Tig (Lottie) needs our help.

[Tig]

Thank you Katie for bumping this and thank you everybody for all your previous replies and Soph.

I'm sorry I haven't been very good at updating this. I'm finding it very hard to reach out to people at the moment and keeping up with text messages and facebook etc has become really hard which I hate because people are trying so hard and I am failing.

Things are not good at all and I'm struggling so much. I was in hospital over the weekend but it didn't go well at all. I was discharged with the crisis team but when my on/off partner came back, they decided to discharge me saying that he could keep me safe which isn't true at all. He's asleep in my room and I'm sitting in the living room completely alone and we don't talk at all.

I tried to explain to the crisis team I didn't think it was a good idea and that I also felt it was a bit unfair because other people have families etc but still receive crisis support, yet for me it almost felt like I was being penalised for allowing him back. They just shrugged.

I have no 'tools' in the house tonight so technically I am safe for now but I don't feel safe. I feel desperate and disgusting and so, so dirty.

Stuff has happened that is compounding this but I feel like the professionals don't want to know and talking to people who aren't professionals isn't a great option as it's pretty traumatic stuff and it's not fair to them to hear this sort of thing.

I'm sorry for rambling on. x

[Becca]

I don't think anyone thinks you are 'failing' for not responding on Facebook or to text messages, it can be hard to keep up at the best of times never mind when you are struggling with things.

I'm sorry you are experiencing difficulties with your team.

I think you said before about being somewhere quite rural? I expect that can be quite frustrating as it limits the support you can access.

Take care.

[Tig]

Thanks Becca.

It is a very rural area which is frustrating because trying to access a different team or service isn't possible. I tried in the past but it was a 90 minute journey in car to the next CMHT area and I don't drive so was 2.5 hours on the bus which made it impossible.

I'm going to try and speak to the Nurse at my GP surgery today if she asks how things are and see if I can maybe see my GP a bit sooner.

[Becca]

I hope the nurse appointment went well and you can see your gp sooner.

I hadn't realised exactly how rural rural was for you! I've no idea what to suggest other than to continue posting here, when you are able, so we can support you through this.

[Wonderland.]

I hope you managed to talk to the nurse lovely.

Did you manage to get a GP appointment sooner at all?

[helpwanted]

Lottie you have helped me but just remember we are all here to help each other
xx always here for you :)xx

[Myimmortalgirl]

Love you Lottie.x

[Tig]

Thanks lovelies.

The nurse was good but there were no appointments with GP. Luckily I have my therapist tomorrow.

x

[Wonderland.]

Oh thats a shame you could really do with it being sooner.

I hope all goes well with your therapist tomorrow.

How are you getting on?

[Tig]

Thanks Ames <3

I'm struggling quite a lot even though my partner is here. Things just seem to be drifting along.

I managed to hurt myself a bit but I'm trying hard not too.

Will be honest with therapist tomorrow. x

[Fire Fly]

Hey sugarplum, I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Do you want to talk about what's going on for you? Is G being supportive at all or being right twat? How's the sessions going with your therapist? I remember you were going to ask your sw to be re-reffered to a specialist unit do you think this could be a possibility again considering your session with your therapist are soon to come to an end? Just thought that maybe things have become 'serious' again compared to when you last asked despite things being quite bad thenas well.

What may help llift your mood? How is Jasmine? Are you still with crisis? Xxx

[Becca]

Good luck tomorrow, hope it goes well. Don't forget you can post here if you need our support.

[Tig]

Fire Fly ~ My new care co-ordinator won't entertain the idea at all of a specialist unit. She just says she has no idea how to help. Crisis team refused to see me as soon as G came back and with us, things are still a mess!
I'm nervous about seeing therapist as although she is fantastic, it's hard not to know that as soon as I walked out of the appointment last time (at the end) I went home and self harmed severely. I hope she won't be angry but she'd have a reason to be if she was.

Thank you Becca :)

[Becca]

I'm sorry they are being so useless.

I hope the therapist appointment went ok.

[Patent Pending]

I have very few words Lottie but wanted to leave love and *hugs* ♡

x x x

[Wonderland.]

Maybe it would help to have something planned after your therapist, so that your mind is occupied on something else - so you are less likely to SH.

[Uglyducklin]

Hey lottie I'm low on words but I really hope your therapists appointment goes well and is useful. Leaves hugs.