I need help please.... - Page 3

~Grace~ · 22-04-2011, 10:48 AM

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Pomegranate · 22-04-2011, 01:26 PM

How did it go? *leaves love and hugs* xx

~Grace~ · 22-04-2011, 07:45 PM

It went kind of ok thank you. I told her how freya had read stuff on my pc two years ago and that id told her it was all over...I know a lie/bad parenting.....but that freya had found something of mine in the bathroom and is going to see a counsellor. I told her why i did it...where my scars were

She asked if that was why i kept going to hospital...so I said yes. I told her that if she needed to see a counsellor we would arrange it.

She said she had noticed the scars on my lower arm and had wondered about them...theyre not proper scars, a bit irregular from when I was in hospital..I didnt say that though

Yeah it went ok I think...shes taking me into town tomorrow...so it will give me an opportunity to see how she is.....we hugged afterwards and then it was back to normal conversation...so....

We'll see

Sleepless123 · 23-04-2011, 07:20 AM

Rowie my sweetheart a major well done!

I AM SO SO PROUD OF YOU!!

It is really great that you have managed to talk to your eldest too and such a brave brave thing to do.Well done for doing it and getting through the fear before hand.Its a really major thing you have done there and regardless of anything else you should be so proud.

i know things are really really sh*t and crap for you right now and often understandably you dont feel you have the answers and never will and things can never get better.

But look at this Rowie.In the past few weeks have you not done things that youve never thought you'd ever do before?

And i know youd probably reply as i might in a similar situation i guess and say yes but im still rubbish cos of my mistakes and what im putting my children through and i should have hidden it better blah blah de blah blah.

But please try and turn this into a positive.Look at all that you have achieved recently.Had you ever thought before you might be able to talk to your children about your harming?Had you ever thought you and your family could ever have more open and positive relationships?

Yes the self harming part of you may feel more threatened by all of this.And so may your illness.But so it should.i believe all of this regardless of the circumstances that it came about in [but instead looking at the way youve handled it with your family] actually shows you are getting stronger.You can and will fight this illness.

Sure you wont always feel like this, in fact you rarely will at first if at all.But you can do this.As my team say to me you have been like this a number of years - it will take a long long time to change but you can do it.

i know that you are not fortunate to enough to have even any support from your CMHT right now and i am lucky that i do at least have some but i really hope that will change for you and/or that you can find some other support soon and i really do also think that a befriending service could be really really useful to you if you/your husband could find one in your area and contact them.And if nothing else it may at least help you get out a bit and more importantly to hopefully feel at least a little less alone.

And i know it is some way off but i also think it would be good if you husband could maybe come to back you up at the psych iappointment in a few weeks time [this may be something to think about, consider and possibly talk through with your husband now though i know it probably seems a long way off to you right now].

And i think that as well as knowing how very ill and chaotic and difficult things are right now that the psych also needs to know the steps youve made, the wonderful progress youve made with your family, how you have tried to change things recently.And i really hope this will give them more incentive to take you on.

Cos you are really struggling and of course you still have many times when you want to harm/die immensely and it all just seems too much and you dont think or want to recover but you are also working towards some really positive things which could mean well for your recovery and also shows how hard you are trying.

i think you should be entitled to more help.It is ok to struggle while still trying and that shouldnt preclude you from help.You can only try your best and i think you are right now.

It is really important the psych/mental health team hear these things from you/your husband/whoever as hopefully it will have an impact on any decision they may make regarding further support or taking you on.Or at least i really hope it does.

im sorry this reply is so long and rambling and probably really not helpful at all.i just wanted to say i know you are still really really struggling beyond belief but from the outside i also think that you are also really making progress right now and i want to say a big well done from me.It must have been really hard for you and you have been so brave.You can do this Rowie.

i believe in you.Others do too.i am proud of you and i hope one day [if not now] then you can be too.

This can be [and is i feel proving to be] a real turning point for you.

Just wanted to say this and hope things arent too bad for you today and that it goes ok going into town with your eldest.Thinking of you.

Keep fighting girl.

xx xx

23-04-2011, 07:37 AM

sooo happy u managed to talk to her and it went ok :D

Margo · 23-04-2011, 08:53 AM

Well done!

This is the beginning Rowie!

Xxxxx

~Grace~ · 23-04-2011, 05:05 PM

Just wanted to say thank you somuch to all of you who have supported me and advised me on this thread. I really dont think I would have been able to do what I have done with out you.....so thank you very very much.

Spent time with my eldest in town today and it was lovely....just like normal. Going for a walk and then pub meal tomorrow with the other two which will be nice....

so yes
thank you so very much
snuggles and kisses xx

CaiteeBug · 23-04-2011, 05:35 PM

Oh Rowie, I'm so happy for you!! I'm really glad it went well. *snuggles*

Pops. · 23-04-2011, 05:38 PM

I am so so proud of you! So so proud :)
*cuddles*

Whispered Secret · 23-04-2011, 07:54 PM

Rowie hunni, I'm so glad things have gone so wll with your kids. Well done sweetie xx

Pomegranate · 24-04-2011, 01:54 AM

I am so proud of you Rowie. Honestly. I know this has been exceptionally hard on you but you have gotten through it and done it. You have not taken the easy option and backed out. YAY! I really hope you enjoy this time with your children. This honesty is really great for all of you. Again- really happy and proud of and for you. *leaves lots of love* xxx