welcome lotusandice. I think my dissociation gets worse with stress too. I too don't have an official diagnosis, but my psych says she thinks I have some form of dissociation.
Liddy I agree with Laura, but also feel the same as you. I know it is hard, but whatever the type of abuse and whatever it was, if it affects you then it affects you and is valid (not the abuse being valid, but the after affects being valid, really hope that makes sense)
I am sorry the words are stuck in your head Jess, I often feel the same, it can be hard.
Laura, how are you?
Kerry, sorry you keep spacing out, anything you can do to ground yourself.
Glad you have calmed down and are ok Utopia.
I really don't know how I am, my CC should ring tomorrow and wants to visit and will ask how I am and I literally don't know what to say. I also swear there is so much to tell her, but don't know where an earth to start.
I was also only subjected to emotional abuse from my father, although it got close to being physical quite a few times, the bullying at school was both verbal and physical and I was nearly killed twice, part of me wishes they had just done it there and then. sorry I'll stop now.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
In general I'm doing great. Got triggered by a girl from class because she kept talking about a documentary where a reporter went undercover and he tried to get into a ring of pedophiles and then she kept talking about their strategies and stuff. I told her to change the subject after I noticed that she wouldn't stop talking about this and she just kept talking on for a while. Then I had to change the subject which is pretty hard when I'm triggered and just trying not to have a flashback.
I'm ok now, but not sure how therapy is going to be today. And one of my alters wants to talk to our therapist today and I don't know how much time she'll need and what she wants to talk about.
Hope you are all ok.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Hugs to all of you I'm sorry I'm too tired to follow the thread but I'm thinking of you all . I feel like there is someone standing on my chest I had difficult therapy homework and I feel so alienated in my body. Sorry I will shut up my head is a mess x
She's already told me she's calling GP and said I've done the right thing by telling her. She's just emailed me and said she couldn't get hold of my GP yet so no news yet. I'm very anxious.
I'm worried what it is.
I've heard it about three times.
It's a male voice
Sounds like a voice if someone who hurt me in the past
Hugs Kerry you have been very brave. It's a good thing she is telling your gp that way she can help you more effectively. I understand it's terrifying though. I'm just so fearful and low. Even though I met a nice lady working with rescue horses and equine assisted therapies. Just feel lost and overwhelmed.
Yes. I have about 3 different voices. I've had them on and off for years now. When they first started, I too was petrified. I learnt to manage them, but when they start to become more prominent again -as they are currently for me too- I find it very difficult to cope with too.
You will be OK. For as distressing as it is, your psych will have contacted your GP so they can establish what type they are and better address it, and cater your treatment.
I know the feeling of wanting to tear my fat off but theres a difference of not needing to shed fat and needing to and if you don't need to then perhaps use that as an incentive to rid yourself of those distressing thoughts - I know you have an ED uglyducklin which may cloud your view of yourself x
*leaves safe hugs*
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
not much happening here. The parents lieft this morning for three days and now I'm alone at home which is great! I always enjoy it when there's noone around and we don't have to pretend we are all Laura.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
