Triggering (SI/Abuse) - Love and Razorblade Ecstacy

[crazykat]

Very good hun

[PaperClip]

Its been worth the w8 hun!

Keep writing when you have time!!

Bump!

[Shinpad]

Hey this is really good :)
I love it
Your really good at writing sweetie

Hope your ok,
and keep up the fantastic work :D


xxx

[xfallenangelx]

hope your okay.
im still loving it!
xx

[Tallie]

just found this, and it is seriously really good.
keep on writing, youve got talent (:

[smile_it_confuses_people]

WHAT HAPPENS NEXT???

gutted it ended thats brill writing i really want to carry on reading lol

[JumpinJackFlash]

I quite like it.

[Casca]

"When are Sara and Seb supposed to get back?" Arhen wondered.

"Maybe in half an hour," Dan said.

"Sweet," Mer cheered, running torwards the back of the house, stripping articles of clothing as she ran. "That means I'm goin' swimming!" Seb has a lake behind his house and it was absolutly amazing. The lake has the most wonderful view: clear emerald water with an island with a gazebo in the middle of it. We followed the trail of discarded clothing to the back door. Already clad in a bikini, Mer made her way to the small wooden dock. She leaped of the edge and dived into the water.

"The fun part will be getting her out," Dan laughed. "I swear that woman is part fish or something." The rest of us walked over to the dock to sit down on the chairs that were precariously perched facing the lake. We made small conversation as we watched Mer backstroke through the water.

"Mer's never been the one to wear bikini's," I said, taking notice to her naked torso.

"Oh," Dan gasped, "she got that tattoo on her side. Since then, she has had no problem showing it off." I looked at her closely, gazing at the body art that decoratted her entire left side.

"Holy ****, that is amazing!" I said, awestruck.

"It is a completely original design," Arhen spoke, "she drew it out herself, even though it took two years."

The tattoo was phenominal. It consisted of three large, bloodstained skulls. Each skull sprouted a pair of razor-sharp wings from the back. Each had a different attribute that distinguished itself from the others. The top skull had colorful pills spilling out of its eye sockets and mouth. The next was completely entangled in ropes. The last had a bullet hole bored through the temple. It was breathtaking on her body, but the significince was even more incredible. Each skull signified an attempt at suicide that she has taken.

"It's been three years since she tried to kill herself," Arhen said.

"It's nice to know that she is doing so much better now," Dan shrugged.

"I can remember wrestling that gun from her that day," Arhen recollected.

"Yeah, I'm glad that we were able to save her." I sighed, bringing my knees torwards my chest. "I don't even want to know what it would be like without her around."

As I was speaking, I noticed something quite peculiar about her skin. There were three large crevaces, side by side, hidden within the colors. It soon became obvious why Mer did not like showing off her body.

We sat there in silence, all devoured within the flashback that has overtaken us.

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Thanks for waiting and for your concern. I am doing a lot better. (Aside from finding out that I might have to get my gallbladder removed, but it is a worthless organ anyway. :P) I am going on vacation tomorrow, so I will try to finish the rest of the next part so I can post it tonight. I should be back Tuesday or Wednsday next week, so I will write more so I can update when I get back.

You guys are amazing. Take care and please stay safe.

_Mer

[Feel_Good_inc.]

stirring. i love reading this.

[crazykat]

Wow this is fantastic, I hope you have a good time away

[Shinpad]

Aww i hope you'll be ok sweetie,
have fun on your vacation though :D

Amazing writing as always

xxxx

[Casca]

"C.C," Mer called, out of the blue, "could you come here?"

"Yeah, sure," I answered, getting up off the chair, leaving the guys to themselves. I sat down at the end of the dock, dipping my feet in to the water. "What's up?"

"I just wanted to know how you're doing." Mer said, treading water in front of me.

"I'm doing pretty good," I lied. I saw her gaze lighten then shooting up into my eyes.

"Sweetie," she said, "I know that isn't true." She read my mind. Was it that obvious to tell what what running through my head? "Is everything alright?"

"Not exactly," I confessed. "Things haven't been going so well back at home."

"Care to talk about it?" She asked.

"Yeah," I sighed," I guess I can."

"Thank you," she smiled. "Now I take it your parents are still as loving as ever." She said in an obvious sarcastic tone.

"You have no idea," I said, letting out a dry chuckle. "Earlier today my parents were patronizing me about my weight."

"They finally told you that you are too skinny." She said, looking at my waist.

"No, they were telling me that I am too fat," I said, taking my legs out of the water and bringing my knees to my chest.

"What?!" She exhaled heavily," you have got to be shitting me!"

"I really wish I was..." I sighed, putting my face to my knees.

"Hun, I am so sorry!" She apologized.

"It is alright, you don't need to apologize." I stated, "really, it is."

"Like hell it is." She strained," Who the hell to they think they are to put down their own flesh and blood like that?"

"My parents." I blatently answered. "Besides, I'm used to it. Please don't worry about it."

"Cecilia..." I cut her off.

"Please, there is nothing you or anybody can do for me. I know you want to help me and I love you for that. Just don't worry about me. I'm a big girl now and I can take care of myself. I hate to say this to you, but I need to take care of this ordeal by myself."

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Well, that is the end of chapter 2. I am grateful to have you guys to care for me like you do. Thanks so much.

Well, that is all for now. Comments and critisism are always welcome.

Take care and stay safe!

_Mer

[Tallie]

Just...wow really.
I hope were going to find out more about all the characters youve got me interested in Mer.

[Casca]

If anyone is interested, I still need two more characters for my story.

If you are interested, PM your info to me.

Stuff I need are things like your name, appearance, personality, vices and the like. I won't be writing that side story for a while, but having the information can help me brainstorm for it. Once I finish the side story, the characters will make their way into the main story.

