Dear me,
you think it's funny now, but 4 years from now she'll be right. you'll be a mess, and no one will know.
tell him. now. before he leaves. if you don't you'll regret it. if you do--well who knows what'll happen. either way it's just a middle school crush and either way you'll get over it eventually, but if you tell him then 4 years from now you won't be wistfully missing his friendship.
talk to her, your best friend. reach out to her. she needs you NOW. don't wait to figure that out until after the storm has passed. don't let her go through this alone.
in 2005 Grandma will die. In 2007 Grandpa will die. so prepare yourself. tell them you love them & get to know them better. make more memories.
love yourself now. more than you do. maybe then it won't be so bad.
and most of all...
it helps a ton to talk about your emotions.maybe if you start now you'll be used to it & four years from now you won't have to resort to cutting. maybe...
I just wrote last night in my journal about how much I miss you. I love you so so much & wish that parts of me were still you, if that makes sense. good luck. can't wait to see how you turn out.
stop drinking.
be a kid
stop hurting yourself
MAKE people notice you
learn that your best may not be as good as all others,
except it
be happy with yourself
throw the blades away
eat something
treat yourself like a human
16 year old bee
pity none of that stuff happened. and im now worth nothing. to anyone
please stop worrying about everything so much, you have a couple of great friends, go out with them occasionally, better than spending time in your room on your own.
stop fantasizing about bad stuff, believe me in a few years time you'll regret it, you'll have the scars to prove it.
work harder in your last year of school and actually revise, your really quite clever.
oh and please stop wearing those clothes, and do your hair and lose some weight (the healthy way) your actually not as ugly as you think you are.
oh and dont worry about boys, in 5 years time you'll have met your soul mate and he's a million times better than all of them put together!
and work harder at dancing, push yourself and make your teacher put you through your exams quicker, you have no idea how much you'll regret it later on if you dont, if your feeling really brave ask for some pointe lessons!
Dear 13 year old me,
stop cutting yourself, I know you started a year ago and that seems a long time, but get some help now, otherwise you'll still be doing it at 20.
In a year or so's time someone is going to do something bad to you, speak out! Don't keep it bottled up.
Give up on fitting in- normal is boring remember. And don't listen to anything anyone say's about your figure, you are voluptous not podgy and if you go on to lose masses of weight guy's will tell you that they found you really hot with curves but now you've lost them.
Your family are gonna rely on you a lot over the next few years, but you can cope, you are a strong person. Just don't hide the stress, please don't get obsessed with exercise. If you do you will not get your 4 A's at a level and you will not get into cambridge.
Stop fighting with your sister, in time she'll become a good friend of yours.
Love my 20-year old self.
I have nothing to warn you about or give advice about. Everything happens for a reason.
But one thing, don't spazz out when you realise you're gay and tell mum before you're 21 ;)
Dear Jess, not too sure with all this ****ing with the past stuff
Dump those friends of yours, your scared you'll be left with nobody?
Don't worry anything is better then those idiots, and sombody better *will* come along.
Don't isolate yourself, keep going out, even when you worry that you can't. Do not isolate yourself! Don't worry about boys, you don 't want to go with sombody just for the sake of it. Try hard at school, you might want to give up but believe me you'll be glad when you see your results!
Don't dumb yourself down for those immature kids in school, don't worry about being fat, don't EVER start to count calories, you beautiful tubby girl, your hot ok??!!
There are going to be a lot of changes, mum's going to die 20 days before your 17 birthday. Make sure you tell her you love her before she goes.
And through all of these changes PLEASE resist that crazy idea in your head that says; blade, skin, blood. DONT DO IT you moron.
I can't wear long sleeves now thanks to you dumbass.
Sorry, you haven't done it yet he he
Just, live life! Go out, have fun and ignore the **** at home.
it will all be over one day , stay strong and never let ANYBODY try to shut you up. You have a voice, you have beliefs, use it and keep on doing whats right.
(also don't kiss james at megans birthday party, blurgh, oh lol, and don;t kiss stuart at dads wedding :-S )
your 17year old self.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
I know these people are crap and that you want out, but please, please Im begging you keep trying. Your persistance in this case leads to the most amazing best friends who you will truly need and depend upon, so please nothing rash and hang in there. When Ashleigh starts to SI dont get caught and go down with her, its the biggest lable youll hav eto deal with and it sucks. And for christ sakes, dont just let Nat walk away, tell her that you love her...
A little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can’t get over it....
♥ Davo
2022111007
You think this is the best year of your life....the luckyest....13...lucky number for you right?
