some sort of attack - Page 3

Pnuemonia[Blue] · 27-12-2009, 09:05 PM

maybe they're just worried about you honey and want to come over to see if you're okay. If they are spying on you, what are they going to do with the information? Please try not to get too distressed about it. xxxx

Sunshine · 27-12-2009, 09:12 PM

I told my parents that they should book the holiday and if i have another attack between now and then they can take me to a&e and i will admit myself to the psych hospital and tell them about the cameras and the voice in my head so that they get to go on holiday without me and not waste too much money! im not sure i can do it though! i do kno i cant go back into hospital because they are the ones watching me and doing this to me! it would be like giving myself to them to do anything to me! and the only reason i said it was because i was sure i could finaly control the attacks but now im so sure and im so scared of going into that hospital! what do i do? im screwing up my families lives and i really dont want that1 i want them to have a holiday they havent had a propper one for 3 years because ive always been mental and by having these attacks and keep on trying to run away during them i will ruin it for them!

Pnuemonia[Blue] · 27-12-2009, 09:26 PM

that is a very very brave decision hun.Well done x

Sunshine · 28-12-2009, 10:36 PM

im getting worried they are putting mind control stuff in my food! im not sure if they are but its starting to worry me! i dont know if i can eat the food my parents give me, they are in on it! i need to go away on holiday so that they cant get to my food! i hope the HTT say im aloud to go! but i dont think they will because they are the ones doing this to me! everyone is in on it my friends and my family and the police and its the mental health people doing it all to me!
on the plus side i havent had an attack all day! im trying to control them so we get to go on holiday but i doubt we will
xxx

Sunshine · 29-12-2009, 02:03 PM

Im going on holiday!

the hospital said YES!

i cant believe it! but it makes me think maybe this is just a plot to get me to go where they want me and out of the country so they can do some terrible thing to me, something that they cant do in england because its illegal?!?!?! what do i do then! i mean i could always run away from my parents when im there if they take me anywhere but then i wont be able to get home and the police will probably just lock me up!

im so stressed right now trying to figure out why they are letting me go! i know the cameras will be there because they have heard where we are going through the cameras in my house! and through the computer

i want you to leave me alone!

Sunshine · 08-01-2010, 10:02 PM

I managed to have only one attack during my week long holiday but then i got bac to the airport and had a massive one waiting for the luggage and then all the way home and i refused to get out of the car because of the cameras and i was crying and so they carried me into the house shouting that i cant go inside there and locked all doors so now im trapped inside this house with the cameras and i cant handle it!

Sunshine · 10-01-2010, 10:47 PM

sorry for posting again, i just had another attack and tried to get out the house because of the cameras watching me but my parents locked all the doors and started shouting and shoving me around so i called the police and told them i was locked in my house and then an hour later when they got here they wouldnt let me out either and they didnt believe me about the cameras and told me i was wrong and that my parents had every right to keep me locked in the house and left! its horrible i need to get out of this house! the cameras are watching me and i cant deal with it! i cant even have a bath or shower because of them!