I feel irritable because I ran out of cigarettes last night and don't have any money to buy any more, I feel stressed out and unable to go on or work any problems out because of my money situations and I can't seem to find a solution. There is no solution. It's so hard to live my life I just want to die because then I won't have to worry all the time and fight so much. I am facing being homeless again and I am so tired of being homeless. Especially with two children. I dont' want to be here and do this anymore. It's too hard. Everyone is depending on me and I can't help or take care of a single one of them.
I'm tired and irritated because I don't want to watch this stupid movie that randi ^ wants to watch tonight because I know I can't give it my 100% attention but she won't stop until I watch it with her. >_<
IF there is any light left it is shrouded by shadows and from within this darkness I see no way out
My wings are broken and bound too tight, there is no escape from its grip tonight!!
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
I feel like someone sawed off the top of my head, filled it with razors, then shook it as hard as they could...
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
My boyfriend broke up with me last Tuesday. I felt happy because he told me he was going to come and see me today, and that he misses me and loves me. But now I feel sad because he asked me if I wanted to go to the cinema with him on Friday, and I thought it was going to be just us, but he invited other people too, and now I don't want to go because I don't want to have to sit there and pretend I'm happy and enjoying a film that I don't really want to see. I'm going to go though, just to be with him. I feel fed up with crying and like I've been fooling myself the last few days that he'll regret it and want me back. I just feel sick with worry he's going to cheat on me.
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
I feel light headed and tired, but not tired enough to sleep just yet. I feel proud of myself for having written enough of my story for it to be a novelette, but I'm disappointed that no one else seems as excited as me. Also, I feel a bit disgusted by myself for eating KD.
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
I feel a tad shaken but so ****ing grateful that my friend is okay which has made me realise how important it is to value the things you have in your life rather than moping about other things.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
