My Psychologist is brilliant and knows exactly what's happening. When I come back round, I feel absolutely exhausted and very disorientated.
I'm scared to try and talk more about the past as I know it will happen again, but K (my therapist) has taught me grounding techniques and she said she will always be there to bring me back around.
I'm starting to really trust her. She always lets me contact her out of sessions and when I was in hospital last week, she was brilliant; texting/calling/emailing, even though she has young children and I know she's really busy. I know a lot of private psychologists charge for this! I know I have a good one. I know it's going to be a long road but I know I have to try and keep strong.
My GP is also really understanding and is aware of the situation.
It sounds as though you have a really good support network.
Try and remind yourself when this happens that you are totally safe. It sounds like your therapist is good with you when this happens and helps you deal with it.
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It happens to me almost everytime I have therapy and my therapist is really good with it.
Being disoriented and feeling exhausted is also something I can relate to. My therapist explained to me that this is, because when I'm dissociated my subconscious mind is working really hard on things - a lot of people seem to think that people aren't thinking while being dissociated. Most of the time I can feel how something is working - like huge millstones or something.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
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I think I have some kind of dissociative distress, it seems a lot like derealisation, where the world just stops seeming real. It can be quite dangerous, since I stop perceiving danger because it doesn't seem real, and I've done things like pouring water over myself and walking out into traffic without realising, so now I have to stay with people when I dissociate so I don't do anything dangerous.
It's really good to know there are people who understand this, since I've tried many times to explain it to various medical professionals and they don't seem to know what I'm talking about.
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I wasn't criticising Laura, it was meant to be more of a 'correction'. :)
I dissociate during therapy and even though my therapist does EMDR (but not on me yet) she is crap at dealing with my dissociation. Often she thinks I am just thinking or not paying attention when actually I'm dissociating. She's rubbish and has a tendency to cancel all the time and my health authority have already said I've only got a year with her so I'm now writing down how many times she actually sees me and how many times she cancels so that I get my year's worth.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
I think I dissociate in group therapy, there are moments where apparently I look as though I'm not with it and I feel detached from the room and everything, it is odd.
I hope you can sort the situation with your therapist sorted Liddy, sorry she is crap at dealing with dissociation.
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Liddy: I used to have a therapist who did notice that I was dissociated, but he didn't do anything about it because he wanted me to learn how to get myself back to reality. He taught me grounding techniques first though.
Oliver: I'm like that in group a lot. Sometimes I'm trying to be 'there' the whole time and barely say anything. Feels like I'm wasting my time there sometimes.
My therapist said that usually people with DID aren't able to attend group, because they are already a group on it's own. He offered us sessions on a weekly basis and we have to decide if we want to try if group is an opportunity to practise talking with others or if we want to stop going to group.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I resume 2x weekly sessions with my psychologist this week. I haven't seen her for about 2 and a half weeks as I've been in hospital as was very medically poorly.
She really understands and knows about the abuse.
When I tried to talk about it previously, I had a full blown dissociative state. It was absolutely terrifying but she brought me back and explained it's a perfectly normal response. She's been teaching me lots of grounding techniques.
I'm scared as know when I talk again, it will happen again.
I feel safe with her. But it doesn't make it any less scary.
I'm scared to talk, to re live it again. I worry I'll end up having a flashback in therapy again.
