All blossoms die in the light of our new culture
Find your belief in that which cannot be discovered
Countless lessons lie in every fever dream
A million voices asking, what does it all mean?
I've lost all direction I've lost all my direction And now I wish
That I
Would have believed
Could have believed
Escape, escape
Nature's indifferent hand
Retreat, retreat
To the bliss of our creation
We were born and raised
To live beyond
The heft and weight of a world undone
Like a bird
From the north
Our hearts will roam in search of warmth
Two hands come together to pray for greater yields
Two poles of a compass guided by a field
In the mind of every man, two ghosts dance Was this place made, or was it here by chance?
uncountable numbers written in new fallen snow
I can hear the claws of the beast tapping at my window
Nihilist sleeps and in dreams he sees god's face
Realize even disbelief required a leap of faith From birth to death, we search for what's yet to be known
We hope and pray and ask, but we are never shown
And i promise you
there is nothing i won't give
to see this through.
I hope you all stay strong and take better care of yourselves than I have been known to do in real life.
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Originally Posted by safe enough distance away
keep at arms length there's a monster in me that I have trouble controlling occasionally *
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Originally Posted by Full metal alchemist
And i promise you there is nothing i won't give to see this (my problems) through
I wish i were a robot, robots memory can be easily wiped out without bad side effects, the emotions can be programmed and the physical damage can be rapaired in such a way no one would know it had happend.
The sleepless night goes on I want to meet you
the reality interrupts my dream my ephemeral wish
taking our hands with no doubts
in this road that the two of us were walking on
Hey, we made a promise, didn't we?
"although the wall is high, the two of us will go crossing over it"
why you're not here anymore? I want to meet you right now
the heart it's shut off fearing everything
how far would be better to go? I can't walk anymore
dreaming to meet you in a dream
even the afterimage goes vanishing
just like a falling star
you are the radiant light tears wrap the night sky
turning into the key of my heart the closed door has been opened
if i'll meet you someday I want to tell you
"Although the wall is high the two of us crossed over it"
"thank you, you can sleep now because I can walk on my own"
turning into the key of my heart the dream that I was seeing with you
certainly in this night sky it will bring the morning someday
Ah...hiding everyone in my chest resounding to the wound of my heart
coming out of the closed gate there's a sound that reach me illuminating the darkness
Don’t get too close, It’s dark inside.
It’s where my demons hide, It’s where my demons hide.
PointeLullaby and Posh Little Rich Girl are my Sisters, Acto808 is my brother wigglemuffin is my invasion buddy, ~ PM ME IF You Need Me :P ~
I absolutely love when a song describes exactly how you feel. Right now this one speaks volumes to me. Sorry if some of the words are triggering. I bolded some of the words that make me feel the most, if that makes any sense at all.
I know, I know I've let you down I've been a fool to myself I thought I could live for no one else But not through all the hurt and pain Its time for me to respect the ones you love mean more than anything
So with sadness in my heart
I feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever what's done is done, it feels so bad what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending
I wish that I could turn back time cos now the guilt is all mine cant live without the trust from the ones you love. I know we can't forget the past you cant forget love and pride because of that its killing me inside
It all returns to nothing, it all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down, it all returns to nothing, I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down,
In my heart of hearts,
I know that I called never love again
I've lost everything
everything
that matters to me,
matter in this world
I wish that I could turn back time
cos now all the guilt is mine
cant live without
the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love and pride
because of that, its killing me inside
It all returns to nothing, it all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down it all returns to nothing, I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down It all returns to nothing, it all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down it all returns to nothing, I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down
the feeling is kinda going but a few weeks back this summed up how i felt...
I sat myself down Tuesday
Wrote myself a song
Just things I want to say
About what is wrong
But all of my complaining
Well, it comes to no avail
And things I really need to say
I've yet to learn myself
Ah but, I won't cry, no
And I won't wail, no
I'll tell myself that you never fail
Until it's over
And when it's over, it's over
So, I wrote myself a letter
And I sent it off to you
To make myself feel better -
I tried to tell the truth
I wrote a song for Jesus Christ
And one for Noah's Ark
I sang a song for morning light,
And I still sat in the dark
But, I won't cry, no
And I won't wail, no
I'll tell myself that you never fail
Until it's over
And when it's over, it's over
So I accept I can't do nothing
Do nothing at all
I see myself, a big long road
And I build myself a wall
I dig myself a tunnel
So I could get on under
And join the rest of the human race
Just ask why and wonder
But, I won't cry, no
And I won't wail, no
I'll tell myself that you never fail
Until it's over
And when it's over, it's over
And when it's over, it's over
It's over, it's over
If I pretended I was blind
And struck it from my mind
Would it still be there?
What if I'd do anything
To make it seem all right
I finally got Lei'd in Vets....It was an enjoyable experience!
When I was young, it seemed that life was so wonderful,
a miracle, oh it was beautiful, magical.
And all the birds in the trees, well they'd be singing so happily,
joyfully, playfully watching me.
But then they send me away to teach me how to be sensible,
logical, responsible, practical.
And they showed me a world where I could be so dependable,
clinical, intellectual, cynical.
There are times when all the world's asleep,
the questions run too deep
for such a simple man.
Won't you please, please tell me what we've learned
I know it sounds absurd
but please tell me who I am.
Now watch what you say or they'll be calling you a radical,
liberal, fanatical, criminal.
Won't you sign up your name, we'd like to feel you're
acceptable, respecable, presentable, a vegtable!
At night, when all the world's asleep,
the questions run so deep
for such a simple man.
Won't you please, please tell me what we've learned
I know it sounds absurd
but please tell me who I am.
"It is not the strength of the body that counts, but the strength of the spirit"
-J.R.R Tolkien
Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
It's true I've become a skeptic
How many couples really love
Just wish I had a crystal ball
To show me, if it's worth it all
Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
Yeah I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
And I've got to be sure
Coz it's been so long
And I cannot take the pain again
If it all goes wrong
“Though she be but little, she is fierce!”
20.12 .07 - Cathryn
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things i didnt do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
It's enough now
It's your loss now
It's just that I'm low
It's enough now
It's your loss now
It's just I don't know
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
collected all these words
to paint this picture for you
and try to get you to see
these words might have no worth
unless you understand that
this picture wants to be free
and I've spent all this time
in a world that chooses victims for a faceless crime
that just adds to the statistics of the hurt not seen
you never see me when I'm blue, blue, blue and grey
there's not a day gone by
that I don't see this picture
reveal itself in my head
but everyday I try
to prove to you I'm alive
though parts of me might be dead
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
