be causing the headache? I know when I get a headache and aching behind the eyes that doesn't go away with painkillers it's because of the weather - if it's thundery I get headaches.
Is there anything you can do today that could lift your mood at all?
Well done for seeing the psych team.
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
It's probably related to being kicked tbh. I've had this headache since the day after that. It's not unbearable, but it's very much there. But it could be weather related I suppose, I know seizures can be affected by the weather too.
I just don't feel like doing anything. I still feel really tired despite getting a lot of sleep the last couple of nights.
Kind of have this crushing loneliness feeling. I don't usually get like this, after living alone for the last year and a half I got used to spending days at a time without seeing anyone. But today I am feeling very alone and would do anything for a hug, as pathetic as that sounds.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Well I hope it goes soon. If not it might be worth speaking to your GP about it - after the seizures you had the other day they should be aware of anything changing like that.
Perhaps a relaxing day again will help you feel less tired?
It doesn't sound pathetic - I know that feeling well. Do you think it might be after the spell in hospital and the time spent at Chels' has got you used to be being around people again?
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
