The Safe Room

[pixiedust]

*hugs Sunni back*

I'm happy but sad at the same time.

[troubleshooter]

2 weeks is a long time when you're hurting Diane. Oh thanks for the flowers, :) They're lovely. And hey Laura how're you?

[DestroyMe]

*hands Laura a pet bunny*
I'm kind of meh now....like I REALLY want it to be a good day tomorow b/c a bad day at school ruins the rest of my day that I have to work at my job.

[xXOpheliaXx]

*draws pretty picture*

[troubleshooter]

Maybe tomorrow will be good hun. :) What are you drawing Ophelia? *peeks over*

[DestroyMe]

I hope...
*plays with bubble blower thingy*

[pixiedust]

*cuddles bunny* thank you. I love rabbits.

I'm very mixed Tracie. I'm happy because I spent the evening with my housemates for next year (this is the second time I've met them) and I felt comfortable and valued rather than an outsider and a freak. I like them and they seem to like me. They're the first people at uni who I feel like me and I'm comfortable with.

But I also feel sad at the same time. Not low, just sad. I miss my friend and it hurts. I also still feel quite vulnerable about the other stuff. I feel quite close to tears but happy at the same time. It's confusing how I can feel both emotions together.

I'm hugging my teddy as I need to be held.

[troubleshooter]

*holds Laura nice and safe* That's great that you got along with those people! And I know you're still vulnerable but you're getting a lot better honey, you are.

[DestroyMe]

I've come to terms with myself and the fact that even at 18 I still need to be held sometimes....
I needed to be held today....

[pixiedust]

*snuggles into Tracie*

It's strange because normally when I feel like this I become little so that the feelings become more 'normal' in a way. I'm not used to feeling like this as an adult. I'm not sure how things changed last night but I think because for once I faced things as myself, I'm now able to do that still at the moment. I could quite easily switch if I wanted to but I'm not sure whether I do or not.

Do you think it's ok if I cry? I feel like I need to but I also don't want to because I am happy at the moment as well.

[pixiedust]

*holds Sunni* me too *hugs*

[troubleshooter]

*rocks Laura* Just cry honey, you're doing great, and it's ok to feel like this as a grown up.

[DestroyMe]

*is happy to be held*
*hugs back*
if you feel like you need to cry, go a head...sometimes you can be happy and still cry

[risenfromperdition]

*leaves cuddles for everyone*

[pixiedust]

I think I might go to bed now and have a cry if it comes. At least although I feel sad I don't feel low and so the desperate hopelessness isn't here. In fact I feel quite hopeful at the moment. Thank you all for being understanding and caring.

[pixiedust]

*cuddles heather*

[DestroyMe]

you're welcome Laura
*cuddles*

*yawns*

[risenfromperdition]

*cuddles back*
night love =]

[pixiedust]

Goodnight *cuddles*

[troubleshooter]

Goodnight