As you said shadow to Dan ,that in april you started to feel down , can you help us to understand what made you feel down. Its understandable that you used Self Harming and oding to cope. But its often the reason behind the self harming and oding that needs to be healed lf you could tell us what that was it would help you to try and overcome your
suicidal behaviour.
Are your parents supporting you enough, have you told them enough, and have you been able to talk to your counsellor about your suicidal feelings.
I know Shadow it seems difficult for you right now but we are here for you to support you , its allways down to you what you decide to take from us. But we will be here shadow
Dave
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
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ian i was wondering if you ever got any help with the stuff that went on while you were at school as i think that still affects you now. (just my opinion please correct me if im wrong)
take care
kate
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I'm sorry that things are so bad for you, still. But as long as you keep focusing your attention on the pills and the self-harming, then you're not really going to be able to deal with the way you feel and the reasons for it, and start to feel better. So I would suggest getting rid of those pills or giving them to someone you trust, and start trying to do something to help yourself. As others have said, it would probably be a good idea for you to talk about some of the stuff that's brought you to this point. I don't mean the self harm or whatever, the things behind all of this. Talk to your parents, your counsellor, us.
Darling, I don't mean to belittle what you're going through at all. But from April until now really isn't that long, in the scheme of things. It's what.. five months? And while that might feel absolutelty unbearable at the moment, it certainly isn't enough time for you to tell yourself that this isn't going to go away. I was self-harming and feeling really low for um, 5 years-ish. And I got there, things are a lot better now. I know people who've suffered from depression for a lot longer than that and still got to a point where they're glad to be alive. All I'm trying to say is you can't know right now that things won't get better, there's every chance that they will. But you have to give yourself a chance.
Ian mate, honestly, by this point, you're OD'ing so often i personally would think the best idea would be to go to A&E, explain, and wait for their psych.
Then ask him about voluntarily going into hospital for a little while, just to keep you safe and help you.
Things can't get any worse then where you're at. It can only go up. I don't know what else to say, as unfortunatley, as i know, when you're at the stage you are you don't listen to reason, and while it's not your fault, it is seriously dangerous to your health if you don't listen to us.
I'm sorry you're feeling like this, i really am, i hope you can beat it. Take care mate.
On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
please please please go to a & e and make sure that you are safe.
the people around you need to know how bad you feel so please ask them for help.
if you ever want to get out of this state rather than od-ing you need to do something positive and ask for help. i would advise as people already have said to go and ask at a&e to be kept in until you feel safe enough to leave.
Hey shadow,
Thank you friend for your pm its really kind of you, hey i hear youve taken some tablets, and i hear your not feeling so good.
listen my friend i know in the end things are down to you, but please try and hold on and please do think about going to A & E to help you with the oding, and maybe staying in hospital for a while would help.
i do understand you may not care about much right now friend but we all care so much for you and hear your distress, but we really want to help you right now. Please let us help you, please go and get help, mate ,
talk with someone and see if they can help you mate . You have many friends here who care and want to help you help yourself through this difficult time.
please keep posting and talking , youve got to hold on mate , we are here and will allways be here for you, but its up to you mate to let us in and be there for you, dont give up now Ian keep fighting mate.
i want to get to know you better cant do that if u aint here, you have a future mate , you can turn things around, it takes time, but you have us my friend on your journey if you let us.
pm me anytime please
Dave
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
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Im so confused someone who talks to from here kindly looked it up for me and iv got all the symptoms from my od. Im confused i mean this is one of my symptoms.
Hey Shadow ,
Im sorry i didnt get u sooner, you say right now your confused about someone from ryl giving you all the symptoms you have from your od.
Can you please try and describe more about what you are trying to say mate so we can understand you.
please get back and talk more with us mate
Dave
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
Yesterday or the day before i cant remmember i od i started feeling really confused, light headed and dizzy. When somone i talk to heard about this she kindly looked it up for me. What im trying to say is iv got the symptoms from my od. Thats what i meant to say but i was obviously confused when i typed that. Anyway i came on here because i cant cope i cant do this anymore. Cant cope much longer feel like giving up. I cant even cope at college let alone with my bloody life. Iv had enough i cant do it anymore! Im such a failure i cant even do simple things. I cant cope i cant i cant i cant! As usual im a useless piece of shit!
Shadow, you really do need help. I hope you do understand exactly what you're doing to your body. I've taken an overdose (it was an accident) and ir has really messed up my life. Because of my OD, I am now unable to fight off infections like everyone else.
please do not give up your not useless...you really need help maybe go to AandE or phone NHS24. L x
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
Shadow mate,
Thanks for explaining what you were trying to say, well mate from what you say about you having alot of the symptoms from taking your overdose.
You really need to go to A & E OR GO AND SEE YOUR DR , please mate
i hear you about coming back on ryl because you cant cope. Well please
please mate go and get some medical help.
I understand you about not being able to cope with stuff, such as college, and your life.
You need support my friend you need to let others professionals help you manage this period, especially getting seen by someone about your overdose, you could have serious after affects from the OD.
You are not useless my friend, i know its hard to do most things but please please go and seek medical help for the od you have taken.
we care about you and want to help you please understand what people have said to you.
let us know how you get on mate.
Dave
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
I cant cope iv really had enough! I keep thinking about jumping off the bridge or anything just as long as im dead. As if it couldnt get any worse! Im still collecting pills too. I would like it if i could grab hold of the whole box but i cant cos my mum would notice. I know im not the only one suffering like this and that there are people worse off. But i dont know what to do anymore. Iv had such a bad day today i cried. Im in a mess. I dont know how much longer i can do it. Seems better if i just die. I cant do it so might aswell be dead. I keep thinking constantly about dying. Its the only solution i cant cope myself so i might aswell die. That way i wont have to go through all this. I know other people would be upset and that but at least id be out the way. I think to myself how selfish i am on here keep talking about all this i should just do it then it would be over and done with and not hang around wasting time keep thinking about ending it. I just did something iv never done before. Im not sure if im allowed to say it though but it is quite common. Im in pain tho oh well never mind. Deserved it.
