Can you try and share the self harm maybe on behalf of the little part? It sounds like its communicative to some extent, so maybe your role could be to share what happened in a healthy way.
I get that you have some sense of control by having harmful things on you, but staying silent means they really cant help. You deserve to have the best chance of them helping you.
I also wanted to say that the reason you're not allowed these things in hospital isn't just for your own safety, although obviously that is important, but also because there are other vulnerable people there and realistically, if you bring things that you shouldn't have on to the ward, you can't guarantee that no one else will get hold of them.
I can see that you think it's amusing that the staff don't seem to care, but I hope that you decide to talk to them and hopefully that will be more useful for you.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
^ I never thought about this but could be putting others at risk if they ever got hold of this stuff.
I think you should hand them in. Even if it's just to keep other safe.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
^ I never thought about this but could be putting others at risk if they ever got hold of this stuff.
I think you should hand them in. Even if it's just to keep other safe.
This is very true. When I was in hospital i was that desperate to kill myself, i went in everyones rooms and took everything i could find that would harm me, I found a razor blade, and cut my wrists, when they asked where i get the blade from, and i told them in x room, and that person got well and trult bollocked.
I was given anti bc wipe to clean it. I feel guilty for wiping it away, like wiping way her only voice. Like shutting someone up who needs to be heard.
I told them I didn't tell anyone about it or when I got voices telling me to do it because when I did I got told off for asking for PRN.
They said that I should ask for PRN though.
I didn't get told off and still hope that I get discharged. They said it's up to the consultant.
Hospitals can't just let people cut themselves. They're there to stop that kind of thing. Actions have consequences in hospitals. And if you play up then leave is gonna get stopped. Trust me on that one.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
They have to take risk seriously. It's their job.
Imagine how angry and upset your carer would have been if they just ignored it.
Hospital is meant to be a safe place.
Can you really not understand why they though self harm was a bad thing? Serious question.
If i did it would you expect them to let me home?
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
And I made complaint about consultant: got an apology and renegotiated things so it's ok.
If everything over weekend goes ok then I get taken off section and discharged on Monday: which is good. Yippee.
Just waiting for meds etc to be organised. Then I'm outta here: yay.
I'm having some nagging voices getting excited and telling me to do xyz, I'm going to try ignore it though and negotiate something else with it instead.
Can you negotiate safety with the voices? It sounds like you're quite pleased with how things are going hospital-wise but obviously it would be rubbish if you left only to still be at risk.
