I'm sorry you are feeling ignored. Remember you can always e-mail the supporters at support@recoveryourlife.com ~ sometimes you might have to wait a bit for a reply but it will be seen, whereas on the boards things can easily get lost especially if there are other fast moving threads.
Do you know what is making you feel so suicidal at the moment?
Also, I don't think they will give you a gastric band with your current mental health. I appreciate you hate your body but having a gastric band isn't going to solve that. It might change things in terms of weight, but it will also bring with it a new set of problems. I don't know if you have spoken to anybody about it before, but could you speak to your GP about how much you hate your body and ask what other options there are - such as therapy for distorted thoughts or if you truly do need to lose weight, then an access pass to the gym or dietitian etc.
It sounds very drastic Kym, and although I can appreciate you and your Doctor must be concerned if it's been offered, I just wonder if it would be a lot to cope with when you are already feeling so vulnerable and low?
You are beautiful, but losing weight isn't going to make you see that and although it might improve your self esteem a little bit, ultimately we need to feel better mentally about ourselves before we can feel "okay" about our bodies.
Do you think it would be worth speaking to your GP about some steps you can take immediately to help resolve your weight issues - for example, would it be helpful if your GP were to give you a pass to use the gym/swimming pool for free? I don't know if that's an option in your area but here they can give vulnerable patients who might benefit from exercise for a variety of reasons, reduced prices at the gym or even specific classes.
That's understandable your anxieties about the gym; it's not something I would feel comfortable doing either.
I like Katy's suggestion though of maybe seeing if there is a friend you could go with or looking in to exercise you can do alone. Personally I love doing Zumba on the wii. I look like a complete numpty but nobody can see me because I have the curtains shut!
^^basically what I said to you earlier. You'll never love your body if you starve yourself, no weight will ever be low enough. Cos starving messes up your mind, whereas if you go about it healthily you will be able to appreciate it. I know it's easier said than done, but it's worth it I hope to do it healthily. I am trying at the moment, so try with me?
Edit: ok so I hadn't seen this third page of comments when I made that reply. I would feel awkward going to a gym too but everyone is probably too busy feeling awkward about themselves to notice anyone else. Otherwise going for walks or doing exercise videos is an idea, maybe dance workouts if you like dancing? I recently started one then my DVD player broke! I need to get back into it, and walking. Maybe seeing a dietician might help too?
I won't like my body thin or fat, It just won't happen. :( I'm the freak of the family and everyone always expects me to fail at everything. Well getting thinner is something I won't fail at
Have you thought about going swimming? Or joining a sports club for weight loss? There are definitely things out there for people who are over weight, or things like Zumba that could be a fun way to lose weight?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Really had a tough couple days, Chest pains are back and I am seeing things out of the corner of my eye, I am sure this time though it is a women not a man.
Yesterday I was so lucky my manager was not in because I am sure I would of been sacked, we had a customer in and he was really rude and hard work and I lost it. Thankfully my mate was in she calmed me down. But I am am enjoying work it is just customers that are making me loose my rag. And a certain girl there.
I failed at the not eating though :( But last night took alot for me to fight the urges to cut real bad. I am even fighting them off now
