Just to confirm what others said, i was on a psych ward for the majority of my pregnancy, and they only used meds when it was pretty much life or death!
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
They didn't mention it today and I feel okay so it wasn't brought up. Thanks for the reassurances, I don't know why she went straight to mentioning ADs tbh.
I have to go back again in 9 days for them to attempt the blood tests again cos after 3 attempts today they got nothing. Apparently if it fails next week I have to go to the hospital to have blood drawn by an anethstatist -/ what's can I do to make it easier next time? I drank a litre of water before today's attempts!!
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I thought I was relaxed and then the student took my bp and said it was very high -/ but it was well within the limit when they used the other cuff. Although my manager in work was disappointed in me again this morning for no good reason! My next appointment is on a day off, so hopefully that helps. I'm running out of layers to wear
And I'm bruising already from the attempts today :(
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I drank 1 litre of orange squash before I went cos I hate the taste of water. I plan to drink at least double that the next time!! The midwife did say she can successfully get blood from drug addicts, so I really am one of the worst she has ever seen. The last time the bruises that the blood trusts caused didn't hurt, one of mine today is quite sore already =/
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Where did they try for the blood? I have awful veins in the crease of my elbow so they always end up using my hands. It takes at least 5/6 attempts and they always try my arms despite me telling them not to bother as they think they're all some vein genius or something. I've found making sure I'm fed, watered and warm is the most helpful but it still takes many attempts.
I have thin, deep, crooked veins which are apparently a nightmare. Next time I might just tell them to use my feet as my veins are fine there.
Where did they try for the blood? I have awful veins in the crease of my elbow so they always end up using my hands. It takes at least 5/6 attempts and they always try my arms despite me telling them not to bother as they think they're all some vein genius or something. I've found making sure I'm fed, watered and warm is the most helpful but it still takes many attempts.
I have thin, deep, crooked veins which are apparently a nightmare. Next time I might just tell them to use my feet as my veins are fine there.
They tried twice in the crook of my elbow and once in the back of my hand, which is where the worst bruise is now. The midwife wiggled the needles once they were in which probably explains a lot of the bruising as well. It's gonna look stylish in work tommorow with my elbow length top!
My mother-in-law has suggested that I up my fluid intake now in preparation for next weeks attempts
How quickly did you get your scan date through? My referral was only sent away on Thursday but I'm inpatient and wanna see my baby!
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Butterfly needles also work better for me as there thinner. Takes longer to get out blood but I don't mind that so much. Although that usually means it becomes a 2 person job. My best vein is on the top of my wrist sort of under where my watch sits. I once joked I may get a tattoo of my vein so they know where to go in and the nurse actually nodded that it was a good idea. They can bugger off though.
The one on my hand is on the side of my pinky. I did advise them that the only vaguely successful blood test before has been on the side of my wrist above my thumb, but at that point I had been caused enough pain apparently!!
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Im finding it increasingly difficult to talk to Jasmine.
I don't know if it's just me being a crap parent or because im stupidly self conscious because they write everything down during contact.
I just don't know what to say to her. I feel stupid making baby noises and singing songs in front of people. I don't think.id have any issues if i was alone with her, but how can i know because I've never been alone with her. I might just be a really shitty mum.
I don't even feel like a mum. I shouldn't be allowed to call myself one. I can't even talk to my own child properly. I just don't know what to say.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Im finding it increasingly difficult to talk to Jasmine.
I don't know if it's just me being a crap parent or because im stupidly self conscious because they write everything down during contact.
I just don't know what to say to her. I feel stupid making baby noises and singing songs in front of people. I don't think.id have any issues if i was alone with her, but how can i know because I've never been alone with her. I might just be a really shitty mum.
I don't even feel like a mum. I shouldn't be allowed to call myself one. I can't even talk to my own child properly. I just don't know what to say.
I would be too Beckie, it's hard acting silly in front of people and that's what playing with a baby is based on! I always found it harder to play with Ethan with other people around, particularly professional people like Health Visitors, but was fine alone - I'm sure you're the same. How are you when she comes to yours? Please don't feel like a crap mum, you are brilliant - few mums who are in similar situations to yours would go through as much as you have in order to see their children! x
When they find one that works take note and always insist they use it! I have a terrible right side for everything, but my left side is apparently fine so now i always insist they try my left first! Other than that nothing useful to add sorry :p
Becky my friend works on the other side of things like that, taking the notes from visits (Just started doing it) n says they take into account how awkward it is, as long as you try to interract with her instead of just ignoring her then thats a positive in their eyes.
Is there something she can interract with that you can teach her how to use perhaps? Like a toy that makes noises and you can talk her through this does this etc, or bring a touchy feely book that can be made to last longer than the story since you can spend time touching each thing.
Its not you, its a crappy situation and they know that, their notes are literally unbiased word for word accounts, they arent allowed to say i think this went on, they can only write what happened from an unbiased view, so 'mum picks up baby and plays with toy' rather than 'the mum panicked and looked for something to do so picked up baby and grabbed first toy they saw'
Becky I agree they will take into consideration how awkward it is when you are being watched and they understand it is not a natural situation.
I work with kids but I still feel uncomfortable with them when I know theres staff around watching me. It is hard to act daft and do the silly things you do with kids when there is someone else there acting grown up and sensible! As long as you try they will understand :)
You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.
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