“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
It was quiet last night here.
But I barely had any sleep. About 4 hours, max. There was too much like buzzing energy in the air all around. I could feel it. I'm sensitive to things like that more than I used to think. It's not like it's a bad thing. I just.. could use some sleep. So I feel kind of grouchy this morning, but also hyper-alert still, my mind super-clear.
I'm so tired, and am starting to feel really strung out and foggy. Panicky about the weather forecast again, too.
Really need to sleep, but next door's kids are making a lot of noise.
I have to get up 6.30 in the morning to go to work.
*sits with*
what scares you about the weather hun?
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“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Still no snow here. Thank God. I hope it stays that way. Everywhere, forever. No snow. No bad weather. No bad things. Nothing that makes me worry about people, and make me afraid and alone.
This morning I feel churned up and sick, and am getting nasty voices, really twisted.
But if it stops them getting back home...
I can't bear any more time struggling with *it all* without her support. And then if *anything* happens.
It said it would snow here today, yesterday, and it hasn't.
I don't know what to believe any more.
Have taken homeopathy dose. If it doesn't help, I'll contact him later. But i am seeing him on Wednesday, so I really shouldn't be contacting him so close to seeing him. And he doesn't really understand the depth of my separation anxiety.
Weather predictions can often be off, it can be really unpredictable. That must be scary for you. Maybe you could avoid the weather forecasts for a while?
If it doesn't help I think it may help you to contact him, despite it being close to seeing him, especially if it distresses you.
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I can try. Although you know how when something really is worrying one can get compulsive about checking?
It's my therapist I'm worrying about.
I don't think my homeopath's gone anywhere.
I'm working on a progress chart for him now. The dose seems to have helped a bit. I really.. lost it again there for a while.
Do you think it'd be reasonable to call your therapist tomorrow?
Yeah I do understand the compulsive thing and I know how hard it can be. How are you at distracting yourself? Maybe try to lose yourself in a good book or film.
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I can't call my therapist. She's still away. For another week. I don't know what day she's coming back, where she's gone, or even if she's back already. I know it's good boundaries that I don't know any of that, and if I knew I would probably panic all the more.
Thanks. :)
I'll try and relax into something a bit later.
Will probably contact my homeopath in the morning if I feel bad again. I've a question I want to ask him about the chart I'm making anyway.
