In some ways I like them, in some ways I hate them.
I don't have bad scars at all luckily, just very faint white lines - they're noticeable to me, but I don't think they're noticeable to most people unless someone is looking closely at my arm (which tbh, would be a bit odd anyway).
When I self-harm I want those scars. I like to see the physical reaction to how I feel, I want to be able to see what I am doing to myself and it makes me feel slightly better.
But I hate them because it's embarrassing - I don't want to spend my life wearing long sleeves because I'm worried about the reaction. I want to wear short sleeves in summer, be relaxed about swimming, and not panic in case anyone sees. And that stops me from wanting to self-harm in the end, so it's all good. :)
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