No! I understand how you are thinking and I know and you know it's wrong. You have to make a decision that is helpful even if it's against what you feel. I'm in the same boat so I know. We can't have you giving up! I've been in the hospital, it's not that bad. Its a nice escape actually and you get the right attention. Now, what good thing are you going to do??? You are worth it! Don't give up.
Strawberry.cola thank you! You are sweet too, and it's very important that you stay safe!
I'm doing ok. Not suicidal (yay!) but still not thinking quite right. One day I'll be good and the next I'll be really struggling. Thank you very much for asking!
I like your backup plan by the way. Do you have a crisis line in mind? Maybe you should get the number so it's handy. And there when you need it. What do you think?
Oh sorry. You said crisis TEAM and I read crisis line. That's great too to call your crisis team. I'm proud of you. We are still here for you. I know it's hard. Maybe you could also look up a crisis line number?
I feel so stupid, I shouldn't feel this way, especially being at home for a while but I just do. I just am so tired, and because I'm at home I always have to pretend to be happy and fine when I'm just not. I cant wait to get back to my apartment...I just am done with all of this...
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
Xxeraynxx, I have to pretend too. I hate it. I don't even know what's wrong with me. I have a good life, I should be happy. But my brain just doesn't think correctly. I am sad. Just wanted to let you know I know how you feel. Hug. Let's not give up ok? It's gotta get better than this.
"Looking4hope, it's exhausting to pretend to be well when you are not. You are not a burden and if anyone treats you that way it's their problem not yours. But I pretend a lot so I know what you are going through. I pretend and yet, those who really love me have not abandoned me when I haven't been able to keep pretending. I hope you feel better soon. Feel free to be yourself here. We know what it's like to feel hopeless. I believe that you are valuable and there is a huge reason why you are here... To be you. It's that simple. No pressure. Just you. Please post again."
No one says I am. I just feel like a burden. I get tired of all of this. I am so tired (physically). But I just can't figure out what I need. It just keeps going in a cycle. Some days I can't eat. Some days I feel sick. Some days I can barely get out of bed. Some days I wake up at six and can't go back to sleep. Some days I feel alone. Some days I feel so crowded out. I'm at my wits end. I'm currently so tired I can barely think strait. I'm just confused and tired of all this...
~Delancey
Please note that I don't use this account anymore. My account is now: backafterthebridge if you need me. Stay safe!
no bc i'm at home. I can't cut, I cant do anything, and that makes me more and more anxious. I feel like everything is building up and I just want to explode. I dont want to trigger anyone. I just am done.... :(
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
xxeraynxx: firstly, I just want to say I saw your picture and it is amazing!
Secondly, I'm sorry you're struggling so mcuh right now. Can you tell anyone?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
@ xxeraynxx this post is for you ad much as for any of us. You belong. Hug. What are you doing tonight? I tried watching tv now I'm back on the Internet. Anything to distract. How are you doing??
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
