" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
what im feeling and everything that is spinning round in my head
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I might give that a try, i just feel like im going to explode!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I wanna hurt myself soo bad, i hate myself, i don't wanna eat anymore + other stuff.
Sarah i don't really know what to say other than we love you and your not alone hunny xxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
you might not feel like that tomrrow, try writting things down and take it from there, but doing this to yourself isnt doing any good at all, and its not going to achieve anything.
sarah is there anything you can do to try and rod yourself of these feelings?
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
daniella - how are you feeling today hun ? a little calmer ? wanna talk about all the things bothering you last night? i know you mentioned not wanting to eat and and wanting to hurt yourself.. did you do those things ?
me - more family fun times today . my jeans dont fit and my heads a complete dark mess. no reason for it again. no triggers nothing . but distractions of books and family have to eventually work i guess....
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
I keep not returning to the thread for a while then when I come back there are loads of replies and lots has happened. I hope people don't think I'm ignoring them or just not bothering to reply, I can't get on my computer regularly through the day so I'm only coming on when I can so huge apologies for not replying a lot.
Lots of hugs for everyone. I haven't got many words today, I'm exhausted after talking to my boyfriend last night and telling him I don't trust him because I see no reason for him not to be cheating on me. But I hope everyone is okay, and again I'm sorry for not having many words
Sarah - Last night was so hard to fight it really was. i'm not feeling great today but a little better than last night. I've been doing well with the eatting i've even put weight on that i needed too but i'm struggling with that and i want to lose it all soo bad. I've not si'ed for over 6/7weeks but i want to do it soo bad. There is so much going on in my head yet there is no one to help me anymore.
How you feeling today?
Emma - i'm glad your feeling happy today :)
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Daniella - what's going on in your head? I'm glad you're feeling a little better today but can we help you at all today to feel a bit better than that? I know the feeling of wanting to lose the weight but it's good you can recognise that you needed to put it on. I know that doesn't help much when the feelings become overbearing but try and keep that in mind. **hugs**
I thought i was recovering from the ed and starting to eat like a normal person and i stopped the over exercising, i did everything to try and gain weight. I thought i would be happy again but this is hell. My head is a mess, i can't even say whats going on inside coz there is too much!
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Daniella - I'm sorry things are so hard right now. I think it's a great step that you're trying to recover and it won't happen overnight but please keep on trying. xxx
Sorry people are finding it tough, i agree though with the writing things down, ive started keeping a sort of diary and it does help a bit with things x
I finally made an appointment but with the senior nurse coz i can't bear to see the male Gps, but i think its time i got my lax abuse under control its ruining my insides. also apparently i need a swine flu jab coz im in the at risk catagory?! is that coz of the ed things or maybe coz i live with a diabetic? cant think otherwise.
anyway enough of my random babbling sending love and snuggles all round x
Ferretmonster - it could be because of your ED or your diabetic person you live with, but it might also be because of your lax abuse? I'm not sure I'm afraid, could you maybe ask? Well done for making the appointment though and I hope it goes well. Let us know, yeah?
Im really nervous this is going to end up with camera insertion somewhere down the line *insert appropriate smilie*
Don't worry about that now. If it comes to that then we can help you deal with it then, but there's no point getting yourself worked up about it before you even know it's a possibility I know it's easier said that done though!
