I always started off cutting my arms because it's so much easier to get to - it's habit for me to wear short sleeves or roll my sleeves up so cutting my lower arm was much easier in that respect than faffing around undoing or rolling up jeans and the like to get to my legs or anywhere else. Plus it's much easier to see what you're doing. Hiding it wasn't really an issue for me as I just started pulling my sleeves down instead of rolling them up - plus I half wanted people to see as in a way it was a cry for help.
also, when I first started, it was aways rather intense... but as I built up more scar tissue, i couldn't feel it much at all, which scared and comforted me at the same time i know, i'm strange
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i usually stick to my arms because if someone walks in where i'm doing it it is easier for me to cover them up but rolling down my sleeves, rather than explain why i had my pants off.
my arms are usually kept out of the way of things that could infect any cuts.
also becuase my arm is in so much pain and nobody knows, i can punish myself by having to use my arms to do things, therefore making the pain more intense.
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its weird but it just doesnt feel the same anywhere else, ive also cut on my legs and stomach but its not the same feeling or release as i get when i cut my arms.
when i was younger and first started SI around 11 or 12 years old i did it on my arms. basically because it just seemed like the place to do it. i never really put much thought into it. since i've started SI again about 2 years ago when i was 23, i only do it on my chest/stomach/rib cage area as i don't really want it to be so apparent. also the chest is easier to bandage without people asking questions. and though arms seem rather common, i think people cut all over the place. it just depends on the person. i see people on here all the time who talk about cutting other areas like their legs. '
also, there have been times when i wasn't really thinking about the consequences when i was cutting. i just needed to cut and would go after the first part of my body that i could think of...this may be why some people go after their arms first...
my whole life has been. running with the wind. and playing with the cowards. it’s so hard to see. i’m fractured within. a poet in a window. we’re bastards and thieves. we’re lovers and saints. we’re holding on to mourning. and in the shadows i will be. until the sunlight melts away. until we tire of murder...fill me up with love...say goodbye when you leave. remember to breath. remember to listen. it’s getting harder to be. the son you want of me. the son i’ll never be.
I started out cutting my hands/palms in various ways, to test it out.
Then I moved to my forearms because I could pass it off as work injuries (for a while). And because I didn't really think too much about hiding scars, as this period was during the winter months.
Then I started again, and it was as the weather was getting warmer so I had to move to my shoulder. I don't prefer to cut there, I definitely prefer my forearms... but I don't really have a choice because I have to roll up my sleeves at work every so often and I don't want any awkward situations.
"When I was a little kid, my mother told me not to stare into the sun, so when I was six I did..."
When I first started I didn't really think about how people would react to the scars, or how hot it would be in a sweatshirt during the summer. I've since moved to my legs, which have now turned a lovely shade of white from not getting sun, because they are so much easier to hide. In reality I'd much rather be able to cut on my arms though, I'm not sure why, it just feels better there I suppose.
Sometimes, you have to try more than once.
Alice came to a fork in the road
"Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "It doesn't matter."
i started on my arms and its just the place i think it feels the best, and is more convinient. i like to look at the cuts sometimes, but sometimes i hate seeing them. i tried the legs for a while, but just didnt get the same satisfaction out of it. even though its harder to hide, especially in the summer, its just where i prefer to do it. =/
i started with my arms, just on impules, then it just sorta carried on.....but when i restarted i did it on my legs so hide it from my parents...(there the only people i try n hide it from, cos i dnt rly give a **** wat other people thinK) but its feels different from cutting the arms....i cant rly place my finger on it though...i dunno what it is.....altho i see it more...which keeps reminding me that I DID THAT TO MYSELF.
Although it is a very personal thing to me and I feel very wary about how obvious arms can be, there is only one person who I desperately don't want to see my SH and that is my boyfriend. For that reason, the arms are easier because wearing long sleeved PJs or arm warmers in bed is less suspicious (and more comfortable) than wearing trousers etc. Plus there's the issue of him seeing me naked, the arms are a part I can keep covered.