I am starting to write chapter 3, so I will hopefully be able to update in the next few days.

_Mer

[Casca]

The silence between us remained for an unbelievably long time. Mer kept her head down as she tread water. When I thought the quiet spell would never be broken, she began to speak.

"I respect your decision," she stated, looking up at me. "As much as I'd hate to let you take something like this alone, I will honor your wishes and stay out of it."

"Thank you," I said, putting my feet back into the water. "I know it is hard, but I don't want anyone else getting hurt, even if they are willing to risk it."

"Yeah, I understand," she sighed, "but could you promise me one thing?"

"What?" I asked, "I'll do anything."

"If you ever need help with anything, and I mean anything," Mer said quite sternly, "do not hesitate even a second to call me. I will come and help you, even if I'm on the other side of the ****ing planet."

"Alright," I smiled, "I can do that."

"Promise?" Mer asked, extending her hands to me.

"Promise," I said, taking hold of her hands.

For once in my life, everything seems to be going alright. I'm away from those that hurt me and with those that care about me. I really do hope that things keep on getting better, but something is telling me it isn't practical. I just know that something terrible is bound to happen.

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Sorry about the short update, but it is all I had time to write. I am currently writing more, so hopefully a better update is on its way. Thanks so much for being so patient with me, it really means a lot. I never expected my story to be so well recieved, so thank you.

Until next time.

_Mer

[Casca]

Speaking of terrible things bound to happen, the beautiful moment between Mer and I soon met its untimely end. I suddenly found myself being swung though the air by the two insufferable dingledorks otherwise known as Dan and Arhen. They had me by my arms and legs, swinging me back and forth.

"You...wouldn't...dare!" I shouted, my voice choppy due to the shaky swinging that was taking place.

"Yes we would!" The boys shouted back in unison, releasing my arms and legs, sending me flying into the water. I began flailing because of the cold water. Once the initial shock had surpassed, I swam my way up to the top of the lake.

"I can't believe you did that," I yelled, spitting water out of my mouth. "What the hell is wrong with you?" The boys looked down at me, and proceeded to burst out in a fit of laughter. I couldn't help smacking my forehead due to the sheer stupidity that was occuring.

"Boys will be boys," Mer chimed in, shaking her head. "We'll get them back, hun. Just wait for it..."

When I looked back, there were two figures looming behind the gufawwing morons, knowing that they would soon be getting theirs. One of the figures stepped forward and shoved them into the lake. It was priceless seeing them flail in the water like drunken fools. The look on Dan's face seeing who pushed them in was even more priceless.

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I felt so bad about leaving that pathetic excuse for writing as that last update. I really wasn't a fan of that...but it was all I have...so I stayed and and wrote more, and I like it, I hope you will, too.

I am so sorry about the ranting, it's just I'm hitting blocks now. It's like I know what I want for future parts of the story, but how do I get there.

Yeah, I should probably shut up, I am so tired. But I am happy to get that done. I can sleep in peace XD.

Until next time...again.

_Mer

[trina1723]

i like it =]
keep writing =]
trina x

[Casca]

"Sara?!" Dan yelled, mouth remaining wide open, water dripping from his face. She stood there with a huge smile on her face. I think she was quite content with herself. I have always found it quite amusing to watch Dan act like he does when Sara is around, like a blabbering fool! Of course, he loves her, so that kind of action is necessay and expected.

"Close your mouth, Dan," Sara giggled, bending down to get more at an eye level with him. "You're starting to catch flies!" Dan emitted a wimpering noise before closing his mouth.

"Sara," Dan groaned, "why did you do that?"

"Because I just couldn't help myself," Sara stated, putting her hands together making that evil contemplenting gesture which never means anything good. "Plus, I just saw you two morons throw Cecilia into the water, so it seemed quite necessary to return the favor." Dan couldn't help a gigantic smile from spreading across his face.

"Ohh, I think you just got owned," Arhen laughed while floating past Dan on his back."

"Which is why I love her so much," Dan smiled, gazing up to Sara, her face turning a shade of red.

While all this was happening, I hatched a brilliant plan. I took a quiet breath and went underwater. When I was submerged, I swam my way under a lounging Arhen, grabbing hold of him as I resurfaced.

"Gotcha!" I yelled, causing him to flail a bit. "Jumpy?"

"Geez, woman!" Arhen gasped, taking hold of me. "You almost gave me a heart attack."

I moved to where I faced him, gazing into his eyes.

"I guess we're even now," I giggled.

"Yeah," Arhen spoke softly, moving closer, touching his forehead to mine. "We're even now."

I closed my eyes as his lips joined with mine.

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I'm so happy. I finally got the writing juices flowing again. Thanks for your patience, I really hope you enjoy the update. If there are any suggestions, I will gladly take them.

Well, until next time. Take care and stay safe!

_Mer

P.S.

Do any of you guys have a myspace or a facebook (or both even?) If so, I would love to add you guys on there! I've had myspace for a while, but I just got the facebook, but yeah, I would love to stay in touch!

[Feel_Good_inc.]

All wonderful. you're a great writer. You tell this story so well, I can't wait to read more.

[Casca]

I am so sorry that I have not been able to update my story. I have been really busy. I have been writing, not a lot, but I have been. I will try to post more whenever I can, but I won't be able to do much until after May 24, which is my graduation. I have so much to do in a month and a half before graduation. Scholarships, prom, AP tests, gahhhh! It is so overwhelming, but exciting at the same time. I thank you for your encouragement thus far, and believe me, it's keeping me sane.

Well, sorry for that random mess of words, but I think I got my message across. Take care and stay safe.