I just stupidly ate a tub of ice cream... I don't even know why, it was just there, I generally don't eat ice cream, one of the "bad foods"... now feel sick and ichy and bad :(
these events change our perspective of the world, it goes from safe and familor to scary, dangerous, unpredictable and unknown... but in time things can start to seem safer again... of course what's happened may never leave completely, but in many ways it can strengthen us, show us that we can survive through these things and cope with whatever the world ay through at us.
I'ts hard... I'm not going to lie and say it's easy... but I do believe that feelin safe again is possible
*nods*
cos most of the world IS safe
on this forum we all live in hope that eventually logic will win out over feelings
you should try to get as much sleep as you can cos all the time your sleeping your mind is recovering (i know it doesnt seem like it as night time can be the worst part, but thats your brain working through stuff and trying to make sense of it)
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
you are good!! youre not seen as easy, just vulnerable, and evil shits try to exploit vulnerability
youre lovely <3
isnt bipolar pretty treatable with medication? :) i think you should try to get tested for it soon honey.. that way, whatever the outcome, you'll have time to incorporate it into your plans and do background research etc
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
even if its completely under control? :(
it doesnt mean bye-bye career because you dont even know :) and the more you dwell on it, without the facts, the worse you'll feel.. at least if it turns out you do have it and you need to find a different route or career, it wont be the end of the world :)
I killed... I caused death... well... I prevented life, but in the end it's the same thing...
I admited to Jack what I did and he said I wasn't evil... but now he's acting oddly... I am evil
there are medications and stuff for bi-polar, and once you've been "ok" for over so long you can still be a teacher, just a lot of occuptional health jumping *nods*
I'm hav ing to do occupational health jumping too as PTSD is an anxiet thing and anxiety no allowed in medical careers
that wasnt evil. you were scared, and trapped and saw it as your only way out. i really doubt jack is acting oddly around you, honestly, thats probably just your paranoia, and how YOU feel about what happened..
besides, ive *prevented life* too.. didnt mean to, but thats splitting hairs i know