Probably spot on....everything goes downhill from here though I'm afraid....you have about 1 more year to be a normal kid....don't obsess about the small things....don't let Michael control so very much of your life....He is the one whos trouble...not you
You are smart....you might not know that yet....or you might have a vague understanding but...you really are intelligent....from now on you will be the smartest in all your classes....so push yourself to get that extra mark
Its not a popularity contest....and aren't you glad about that?....there is nobody in school now who you will wish to socialise with when you leave....and you will miss school....proposterous I know
Grandad dies next year....so don't forget to take that photograph of him sitting in his arm chair.....and tell him you love him
Read....thats another thing I will tell you....read as much as you can....read like its going out of fashion....it helps you in more ways than you will ever know....develop your singing voice....you will be amazing by the time you get to my age
Learn guitar and piano now....don't worry about people thinking its uncool....it is probably one of the coolest things you will ever do...and join the choir...and don't drop out when the fit music teacher leaves ¬_¬
You will meet your first love in 2 years time....her name is Phoebe....I would say avoid her but....you learned some valuable things from her....about life....
Other than that....get confidence....NOW
You have everything to be confident about....you might not think it but....you are an amazing person and will actually help so very many people in your lifetime.....
When you speak to a girl on AOL....by the name of Naomi....do not pass her off as some 12 year old little girl.....she will actually turn into one of the best things that ever happened to you....and do NOT...under ANY circumstances....tell her the truth about Tom....we know he is going to break her heart.....but if you tell her....you will lose her forever....
Find Hollie now.....shes GCbabe27 on aol....and she is 2 years younger than you....she is your sister
Good luck little man....you don't turn out that bad as it goes....and you have everything going for you right now....University (I know...who knew we would go) and jobs....and some really amazing friends I would never deprive you of
Self harm isnt an answer....but it makes you a stronger person....and gives you these amazing people
I love you.....so learn to love yourself now....save me time...please?
Right
ENJOY YOURSELF
This summer will be the last one you will enjoy if you carry on like this.
Next year those scratches will be nasty cuts and you'll spend all your time hiding them. It will just get worse. Quit while you're ahead.
WORK AT SCHOOL- but dont stress about it. Just keep on top of it. You can do it. trust me.
You've got some awsome frieds- hold onto them, spend time with them and don't you EVER start avoiding them. If you do, you WILL lose them.
Put yourself out for other people, treat your parents with respect, even if you think they dont deserve it. They do.
Be nice to H. Be a proper sister to her.
Stop worrying so much, stop checking the doors and switches and cupboards- ITS OK! NOTHING WILL HAPPEN IF YOU DON'T! and one day you will realise this.
Start eating more healthily. Believe me, you'll wish you had in the future.
Becky, 16
Dear Claire.
I can't tell you anything without risking changing the future. Don't worry, it works out so perfect in the end. Just keep strong enough till you get there.
Love Claire, 20
Let me be the one you call
If you jump i'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn YOU'RE NOT ALONE
Just take it easy.
Keep going the way you are and you'll be fine.
In the end you'll regret very little and will be kind of happy.
It won't be easy, but everything works out.
i know life isnt that easy for you right now but trust me this isnt that bad - the world isnt out to get you and no-one is happy that your feeling this bad, its not how you think it is. mum dad and lisa ARE worried about you, or at least if you keep going like this they will get.
its not your fault that they are always fighting, it never was and never will be - they have problems yeah, but that crap is because of them not you, so dont blame yourself, dont waste your time crying tears that you dont need to.
and note that however much you think "she" is your best friend, shes not - she wont stick around forever like you think, she wont care when you tell her, she isnt who you want her to be, dont get lost in her anymore.
and please god be yourself for once, follow your own dreams - do things that make you smile rahter than things to make others happy. you will never be a match to what you think they want, so dont try to do these things - you might not be the top of the class like her all the time, but thats okay - its really not worth it to spend the next 7 years trying to be something your not.
stop cutting yourself and dont start on the wrists or using a razor cause you'll regret it forever, cause chick those scars arent fading and your never gonna stop - not until it kills you!
Oh - and do the degree YOU want, cause psychology sucks.
DO dye your hair
DO get a tattoo on your 18th
DO get your lip pierced
its your life - live it properly for once!
You don't have to please everyone, remember that.
Don't go out with him, it won't end well and he's no good.
Please please please get out there and start working towards what you want, you have known for ages and it will just make it easier.
By the way everything isn't as bad as it feels or first seems.
Breathe, calm down.
People aren't scary.
Oh and by the way girls are great in relationships, don't assume boys are the only way to go.
You'll thank me.
Look after Fiona, I know you will but make sure she is number one for you, always.
