I always have a blade with me. Especially in school,my boyfriend and my friend usually check my blazer,and the police have a right to check me from now on at my school.
I've only used it a few times,but i just feel safer if i know i have it if need be.
I always have 2 blades right next to my skin, then another 1 with me in a pocket, plus another 3 in my bag, so that means I have 6 with me nearly all the time, and I always have the first 2 I mentioned with me.
Kind of worrying when I look at the numbers...when my parents first found out about my SI, they took everything away from me, so I'm too scared not to have them with me now, I'm a little over-protective of them really. I'm planning to wean myself off carrying them somehow though as I'm stopping SI.
I've never exactly been caught by anyone, but sometimes I've dropped them, accdiently got them out my pocket when getting keys or something and had to just try and get it away asap. People someitmes notice the edge of one or something like that though, and I'm not sure whether they realise what it was or not.
Sometimes I like having them with me because I get one out and just play with it (I hold it and passs it from hadn to hand kind of tihng) as it makes me feel better and it normally means I don't SI afterwards, whereas I used to wait until I got home to my supply and SI.
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I always have blades with me and other sharp stuff been caught a couple of times by a teacher just got told to hand everthing over she knew about my self harm before
I always have a blade with me. I need to have control over something, and since I can't control the people around me I feel safer if I've got a blade or a scalpal with me. It's more of a security blanket than anything I think, as I rarely cut outside my bedroom. It is just nice to know that it's right there if I need it.
<3 K. Though I did get in a hell of a lot of trouble the first time I was formed, I snuck some in when I was home for the weekend, though I had no intentions of using them and got caught.
i always have a lighter on me coz i smoke but i havent burnt in iova a yaera n wen i diod it was a home neway at work i have a knife on me to cut packaging n that worries me but ive never used it as a tool
I carry my blades on me most of the time...
It's a safety thing for me - if I know I CAN SH if I need, then sometimes the knowing I can is enough to make me not need to in the same way.
Yeah I always used to have one with me when I was at school. I told my counsellor though and she told the school. Then I got dragged into a meeting aobut it and they said that they weren't going to search me this time but they might carry out searches at any time cos they know i've carried weapons with me. So I had to get rid of it cos it could have got me into a lot of trouble. They never tried to search me though.
Yer i take mine everywhere with me. Have been caught with them once when one fel out of my pocket. I was in hosptial at the time. So couldn't get anything else. Me and my mum had i fight over it, both are hands where cut to shreads and a nurse had to pull us apart, so yer not a great experenice.
i used to carry a tiny razor blade in my wallet, but it fell out and my friend saw it and totally ratted me out to the school counselor (both of us have issues with cutting and we both talk to the conselor, so it wasn't too bad). but now i have a few razor blades that i will carry with me sometimes, but i only carry them when i'm having a bad week and i always have bandaging supplies and neosporin. i'm a freak about keeping my cuts clean.
At least when I stay overnight somewhere I take something sharp with me.
Otherwise, I am nervous because I would have got any opportunity to cut myself in case I need it.
At least, I take rubberband with me when I leave the house.
There were only a few occassions I have not taken anything with me in the last years. (Well, good intentions...the months I wanted to stop.)
I can't control my destiny.
I trust my soul. My only goal is just to be. (Rent)
I'm selfish, inpatient and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. (Marilyn Monroe)
If i am going to be in a place that is what i call safe then i'll take my blades but if it's not safe then i take safety pin, paper clips, pretty much stuff that no one would think twice about.
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