Yesterday was pretty awful... am hoping that Christmas will be better. :( I love Christmastime but I'm scared about the food... ugh. Today should be nice - husband and I are going over to my parents' and spending the night there with my sister so it should be fun. :)
Wondering whether Walmart is open on Christmas Eve... we have a few things we want to get. Hmmmm...
I feel so unlikeable. :(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Hi April. Sorry you had a bad day yesterday...I hope today is better.
As for christmas day I would go easy on yourself and eat what you can manage without putting any pressure on yourself. Its lovely having a family christmas...I hope you enjoy
Our shops are open on christmas eve but tend to close early, maybe walmart is the same
As for being unlikeable...to me you come across as a very warm and caring person, I like you
Thanks, Grace, for the compliment(s). Your words mean a lot to me, they really do. I respect you as a person and am glad that I met someone who shares my problems (even though I wish at the same time that you didn't *hugs*) - like in your recent thread on this board. I've never really talked to anyone other than my husband, treatment team, pastor, and best friend about that stuff... it's nice having someone that can relate. *gentle hugs*
Today is going a bit better. I am feeling kinda full, but not totally, so I don't "totally" want to purge, if that makes any sense. Ugh. A family Christmas will indeed be nice - can't imagine spending it alone. :( That would be beyond sad, yet I know that so many people do just that each year.
It doesn't FEEL like Christmas though, and that's the problem. My husband and I exchanged one gift each a little while ago, and the one I got doesn't fit me too well. It's too small around the torso, which REALLY sucks... :( I feel so huge. Granted, it's juniors' and I am a woman and look like one, not a spindly junior, but at the same time, juniors' stuff usually fits. I am still going to wear it but only at home. :( I really like it too, it's got Snoopy on it and it says "Love the music" or something similar all over it. *sigh*
Sorry for being so down. Just needed to get that out someplace.
*hugs everyone and leaves a platter of calorie-free chocolates on the table again*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
irene!!!! *squishes*
my cold is worse :( and i am currently like a pig in a blanket, though i'm not a pig, and im not wrapped in bacon, but , you get the gist :P *coughs and splutters and whines about chapped nose*
i'm going to make yummy roast veg tomorrow, if i can be bothered :P
I posted in the ED forum about what's going on tonight. :(
I wish I could be someone else. Have a different life. Can I have mine returned, replaced? or could I just GIVE IT UP FOR SALE?? (like anyone would want to buy it)
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
orange juice is my friend, though i probably take one of my vit c fizzy thingy watsits .... have had a few g & t s with my neighbour and going to curl up and watch a film now
I hope you all have a lovely christmas my dear friends :)
Irene *loves lots* i must to give you your present in the new year :D
thinking of you all today
*hides in stone cottage foreeeeever*
not entirely sure, something fun and brain-bubbegummy like legally blonde or somesuch- haven't put one on yet- have some thing with various celebs on the tv making total fools of themselves which is just as brain bubblegummy and rather amuzing to some degree!
i will come and see you soooooooooooon i will i will :D
Oooh a stone cottage... am loving it. Especially the fires... I'm cold right now. My parents keep their house colder than our apartment (which makes sense as the heat hasn't been turned up yet, and also because they pay for their heating bill and we don't)... so BRRR!!!
I'm still in my PJ's. :) Chilly Willy fleece pants and a huge blue tshirt.
*hugs Irene* Got stuff at Walmart but it still doesn't feel very Christmassy, even though it's Christmas MORNING!! and we'll be opening gifts in a little while. Just gotta wait until my sister can be woken up - half an hour from now, woohoo. :) I'm feeling a little better than last night but still bothered... if you could check out my thread in the ED forum I'd really appreciate it. :-X
*gentle cuddles for all*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Oh Kerry, love... *gentle cuddles* You're not being stupid, not at all. It's so difficult when you have a fight with your significant other/spouse, but even worse when it's on Christmas, and it's already difficult for you to reach out. Can you talk with a friend, maybe? That might help... or post more, I'll be off and on here all day and so will other people.
Sorry if my words don't help that much, but hun, you're not being stupid. Try not to think that. You're struggling, you're fighting - and you will be a survivor of this.
*more gentle cuddles*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
no it doesnt feel ok at all...people say im overreacting, taking it to heart too much, dwelling on negative things...they think im being defiant and not listening when they ask me heaps of questions and i just look at them and cant answer...i look emotionless on the surface but inside im crying and screaming...and today it came out but now im the one in trouble :(
