ferret - the fact that you dont care about the physical signs plus that here are physical signs is so worrying.
last time i was like that i was so involved in it barely anything else mattered. please be careful.
ash - :) . i know that feeling, its not a lot, but as soon as someone makes a positive comment then it feels like a reward. but i promise you its not. try and get back outof it. i had to do it about a month or so back i know its hard but dont let it take over again
me - well i got my power trip last night. only to have worried my parents sick and lied my ass off about where i'd been.. gotta love that rush so im exstatic today because im in control and doing everything i shouldnt.. opps :)
Im so very rubbish at sayng anything useful to others so just remember i am thinking of all of you guys and snding my love x
my pick ups - guys .. girls.. flirting.. cutting.. manipulating... smoking.. screwing about with my eating... cutting.. its all good. i know its not but hey whatever works right ?
ash - i know its hard the fight between the good the bad.. the weight. but you know ultimately its not going to be sustainable if you get back on the ride you'll end up taking longer to recover, worrying people and either in hosp or dead. - as a destination - in the meantime the more you do it and then try to pull yourself back to good .the bad will make you feel like a failure.
ferret - dont worry yourself we all struggle to give helpful advice when were struggling ourselves.
Beki . how you feeling hun ?
pnuemonia (emma ? ) - welcome to the thread, post if you like or just read whatever were all friends
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
urgh I hate these mood swings! I was feeling so happy, like i could achieve anything and everything was going so good. I was motivated and felt creative and energentic.
Not dealing with the stuff i was talking about last time very well. bad me is showing herself and she's gonna mess things up. its like i'm 2 different people sometimes. new meds are making me zombified, and just relaised pharmacy didnt give me enough tablets though i see my psych next week and have enough till then.
Life Is Like A Beautiful Melody Only The Lyrics Are Messed Up
hiya hope u are all ok. im home from uni at the mo so gps be bit complicated but i will when i go bk cus of gota get a script neway and they know my history. i dunno i guess its my dbt therapist but i duno things r geting harder i want next year to b a success but dont know if im strong enough. i start dbt group on the 7th jan im panicking now i dont know wat to expect and ive never done group before my anxiety is high. and im really scared. got work again today.
does anyone know how carrie and holly is.
hope ur all ok. ill write individual replies when i get bk from work ill have more time
thanks you for all ur responses i do take them all in and process them. hugs
sorry cant think to reply to everyone else right now.
woke up on a complete low. it wont go away. i wanna cut or something but i want to fight it.. but its getting harder. every hour feels like ten.
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
*hugs* Sarah I'm sorry you're feeling like this.Do try to fight it no matter how hard it may feel.
I hope everyone is doing ok.
I just got back from my parents house after xmas and I can finally breathe.
All the anxiety/stress of being around my family is now over.
The whole time I was there I wanted to cut but now I am back home I feel relieved
All is full of love : you just ain't receiving All is full of love : your phone is off the hook All is full of love : your doors are all shut
Emma - I know what you mean about the mood swings, they're horrible. But stick with them, they'll pass eventually!
xXMessedupXx - Will you be able to talk to your psych about how you're feeling? What are you struggling with at the moment? Would you be able to consider a change of meds if they are making you feel zombified?
Cheryl - I know how scary new years and groups can be but try not to look at them as big long things as it'll make them seem even scarier. Could you try breaking things down into little pieces and focus on maybe a couple of weeks or a week or whatever at a time? Maybe that'll make it easier to look at?
Sarah - What's up? Has anything set your low mood off or is it just random? Have you got any distractions that might work for you at the moment? Do you want to talk?
Me - I'm at home on my own. Not feeling hugely well. I'm not going to a family meal today. I don't want to go and not be able to purge This isn't me. I don't have an eating disorder, I have no reason to be doing this. But I am and I don't know why. Stupid brain
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Hey thanks guys.
Beki - im glad your feeling more relieved now your home, xmas is always a hard time of year for families.
Ash - sometimes things dont make sense. maybe its about control ? rather than weight loss ? maybe its both ? .
me - nothing set it off i just woke up like it. im all fidgity.
im meant to be seeing my friend but he's running late - he text me and told me which is a bonus hes pretty useless at time and communication - but now im just waiting for him to say hes ready and its anxiety building too
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
Thats exactly how i feel, like im me, then theres ill me. But right now i dont feel like either at all, its like theres either a third person or im just not real right now.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
the 2 people is the simple part. there me , there me when im ill or there me on a high and me on a low .. and then the third one creeps in. throwing everything off balance and you still insist thres two but your the third one so ho does that work ?
because our brains arent made of just two parts, two catergories or two personalities, its all fragmented.
so if your feeling like the third person (or even one of the other two) its ok . its just part of you. it can be unnerving or thrilling... its easier to jot it down that your a third person and then accept it.
- or thats what i find at least -
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
mari - come on hunny i know it feels like your not but you are. your a living breathing human person just like the rest of us.
try to be logical.. ground yourself if you can.
cheryl - how are you .
me - i had fun.. there was subtle flirting. crashed again now tho and have a whole nother day of family socialising tomorrow.. eurgh.
but tonight tonight is bad and its only 7pm. it means its gonna be hell.
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