Kim, i would tell you to avoid certain people, but then by avoiding them, you won't end up wanting to get away from yarmouth. 10 years from now, you will be happy. The happiest person in the world possibly. Your so called friends at the mo, well, i'm not going to tell you how they affect you, but you'll realise your mum's right. On the subject of mum, try not to be too harsh on her. She has depression too, but you won't find out until you move 200 miles away. But she'll be happy in around 9 years. Birmingham will be the making of you. I know you already realise this depression is getting worse, but without it, you won't move so far away. You are a beautiful individual, and someone in birmingham will make you realise that. And the best part? In 10 years, you'll have a little boy who you love more than you would ever believe. Being a mum will bring back your demons, but you're more like your adoptive mum than your biological mum. You'll try your hardest. Just get to birmingham, explore, find that pub by accident, and make sure you're working valentines day in 7 years. You'll get a date with your soulmate. Take care of yourself. Oh. While i remember. That song? It's called iris. And you'll still love it in 10 years time.
dear 13year old daniella,
stop what you are doing and listen to this.
school is the one thing you need in life you may hate it but its not forever.
Daniella lucy is gone and never coming back, stop holding on to the throught that she may come back, she never is. Move on, you will never forget her, she will stay with you forever but please dont let it kill you inside. She would never have wanted that for you, she would want you to live for her.
Stop trying to look after your mum, she can look after herself and nothing will happen to her.
Look after that little brother of your's he is going to need you in life, one day you are going to have to look after him. He is a great kid.
NEVER TURN TO THE BLADE....... NEVER
dont even think of doing it.
it will leave you with scars you will hate.
love yourself, love your body.
dont even think of hating your body thats the wrong road to go down, dont turn to not eatting to look like these airburshed people.
Daniella your the ownly person who can turn your life around, start turning it around for the better.
dont think boys will always look after you and never hurt you, coz they will and never get drunk and think nothing will happen coz it will.
Stop drinking, stop doing the drugs because if you dont one day they will be your lifeline may even be the death of you. please dont it will kill your mum inside if she knows what your doing to yourself.
let everything go daniella, your a great girl. the life and soul of the party. you clever and can go far in life, never give up, keep fighting.
And look after yourself and your family because one day your going to have your own family and be free.
take care
from your 16 year old Daniella.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Dear 12 year old me, Just because Aurelie has a boyfriend now, doesn't mean you need one too. You're still young. You may not like the way you look or are but it doesn't matter, you have time to change if you want to. A lot of people you know right now are stupid so stop trying to please them and stop letting them influence so much. They're not worth you feeling so bad.
Dear 14 year old me, things will only get worse and look at how much time you're wasting on feeling like this. Sometimes you can't help it but I also know that sometimes you make yourself feel bad for safety. Live.
Dear dad, I'll try to do everything you never got to. I'll make you proud, I promise.
Love from the 18 year old me and your daughter Fiona
i know life is hard right now... but all of those arseholes will stop eventually... they will. and the friends at your new church will change your life, appreciate them. don't start cutting... and you're beautiful as you are- i promise. i know you think that they're right, and mum's right, but she's not- they're not. you're beautiful and not fat at all. don't think that if you start going on a small diet it won't get out of control... you can't control it. no matter how much you think you can. and when you feel like you're at the end of your rope, pray. pray as hard as you can. it won't be instantaneous, but things will get better. slowly but surely.
and most of all, when you go away to school you wont have to see the people who made life hell again.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
dear 13yr old sammie,
stop what you're doing right now, and go to the mirror. point out five things that you love about yourself, and remind yourself everyday.
whatever people say to you, let it go over your head. do not think starving yourself will give you any kind of control over anything, it will turn you into a person you won't even recognise. & it will lead to purging. which is gross, believe me.
go & spend lots of time with grandad, lots and lots of time. because when you're 16 he's going to leave. and you will never ever get over the guilt of not seeing him more.
stay true to yourself, don't turn into somebody your not in an attempt to fit in. you'll just hate yourself even more for it. just be yourself, if it's not enough for people then they are not worth knowing.
stop cutting now. tell someone. anybody, ask for thier help. you have to stop this now, so you're not still doing it when you're my age. it might feel like it helps, but it won't. it will take over your whole entire life.
don't change anything about the having fun, but maybe drink less. & take less drugs? and work harder! bcos your GCSEs won't just pass themselves and you'll be so disappointed when you get your results and know you could've done better.
love 18yr old sammie.
ps. dont accept that job at the coop, its not worth the money, or the heartache of the people you'll meet there. you won't love him so much, bcos you won't meet him. & thats a damn good thing. go find a job that will make you happy!