I also agree with what everyone else said about how it's easier, and I like the fact that I can see my veins.
heya
i started on my arms because they were jus ther...i mean, i did it the first time on impulse..mixed emotions and my arms were jus out there..i guess at the time i didnt need to think twice about doing it there
i started on the toops of my legs then moved onto the tops of my arms and now tend to cut the bottoms of my arms and wrists. At first I felt like I had to hide the scars and cuts but now I dont care who sees them. Its what makes me I suppose. I dont wear long sleeved tops all the time now. Ive even started going swimming which means the scars on my arms and legs are exposed.
Although now I have lost my son as my ex (his dad) has got custody of him, to get him back I have to play it right and not cut but thats going to be impossible so I have had to resort back to cutting on my legs and stomach so that he doesnt find out.
I love seeing the scars on my arms - I am proud of them - sad and sick I know but its true. Although some days I wish they would disappear but they have been so deep they will be there for life.
I've done SH for years and always just done it on my arms, it's easy access i guess, i go through phases now of doing it on my legs that way no one can see it and they aren't suspicious,
I've done it on my stomach a few times when my arms and legs where really full of scars.
Ive never found it particularly difficult to hide my arms.Probably because we only have about a month of hot weather each year. For me its just where ever my body tingles to be hurt, its instinct and to be honest most of the time i dont realy think about the consequenses(sp?) at the time that i am triggered.
I'd say it was a bad idea to start on my arms though,they arnt as easy to hide as legs i suppose and my mom keeps talkin about how i will have to have a long sleeved wedding dress if i marry and whatever and i never realy thought about the future like that when i started scarringmy arms.
Hope that helps a little to answer your question.
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I started cutting my forearm because ... I don't think I was really thinking about it at all. I just did it. When I started I didn't even know what I was doing was wrong. Then I stopped and started again a few months later at the top of my arm, because I'd learned it was easier to cover.
Then I stopped and started again on the top of my thigh because it was easier to conceal it, although over the years I have cut all over my body.
I guess I don't really know why I cut my arms. I didn't think it was wrong so I guessed it wouldn't matter if anyone saw anyway.
Well... I dunno, it's partly for convenience and partly because I just liked seeing the scars there =/ I cut on my thighs though because I don't like the way they look- same with my stomach.
i'd only come here seeking peace i'd only come here seeking me it seems i came to leave
its alot easier on the arms but ive done it all over- legs, hips, upper and lower arms and just under my breasts. i only did the legs once cuz it was very obvious at school cuz i wore a skirt. it made my friends tell the teacher...
I've seen it all before
Beauty and splendour torn
I's when heaven turns to black
And hell to white
Right so wrong and wrong so right
I know for me, I stumbled upon SI accidentally on the first incident [long story]. After that, looking back, anything after that was purely intentional. At the time that I began to SI my reasoning for hurting myself on my arms was because, and I quote "I play soccer and my legs are too important". Now I realize years later that it sounds stupid no matter what I say...but that was over 6 years ago. It happened and I have moved on.
Now that I am recovering, I regret SI-ing on my arms..which is something I never thought I would do. Besides the psychological damage that I inflicted on myself by hurting myself, the 'cosmetic' damage if you will, is hard to cope with sometimes.
It doesn't do me any good to dwell on it, because what is done is done. Long story short that is why my arms..
"..Say what you will but I believe in moments like this, they make us matter.
Look in my eyes and tell me you don't believe that I'm right.."
it was always on the top of the arm, at least above the elbow, just for ease i guess, i only moved down the arm when i ran out of space, i guess as other people have said its the fact that you have to consciously hide it on the lower arm but its mainly ease
i think for me its just the quickest place to get too.
For example i tend to wear jeans/or tights with a skirt.So when im SI im normally in a really angry rushed mood so i want to cut straight away & dont want to pull down my jeans or tights to get to my legs.
I regret it though.
Its alryt other than work.I have to wear a short sleeve tshirt to work.
My arm is terrible from last night so im wearing a bandage and lying about getting it trapped in the door.
Ive done my hips before, but i find thats more painful as my jeans/skirt rub against the scars more.
I guess arms because of the access & because it what i alrways do
"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay"
i know, i'm strange
