Triggering (Suicide) - *urgent* my kelly is in hospital....help?

[pea soup]

i dont think there will be tornadoes so i will probably try and sleep.

im taking vicodin(hydrocodone) which is a mixture of aceitamenaphen and codeine. im taking the highest dose recommended but sometimes i do have to take more and i end up running out. i originally started taking them for my back until i have the breast reduction. but since the flashbacks have become so extreme and frequent i mostly take them for that.

but no medical doc will prescribe pain meds for flashbacks even though it is PROVEN in the psychiatric field that flashbacks can cause extreme pain. my psych told me that she would prescribe me pain meds if she could because she knows how bad they are and ive been seeing her for 4 years now. but psychiatrists cannot prescribe pain meds. its all just a big mess.

i will live on ibuprofen and heating pad and ice. i had one refill left on the meds so i have to go back to my medical doc for another prescription. plus im in the process of trying to get the consult from the surgeon about the reduction. once my breasts are reduced i wont b\need the meds for my back. but ive been relying on them for flashbacks more than ever now.
and im a bit scared that once i dont have them...idk.

i broke down and am using a crutch tonight because my legs just wont hold me up. im not overweight....my legs just wont hold me up because of pain.
i just cant get the med docs to understand that. if they cant SEE it....its not there....grrrrrr.

[effervescence]

yes indeedy doctors can be very aggrivating. u poor thing :( my back is partially ****ed up so i have much sympathy for you *HUGS*
i am off to a chemistry lecture (yay) so if i manage to stay awake through it i will check on you later and hopefully you won't reply cos u will have gone to sleep!! (this makes sense in my own head lol)
night night x

[blondiebear]

Do you have a primary care physician, someone you go to regularly? Can't your psychaitrist consult with that person, perhaps even provide a couple of references to medical articles about pain and flashbacks so the regular doc will prescribe the pain meds?

But yeah, docs are dumb. In my experience pharmicists know more about side effects of meds than the docs do.

It is okay to use a crutch or even two of them if it helps.

Get some sleep if you can. I'm off to do that myself. We're getting some late season rain tonight so I want to listen to it too. I'll check in on you in the morning.

*gives you a gentle caring hug*

[pea soup]

Kelly's home!!!!!

she got to come home with us after the session.
im so happy shes back.
she will be doing intensive OP for 2 or 3 weeks. she starts tomorrow.

thank you all for your support since she's been in hospital. you all mean the world to us.
loves.
xxxxx

[Pomegranate]

I am so happy for you both. I hope you and your family continue healing and find the happiness you all deserve really soon x

[Casper_Fading]

How's itdoing honey? YOu guys going alright? I'm glad she's okay :)

[pea soup]

its been rocky. they took her off her valium and narcotic pain meds which has been hard with the withdrawals.
they have her on a pain med but it isnt nearly as effective.
and she has nothing for anxiety which is making things kind of a "touch and go".

but she's home and im grateful for it.

thanks all you guys.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[blondiebear]

Glad to hear that things are on the mend.

Please let us know how the healing goes?