shhh its ok jo
*offers safe hug*
youre not better off dead and youve not dissappointed us.
could you call the samaritans or another organization that can help you get away safely honey?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
*cuddles into*
To scared to tell, they been hurting me more and punishing me badly since I ran away and said if I do it again or tell it will get even worse than it is now.
*curls up crying*
its to hard and frightening to tell, i tried and just frooze cant do it im stupid and bad.
im terrified about this afternoon, its gonna hurt bad *curls up in tight ball*
You are not bad Jo. No one has any right to hurt you like that, ever. No matter what. They are the ones who are bad, not you. You need to get out of there Jo. Quickly. With a safe place to go where they can't find you. Dont give up honey.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
i bad i very bad.
it hurts so much, they left something in me it hurts bad, say it my punishment cause i bad.
hate weekends never get to be alone they always here, never no when they gonna start again.
i just want to die, i emailed samaritans told em i want to die too but couldnt tell em why.
feel so dirty and ashamed, need to scrub them off me again need too all dirty, yucky need to scrub.
i sorry
Jo sweetie, you're not bad, not at all, nothing you've done it bad, nothing about you is bad. They are wrong, they say you're bad but they're totally and completely wrong.
Do you think you should go to the Doctors or hospital to get the thing out?
Thats great you emailed the Samaritans honey :) When they answer, try to tell them youre being hurt bad and need help getting away. Or even better, if you can, try to get to a hospital to get taken care of and get that thing removed, and tell them whats going on. They may be able to help. Are you an adult sweetie or still underage?
Youre not bad sweetie; likely they are saying that because they dont want to take responsibility for the evil things they are doing to you.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
couldnt get away from them, then i think i was drugged and passed out. i came too in the early hours with her beside me, it hurts bad everything hurts. they done stuff to me when i was out of it.
she wont go, why wont she go? she say im bad and dont trust me so she staying a while.
i just want to curl up and die
Jo honey, Facet is right, as soon as you have a chance you need to go somewhere, get away from them: hospital, police, samaritans, other organization. If you get a chance to call the police before you get a chance to leave, try to do that sweetie. I know its scary. You really need to get away from them, they are bad people and ahve no right to ever do any of those things to you. You can do this Jo.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
it all my fault, i bad deserve it.
getting punished bad cause i screamed and kicked her this afternoon, i went crazy at her, what is wrong with me? so stupid.
youve been hurt a lot jo, its not surprising you reacted like that
is there anything you can do to help the hurts?
do you ever have a chance to make a phone call?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
not allowed to do anything with hurts, they make em worse anyway when they want more.
all phones are gone not sure where, keep looking but cant find them, theyve hidden them not alone long enough to look properly. if i move they there on me.
