Ok I'm going to be put on Clozapine.

[Miss-Dramatic]

Babe your not uselss. I hope your doing okay. Im really sorry you needed to self haerm. I hope you okay and you got the wound cleaned. How much are you on now. I dont know alot about this type of medicene tbh but im sure eveything will be okay xxx

[Steel Maiden]

Sleepless123, thanks for your kind words. Its 1.5 days now and I will be going into supported accomodation afterwards so I'm feeling a bit hopeful. x

Dubagirl, thanks...I will keep fighting. I will not succumb to suicide. I'm trying to cope...One day at a time. x

Lyssie, thanks for the hugs *receives hugs happily* I will take a small bag with biscuits and water and I'll try to keep myself up on energy. It will be hard trying to explain to the nurses why I'm doing that though. I've set an example? *blushes* thanks for the kind words. I'll tell the nurses or the doctor (if I get to talk to the doctor alone) that I've self-harmed. I'll write down everything I want to say to her and I'll try and get it covered. Thanks though, you're wonderful. x

No reason, I am trying to stay out of hospital for my Mum's sake and its working so far...I am not going out though because I'm too scared, but staying at home is safe for me because I won't run away and my Mum's always around so I am less likely to hurt myself (except at night). I won't let the buggers kill me. I didn't cut for self-harm, I did something else (I won't say what here) that leaves minimal scarring and nobody but a doctor would see that I've done anything. I will continue to fight *receives hugs with some happiness*. x

Thanks, you really do help guys. xxxx

[Steel Maiden]

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Originally Posted by Stayci2k8

Babe your not uselss. I hope your doing okay. Im really sorry you needed to self haerm. I hope you okay and you got the wound cleaned. How much are you on now. I dont know alot about this type of medicene tbh but im sure eveything will be okay xxx

Sorry I didn't see your post as its on the next page.
I'm trying to cope, but I'm concerned that all this hiding my true feelings from my Mum will mean that when I go to hospital and she leaves me, I'll kick off and get into trouble. I didn't cut but I did something else and its all taken care of, I am not hurt any more. I am back to full working order. I hope that I won't get 500 side-effects from this med...Thanks xxxxx

[pixiedust]

Olympia sweetheart, you're doing so well and you're not useless at all. I'm really proud of you for being so strong at the moment because I can't imagine how hard things are for you coming off your meds when it was hard enough before. Taking water, biscuits and sweets in with you sounds like a very good idea. I think you should explain to the nurses why as well when you get there as they may have some other ideas on how you can eat safely. I'm so glad that you're going to be able to go into supported accommodation afterwards. Hopefully that will give you more confidence to be able to cope on your own and interact with people. I really do wish you all the best. You're a strong brave girl and you can beat all this. Take care xx

[Steel Maiden]

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Originally Posted by pixiedust

Olympia sweetheart, you're doing so well and you're not useless at all. I'm really proud of you for being so strong at the moment because I can't imagine how hard things are for you coming off your meds when it was hard enough before. Taking water, biscuits and sweets in with you sounds like a very good idea. I think you should explain to the nurses why as well when you get there as they may have some other ideas on how you can eat safely. I'm so glad that you're going to be able to go into supported accommodation afterwards. Hopefully that will give you more confidence to be able to cope on your own and interact with people. I really do wish you all the best. You're a strong brave girl and you can beat all this. Take care xx

Thanks for your kind words....I will try and find my favourite nurses in Seacole Ward (not that there are many of those in Seacole) and I'll talk to them about why I'm carrying food around with me. I am looking forward to going into supported accomodation because, as you said, I'll be able to gain independence. I've been living with my parents for my whole life and I need to learn how to live alone, especially if I want to prepare for uni in October 2009. The only problem is is that my Mum may strongly object to it, but I really want to go to supported accomodation... Thanks, you take care too xxxx