Possibly Triggering - Counting or not counting?

[I-Feel-Infinite]

i have to say definitely not count.....
coz once i count I REMEMBER about SI-ing..... like i'm suddenly thinking about it.... then i think about how i need it etc etc.....
whereas if i didn't count i'll think about how i've given up - and that's it...
and one day i'll just stop thinking about giving up and it'll become natural
and then one day i can say i gave up....
if that made any sense!
and counting - to me i'll always think "oh i've only been 3 days free... well then i can do it.... 3 days can easily be reached again and i'll go from there"

I don't count the days/months. I don't see why anyone would really.
I know the last time I did it was at the start of this year. It wasn't even bad (then again, I never did it bad)

There are days where I feel like utter crap, but I'm human. I can't feel fine every day and I can't feel like crap every day.
I know now that I can go on with my life without hurting myself- I don't even think about doing it. It's not worth it. Never really was :)