Cowgirl: How are you today? I tend to worry when people go AWOL...
On Edge/Jo: You can do this. It's gone nine, so I really hope that you're okay. Please stay safe, for all of us, and for everyone who cares about you. Call the crisis team, or Samaritans, or go to A&E if you're feeling unsafe.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Talaiporia- just want to say I appreciate you and all you do for everyone here. Thank you.
Having a hard time after a good month. Trying to keep a good momentum going. Have had suicidal thoughts but know that that's not the answer. Just my mind trying to deal with stress the wrong way. Just praying I don't crack under the pressure and start thinking wrong again.
Mum24: Everyone needs help sometimes, and it's a shame that people don't always give it. It went through a really awful time a few years ago, and none of my friends cared or tried to help at all, so now I try to help everyone else instead, because I don't think anyone should be as alone as I was then.
You've had a good month. What's changed? What sort of things are stressing you out?
Chelscar: Who did you ask for help? Please don't give up. Please go back to your GP, or if you're unsafe, A&E. You can do this. Keep fighting, for us, for your friends and family?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Talaiporia I'm sorry you were alone in your dark time. That's awful. I think a lot of people are touched by your words as you reach out to them here.
What has changed for me? Just getting weighed down by the constant pressures of school on top of the responsibilities of having young children and a husband and marital issues. I don't know how it all works in my mind to be going along fine and then one moment be thinking I should just end it and get out now. I know it's wrong thinking, I just know it's a slippery slope into depression and if I'm not careful, it can lead to the kind of depression where I believe those thoughts. I'm not proud to say I've attempted suicide before.
And I'm just on stress overload. I'll be driving along somewhere and all of a sudden I'll have no idea where I'm going. :( it sucks.
Oh well. At least I'm on march break this week. I have lots of studying and work to do but no school.
Mum24: It's understandable that you're stressed, with two young children and school, you've got a lot on your plate. But you need to stay safe and strong for your children, they need you - you only get one mother. Maybe it would be a good idea to go back to your doctor?
Aimee: What's made you suicidal today? Has anything made you feel like this again?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Actually Talaiporia I have 4 young children. :) and they are my reason for living. I love them so. Yeah... My school counsellor also suggested I go back to my doctor but my doctor won't do anything. My nurse will just suggest ways to cope better... Use distraction, self soothe, etc. I know it. Besides I think I'm making a big deal of nothing. If I make a big deal of it then it'll make it real and I'll actually get into a deeper depression. Does that make sense? Denial kinda works I think. I dont know. I think I'm ok. I'll see how it goes for a bit. Thanks for caring.
Talaiporia: i really need it to be time now, i cant cope anymore. last night i was 'R' again but this time i fought back and ended up getting hurt more. i needed 37 stitches to fix me up.
i cant manage all this anymore, i hurt so much i feel lost and so alone. ive got no family that care, no-one.
i just want it to end.
Mum24: Sorry, not sure where I got two from. Good luck.
Jo: Please stay safe for us. Go to A&E if you're not safe, and tell them what's happening. Tell them what these people are doing to you. They can help you, and look after you and take you somewhere safe.
Please, we care. Stay safe for us.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Jo, please be careful. You can do this. You can get through this. Let someone know what's going on. Let someone help you. Please tell someone what these people are doing to you.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
I'm desperately trying to not kill myself but it's not easy. I want help more than to die but in order to get the help I need I must, first, do something drastic.
Honestly, if I ended up dying it would only be in those last few seconds that I'd really regret it. But those last few seconds is when every one regrets it.
Its been 2 months and 3 days since I started thinking seriously about suicide. And exactly 2 weeks when it started to invade my mind every second.
No one cares enough to intervene with your self-destruction.
